may 28th , 2005
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pix of fashion show:

http://www.anacam.com/hats/shows/voltage05/VFA05.html

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this is the furniture i want in my house:

http://www.aquagallery.com/beta/indexb.html

i'm glad i found that link again!

10:54pm

http://www.masturbate-a-thon.com/pages/live-feed-go.html

watched that for a few minutes to see what it was about.
pretty boring to watch but it's for a good cause!
you'd think they could have come up with a more exciting set and better lighting! i mean, it doesn't have to be spectacular or like a porn movie, but dang it looks like they are in some sort of storage closet somewhere or someone's garage.
some woman on a folding chair with her hitachi magic wand and once in awhile they show the room which had a bunch of distant looking men standing there trying to beat off.
kind of uncomfortable looking.

oh ha, i just heard some actual audio from the place. hilarious :)
some very dry sounding man calls himself the "howard kosel of masturbation". he says he could do it standing up as easily as laying down. and now he's giving some sort of speech.
surreal.

they need some throw pillows or something. and some better music!
but A for effort :) *thumbs up*

http://www.masturbate-a-thon.com/pages/press.html

i see that last year a woman won a trophy for having the most orgasms (she had 36).
i could beat that (no pun intended) easily!
the most i ever had in a row was 44. and i would have continued but i had to go to a U2 concert :)

i'm going to watch CSI now :)

 

10:41pm

i just realized that because it's memorial day weekend i won't be able to call the electric co. on monday and pay my bill. and the next day it's due. it sure is going to be a close call!
*crosses fingers*

but i sure do have some pretty yarn and pretty beads!
ha :)

7:57pm

i was feeling all blah today and fuzzy took me to this amazing bead store and bought me some delicious beads as my belated birthday present! i got some huge mother of pearl buttons, some fire opal swarkovski crystal beads which are SO sparkly, and some other weirder shell ones, and some clove incense, and a white marble donut bead!
and this amazing slice of agate that is blue and clear.
and some needles and thread.
then we went to the yarn store where she teaches crochet sometimes and sells some of her creations, and i realized this kid mohair/silk yarn was the clours i have been trying to explain to jason of how i think the condo we might get should be painted and i was really relieved that he liked it! i'm glad we have similiar decorating ideas and he trusts my judgement on so many things :)
i'll take a picture of the yarn so you can see because it's too hard to explain it all. but it's kind of the colours of cinnamon, cumin, pumpkin, cream, a warm taupe, moss green, a lighter very vintagey green, black, charcoal grey and silver. and then this really deep rusty red which he wasn't too thrilled about but i will just paint the room i am going to have my stuff in that colour. it's kind of an opium den colour :) carnelian and cinnabar :)

it's weird to think about all this stuff.

especially weird since my electricity will be shut off in a few days if i don't pay it. so buying the yarn wasn't the smartest move, but if i didn't get to show jason the colours, then i would go crazy because i needed to know we were on the same page colourwise.
because if i can't get things to be the right colour it will effect my entire life and mood and so if he had hated these colours that would be a real drag for me. i'm so glad he doesn't NEED an ice blue and black house or something, as pretty as that would be, it would leave me cold. i need toasty snuggly rooms that are still spacious and light.

i need just the right balance of warmth and modernity.

but i better concentrate on finding stuff to sell ASAP now because i need $ to pay my rent while i thinking of how to decorate a condo!
ha :)
the juxtaposition of my life now and this fantasy future life which might happen is very funny but also stressful.

i hope i didn't catch some bug when i was out at 1st ave the other night because i feel very rundown today.

jason went out to a bbq at his friend's house. his friend is going to be moving away for 2 years to go to school so jason is sad.
it'll be all his guy friends drinking and i wasn't up for that, so i'm just staying in to have a mellow night by myself and the dogs.
the drinking thing is just not a thing i want to do lately. i had some drinks at 1st ave the other night and the next day i felt like total shit. i hate feeling like that. i'm really glad that drinking isn't something i feel inclined to do lately. i think i've had enough of that. i hate feeling all toxic.

i'm going to go fondle all my beautiful yarn and beads now.
arrange them by my bed so i can ooo and ahhh over them.

watch crime shows on tv.
squish the beasts.
crochet a bit.

i got some positive feedback on the photos i took of the fashion show from one of the women who was in charge, but not from the main one, anna, yet. i sure do hope i hear back from her.
maybe she didn't like my photos. i don't know.

i haven't gotten much feedback on the photos at all.
but what little i have received has been positive so i am thankful for that :) i guess it's that it's the weekend.

i know i did the best i could under the circumstances.

i'm going to light some of this clove incense now.
and go make a nest in bed.

12:04pm

Horoscope for Aries (May 28 2005)

Get into the feel-good mood and do what you know is the best for you. Your strong progressive and industrious attitude can work to your advantage. Start something that helps your community.

and

Intricate mental work
Your mind is quite clear now, and you are able to handle the details of intricate mental work. Work with figures and tasks that require close attention to detail should work out very well. The only thing to watch out for, however, is that you may not find such work interesting enough to want to do it. This is a matter of individual temperament. Some people get restless under this influence when confronted with any routine work, but others handle their routine much more effectively. Also your ability to keep track of details makes this a good time for any business negotiations or other similarly complicated discussions. A contract or deal that you agree upon today will undoubtedly work out quite well, and you will be quite sure that you included everything important in the agreement.

and

It's as if the lights were turned on while you were sleeping and suddenly you are wide awake. Your mind is racing around in circles, trying to figure out what has changed. The danger is that your thinking isn't taking you anywhere at all. While you are in this mental free-fall, remember to think about what you are going to say before opening your mouth. You'll be taken more seriously the less you say.