july 8th , 2005

7:10pm

ah, the movie "rock star" is on. such a good movie.
remember when i thought about trying out (for 1/2 a day) for that reality tv show to be the next lead singer of INXS but then decided not to?
how funny is it that dave navarro is the host of it?
(for those of you that go back that far and get the reference)
ha :)

oh i love this movie, rock star!
seriously, if you haven't seen it you have to!
damn, i need some red leather pants, don't i? :P

 

5:58pm

this is so weird, i automatically want to sit on the floor where i used to sit for the computer.
it's just so ingrained in me. i'm finding myself missing sitting there already. i am so weird.
i didn't know i had become attached to sitting there, even tho sitting there was hurting my knee.
it's funny how we can miss little things so soon that aren't even very good for us just because we become addicted to the familiar.

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funny little interuptions.
i wish i had saved the funny spam i got today about how to not make your girlfriend angry by penetrating her "hardly".
yes, by hardly penetrating your girlfriend, you willl avoid many fights!

where was i?

oh...i made a bath. having a glass of wine. need to unwind.

i just realized, i used to name all my mannequins, and then i started geting so many that i didn't name them anymore.
so, the mannequin that sat on my piano never had name (or maybe she did and just never told me) :)

i think it's high time she have a name, now that we are sleeping together in the same bed.

so....what do you think for names?
give me your ideas and let's give her a name!

my 1st mannequin was given to me by sally sweet (her real name!) the 1st keyboardist (farfisa organ) for my band, the blue up? i named her charlotte. and she is the one who was white spirals on her breasts which i painted on with tempera paint. she actually used to wear clothes and had a wig. but i don't knwo somehwere allong the line, my interest in keeping her clothes waned. the look so nice naked and bald.

then i got alice. her head was severed from her body because she was going to be made into a robot that played drums for a band named 11:11, but they couldn't figure out how to make that work, so she ended up in a basement and some asshole defiled her with red spray paint in a violent way on her breasts and vagina.
so i spray painted her black and painted gold spirals all over her. she always remained very crabby, probably because i never could figure out the right glue to keep her head on.
i sold her a few months ago to an interesting businessman who is keeping her in his office.
i let him know of her crabbiness and that she'll warm up to him after awhile :)

then i got solveig, the mannequin that is finally as tall as i am (she is supposed to be a teenaged mannequin or something). she has no boobs. she looks like me before ever got my boobs.
she's the mannequin i fucked on cam a few times simply because she is the right height for me and i like to look my mannequin's eyes when i fuck them :) ha :) yes, i guess i am a little strange, but in a good way.

then i got montreal, she is the one with the real human-like glass eyes.
my friend mr. antle gave her to me.
at 1st i was very afraid of her because she is probably the fiercest mannequin i have ever owned.
as i put her together i talked to her and told her that everything was going to be fine and that i was her friend and so not to worry or kill me in my sleep :)
we eventually got to know each other and now she is the main warrior, holding down the fort, so to speak.
i know if anyone ever tries to break into my house again, montreal will scare the shit out of them.
she models many of my hats.

then the word got out in the universe that i liked mannequins and they will all have a really good time at my house.
which is true.
and so chris strouth gave me 3 of his mannequins.
one i painted silver (because someone had drawn crayon or something all over her) and got rid of her legs because she had no arms either. then i ended up giving her to jason as a present.
she also models many of my hats and you also see me making out with her on the cd sleeve and poster formy anavoog.com cd.

one was just a torso, but she is also very vintage and i've tried to name her a bunch of times but nothing has really ever stuck. and then there is another quite like her and she has all her arms and legs and even a stand, but there is something wrong with her stand and so she kind of just floats there, in midair, her feeting never touching the ground.
her torso is on my desk now, she's the one on the far left. and the other one i just talked about is on the far right.

charlotte and solveig are in the middle.

then during the peak of anacam , when i had the most money, and during my hugest ebay addiction, i bought something like...man, i don't even know. a ton of mannequins.

