june 29th, 2005
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10:14pm

i totally didn't get to see Lost today because it kept getting interrupted with severe thunderstorm warnings.
it hasn't reached here yet but there is some fabulous lightning :)

9:26pm

6:32pm

6:26pm

my super happy clean house

5:38pm

i kicked ass today!
there was actually more pictures but i forgot to save them after while, like while i was vacuuming.
i'm going to be sore tomorrow. there is a knot in my shoulder, but i don't care.
i am so deleriously about things being cleaner and more well organized!

i hope i can keep this up until evey last but is done.
but i think i deserve a break now!
gonna sit back in my bed after i take a bath and take it all in.

the wind is ferocious today.
i filled up the cracks of one window with toilet paper, but there is another one in my bedroom that is also making a terrible racket.
and there is one in the thing toom that is howling as well.
i can't wait until "lost" is on tonight"

oh happiness for my bedroom!
i have SO much more room to dance and move and create!

my sparser walls make me feel more calm.

*huge happy sigh*

 

4:41pm

you cannot even believe how much progress i have made cleaning!
it's shocking!
i even rearranged my room and moved the bed closer to the window so i have mroe room on the other side of the bed. switched the end table by my bed a different way. added the silver painting as the back of the bed. took down the white xmas lights as they were burning out.
took of all the yarn off my wall.
got everything off the piano and opened it so i can see the keys.
it's SO out of tune.
the thing rooom is now the new disater area as i moved everything in there. so that will be my next big project.
but i needed to make my bedroom sparse again.

ok..back to more cleaning. i'm on a roll!

 

1:26pm

major cleaning spree.
washed the window sill in my bedroom.
wasged all the glass pears and marbles ans such that go on the windowsill.
took ALL my rocks and put then in bowls and covered them in salt to purify them.
i'll keep them in their for a few days.
weighed myself today and i only weigh 103!
i just keep losing weight.
i think it's my nerves.
i hope that by cleaning today i can get less nervous. i am just focusing all my nervous energy putting my world in order.
i'm almost obsessive about it today.
i really like the rubber balls i got from jason. they are fun, and might use them for excercise, but they just take up too much room.
i cannot find a place for them in this house. at least not right now.

still trying to figure out where to out that massive silver painting.
god, i need to be able to MOVE in this place.
i am determined to figure out a solution today.

11:44am

they screwed up my window somehow yesterday and now it won't shut properly at the very bottom. a tiny place where wind can blow in, and it's really windy today and it's making my window whistle in such a way that it is nervewracking. argh.

i need to stuff toilet paper in the crack or something! aaa!

i had the worst sleep, something i ate made me sick. i think it was that chicken. i've had to it too long. going to throw it all out today.

i neeed to do some major grounding of myself today.
i feel like there is a hole in my aura.
i'll take a bath with sea salt.

i think all that strange guy mainentance man energy threw me off.
maybe i'll burn some frankincense, too.

also all nude all week is starting to get to me now.
but sometimes with it i have days like this.
it's hard to remain so exposed and aware of the camera all the time and i think i've overextended myself a bit and put SO much energy out into the universe. today i need to pull back a bit and take some "me" time. i feel really wiggy and ungrounded.
i need to keep a balance.

i'm sure i'll be fine in a few hours. i just need to stop this horrid whistling of my windows, ground myself in some water and just take my energy and use it towards myself today instead of hurling it all over into the universe.

there is also a terrible sound outside, like a gigantic industrial sized vacuum cleaner, and it's driving me nuts.

i think i will put on my gun silencer headphone things.

i think i have really bad PMS right now. my breasts really hurts, too.

ow.

i took all the documentation of the arguments i had with 2 people yesterday out of yesterday's anagram. i just don't even want to put that energy out into the universe. blech.
onward!

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Horoscope for Aries (June 29 2005)

Put a little time into self-improvement. A chance to do something nice for someone you love will make you feel good and brighten his or her day. You will impress others with your sound ideas. Go after your goals.

and

Self-inquiry
Valid during several weeks: At this time you have to get in touch with your own subconscious mind, to find out how it directs your life in ways that you aren't aware of. Try to see how your actions may run counter to your conscious intentions. We all broadcast two kinds of signals to the outer world. One kind is what we think we are trying to do. The other kind, which are unconscious signals, tell people what we are really trying to do. If these two sets of signals do not coincide, it is not because you are intentionally trying to deceive, but you may confuse people or even worse, cause them to lose faith in what you are trying to do. This is not a time to be wrapped up in your ego. You must be prepared to acknowledge your faults and your virtues without fear or self-recrimination.

and

You may be quite demonstrative now as you push more emotionally charged words into conversations throughout the day. It's possible that you are giving voice to feelings attached to old memories as you attempt to work through your anger. Consciously give others enough space for them to respond and to share their points of view. Regardless of what you think, it's not just about you.