may 18th , 2005
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5:11pm

i made a slideshow of the first 4 years of anacam!
watch it here:

http://206.196.30.237/spot/spot.asp?id=10650626

i'll be in and out of the chatroom all day :)

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2:01pm

i had the worst nightmares.
one was really long. i was in one of those religions that allowed polygamy and then women dress like the amish. what religion is that again? i can't remember. it was a freaking nightmare. i was one of the wives and even the sons of this guy were already picking wives even tho they were only about 14 years. i just played along by the rules hoping i could figure out a way to get out of there. if they felt you ever ent against the rules, they had this machine that was like a big smasher thing that would come and smash you between 2 metal plates and you would be flattened alive, squashed like a bug. i saw it happen to many other people. the male of the household started to suspect that i wasn't "one of them" so i knew i was going to be killed soon. i kept trying to do all my chores perfectly and be super cheerful about it in hopes this would save me. then all of a sudden i was pregnant and i knew the only reason they were keeping me around was for the baby. as soon as i had the baby, i knew they would kill me.
then all of a sudden jason's dad was there. i ran over to hug him and as i did i whispered in his ear "get me out of here, they're going to kill me!" but he didn't know what to do. it was just awful.
then policemen raided the place but i couldn't tell whose side they were on. i started to go into labour.
but then the contractions stopped and that was a bad sign. i thought maybe i would die during childbirth.
i told the one wife i was closest to that if they killed me, would she at least make something pretty out of my bones.

then i woke up with a horrible headache and took some excedrin and a xanax.

then i fell 1/2 asleep again for awhile and had more terrible dreams but i can't remember them now.

it's another grey, rainy, cold, foggy, super windy day.
it's really grating on my nerves.
i'm thinking of stuffing paper towels in the cracks of my windows because the howling sound is so awful.

at least i got my cam working again.

i am here, if you want to chat, sometimes i'll be in chat paying attention, and sometimes i won't be. i'll be in and out of there all day :)

http://206.196.30.237/spot/spot.asp?id=10650626

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Horoscope for Aries (May 18 2005)

The more involved you become in a project that interests you, the less time you will have to worry about the things you can't change right now. The limitations you've been experiencing are lifting, so focus on getting ahead.

and

Creative energies ***
This influence is most likely to arouse your interest in being with a partner, because it most strongly affects the sex drive. You may want to make love with someone even though you do not care for him or her emotionally. And if there is no outlet for this energy, it may cause arguments and discord between you and your lover. The effects of this influence are not limited to physical love, however. In a larger sense it arouses all creative energies. This is a good time to be involved in any creative work that requires you to be physically active. Abstract or intellectual creation, such as writing poetry or music, especially some of the current popular forms, would be excellent, as would vigorous work in sculpture or another art form that demands physical energy, such as dance.

and

Today produces some kind of breakthrough with respect to money for you Rams. It could even represent a change of financial fortune. Surprises might include an unexpected windfall. Or it can simply represent a day when you spend more time dealing with money issues than you expected. Don't go too far out on a limb before you talk about what's happening. Most importantly, listen to the practical feedback you receive.

and

The advice I have for you may not go
over well with the part of you that's prone to acting like a
battering ram. Nevertheless, I'm convinced it's the correct thing to do, so
please suppress your head-butting instincts for now, and heed these
bits of wisdom from ancient Chinese philosopher Lao-Tsu. 1. "The
softest thing in the universe overcomes the hardest thing in the universe."
2. "In the world there is nothing more submissive and weak than water. Yet
for attacking that which is hard and strong nothing can surpass it."