i found out that my favourite kind of mannequin of all time is made by "rootstein"
montreal is a rootstein, and so is the one with no name that laid on my piano for all those many years.
and there were 2 sitting mannequins i owned which were rootsteins, one crossed her legs and i sold her to someone that i canot remember. i don't know why i can't think of where she went. i laid in bed the other night trying to remember but couldn't!

then there is another one who sits but her legs are spread in a dramatic way and she is still in the thing room on the top of a shelf looking all suave.

and then i think i bought about 6 mannequins for $200 a piece from the same seller. they were brand new and all had the same face.

the one that sits is now owned by farbel on lj. he is going to "farbelize" her and i cannot wait to see :)

it's kind of a blue where the other ones went.

but of the mannequins which all have the same face, i have 3 of them left, all standing.
they are very helpful for me to use as models for my outfits i make as they stand and have stands, so i can stick them in the middle of a room and put something i made on them and survey it from all sides.

none of them have names.

why am i so into mannequins?
well besides the fact that they look cool as hell and are great sculptures, the reason i started collecting them is because they protect me.

bladerunner had a huge affect on me (and diva) and when i saw pris in bladerunner hiding amongst the dolls and mannequins as if she were one when decker comes in to shoot her (if you haven't seen this movie you must).

anyway, after that guy bust in my house like jack nicholson in the shining, i needed a way to freak anyone out that might ever try to do that to me again.
getting a ton of mannequins was my way of helping to ensure my safety. as anyone who wouyld try to bust in my house would immediately freak out and run out the door not knowing which was the mannequin and which was me.

it works! i even have certain maintenance guys who would not work on my house because my mannequins flipped them out.

and then, of course, i bought 2 guns. because if all else fails, shoot.

so...these are my mannequins stories.
i don't think i've written about them all together like this before.
i don't know where i even got the energy to type that all out.

but there you have it. the stories of my mannequins and why i have them.
it's a little strange, but it works for me, and they certainly have played an important part in my life and made many a pretty photo on anacam.

but the question still remains, what shall we name the mannequin that used to lay on my piano and now is in my bed?

*off to the bath*

5:09pm

well, i got my main computer (the one on my desk) running now. i can't believe i got everything hooked up correctly.
i'm not sure what i think of this set up yet. it's going to take me awhile til i get everything arranged in a way that i am happy with. lots of cords on the floor now which is rather a drag.
i'm running out of energy to do much more. i think i'll just vacuum the spot where my computer used to be and then i'll just hook up the business computer tomorrow maybe. or maybe i'll get a second wind later.
i wiped down everything. i had no idea how filthy my computer monitor was! yuck!
i still have lots to clean.
i think i may use the storage space that i was given in this building to put the mannequin legs and arms into and just keep the torsos out. i think i had it that way before and i can't remember now why i took them all out of storage and put them all back together again. i think it was to sell some? i think that was it.
i kind of wish i had it in me to just get rid of the arms and legs all together, but i feel too awful doing that.
i would feel like i am killing off part of my mannequins or something...like the movie "boxing helena".
i still have no idea where i will put the mannequin that used to be on top of the piano. i guess she'll just have to be on my bed for awhile.
i'm running out of steam. my muscles are sore. i have a layer of grime on me.
i think i'll eat something and then take a bath.

people are acting very strangely today. lots of weird emails. one from a person who is pretending to be from the government and he's telling me how he slept in the nude and now his room smells like honey butter and does that get me "hott", and then one from a real senator asking me why am i not copying him on my emails anymore (???).
and another that's really too gross to even repeat having to do with someone's "pee pee". yep, there are some people with a few mental issues out there and for some reason they are really crawling out of the woodwork today.

 

3:43pm

i'm going to shut off my computer now and attempt to get it on my desk.
pray for me that i remember how it all hooks up again.
i am the worst at remembering what connects to what!

so the cam will not be refreshing until i get this all hooked back up, k?
be back in a sec...(hopefully)

2:53pm

what a huge ordeal this is! moving the desk to the bedroom.
and the desk looks WAY huger in my bedroom than the piano ever did, which kind of bums me out. it's not as spacious in here now.
and i thought moving the desk out would somehow make the thing room seem larger, when actually it didn't seem to make a bit of difference! and now everything in the thing room is just a MESS and it's going to take me forever to figure out where on earth to put everything back into some sort of semblance of order!
everything is in total disarray! it'll all work out in the end, but DAMN i have a lot stuff!
and moving the desk into my bedroom really hit that obvious fact even harder into my face.
i mean, i know i have a lot of stuff, but god, i thought i was making such progress getting rid of it!
i mean, i got rid of a PIANO for god's sake the other day.
why did getting rid of an entire piano make me feel like i have even MORE stuff and LESS room now?
so bizarre!
good grief, i have so much work ahead of me...
one step at a time i will take this
*rolls up sleeves and goes to wipe down the grimey desk*


1:17pm

so i'm trying to decide if today i will make the huge effort to take everything off the desk in the thing room and then somehow lug that in here and put it where the piano was and then try and get my computer set up on it.
that is sooooo much work.
also, where the piano was is such a nice white wall in which i could maybe use as a backdrop for the camshow i have on july 28th for teknikunst. hmmmmm.....
*thinking thinking thinking*

i think i will move the desk in here or else all i will be doing is thinking about it.
i need more caffeine.

 

12:21pm

i love my little dainty pooka dog :)

11:38am

always nice to wake up and find over 60 disgusting comments in your livejournal made by the same psycho guy from last week. so i posted this in my LJ in a friends only post (i also got a lot of nice emails from people in australia who saw that webcam girls documentary on tv there again, yay!):

warning to all my friends


fyi, i've had to make my journal so that only friends can comment again because there is a psycho guy who , when i make it so all registered users can comment in my journal, he makes a new journal and then goes ballistic in my journal. i just had to delete over 60 comments of this (this time he used the journal "itsmeeagain")

"la la la...remember me?? thought so..btw i didnt 'spam' first before, i made a statement about how your just an attention whore that is a rip off, since porn is free via many sources on the net, and your 'nudity' was only going to last a week, when most porn sites let you visit repeatedly for a month for $15..im just bored, so think twice about removing all of these, or your livejournal will have to always be set to 'friends only' this only takes me about 2 minutes to setup, and then it runs on its own, so dont think, i think your something special, and 'going to alot of trouble to do this' because its no trouble at all...notice the IPs are probably different for some of the post too. have a nice day you lame attention hooker..."

and

"just think all you had to do was a quick flash of your feet/toes or just point to the url of the archive pix, and none of this would be happening. btw your 'friends' will start getting the same treatment soon. :-)"

and

"your welcome :-)
sweet dreams you overpriced lame attention whore."

so, just a heads up that this guy is probably going to start attacking your journal, too, since he said he is going after all my friends next.
so ban that journal from your journal right now.
and let's hope he doesn't create even more journals to harrass any of you.

ips he has used today:

80.190.250.139
208.214.18.142
136.145.54.123
82.92.225.162
206.51.237.44
212.112.238.98

and again, his username this time is: itsmeeagain

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Horoscope for Aries (July 8 2005)

You will have lots of energy to finish what you start. Added discipline will enable you to make those personal changes you've been considering. A change is in order and certainly overdue.

and

Realignment
Under this influence you will be able to make changes in your immediate environment and to reform circumstances that you have been unhappily contending with for some time. You should seize any opportunities that come today to wield creative power for the good. However, it is very important to realize that these energies must be used for the improvement of all and the general good. Only incidentally should this power benefit your purely personal ends. Today you will probably have to confront the power of a group or collective that you deal with every day. But the results are not likely to be disadvantageous. You will have to realign your own intentions with the collective intentions of the group ­ friends, neighbors or business associates ­ but this will probably work to your advantage.

and

Everything looks good today, but things aren't quite as they seem. You are feeling somewhat annoyed because someone has misrepresented the facts. You may believe others are trying to sell you on a concept that isn't as worthy as it appears. There's no need to start an open conflict over your mistrust. Just walk away from it.