may 14th , 2005
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11:28pm

i had a lovely day not documenting ANYTHING i did today :)
ok, i documented a tiny bit, but basically took the day off from documentation.
it was nice :)

11:30am

rainy and 45 degrees. got up at 10:30am.
pretty early for me.
i think i'll go to the farmers market with jason!

 

12:00am

shifting realities, parallel realities, how to change to world by changing yourself

do not read this if new agey quantum physicy stuff bugs you...you will find this all to be rather silly if you don't believe in parallel realities and all that good stuff :) i'm just saying "this works for me and i find it very interesting that it does...here is my theory..."

a strange thing that happened today,
jason discovered there were 2 bags of "beggin' strips" (treats for the dogs) in the kitchen instead of just one.
this is weird because last night i dreamed, i'm pretty sure, that there were 2 bags of these treats but with no explanation as to why there were 2 (when there should have been just 1) and this signified that i had "switched realities".

it's kind of complicated to explain why something this weird and seemingly insignificant would have meaning to me.
well 1st of all it has meaning because i dreamed it.

and i dreamed it because i believe (and i hope i can do a good job of explaining this) that we can only change ourselves, never others. what this means, in my theory, is that there are infinite parallel realities. as in, everything that has ever happened, is happening, and will ever happen is happening NOW. so there really is no past, present or future, there is only now.
when we "move through time", we are not really moving through time (time is an illusion) but actually moving through all these parallel realities. if you make decision a, it takes you to one reality, if you make decision b it takes you to another reality, if you make decision x, y, or z, it takes you to those realities. each and every thought and decision you make has a "frequency", and as you switch your frequencies, you are automatically drawn to the parallel reality that matches your frequency.

it seems seamless and fluid and gives us the illusion that we are moving through time.
its's logical and you can see how your decisions got you from point a to point b.
since there are infinite parallel realities many are almost identical to the one you are in right now.
the only differences are extremely minute. for instance, in one reality you move you head to the left right now. in another reality you move your head to the right, in another reality you don't move your head...etc.

and it's very binary. there are always 2 choices. (or to clarify: there are infinite choices...but one must say either yes or no to each of those choices. and in the end, only one choice gets a yes.) should i move my head to the left? yes or no?
you pick no. should i move my head to the right? you pick yes.
yes moves you to the reality where you move/moved/are moving your head to the right.
this brings you to that reality where you deal with the consequences of moving your head to the right.
because when you moved you head to the right you saw something that you wouldn't have seen if you had moved your head to the left. this brings you other choices. and it goes on and on like this.
and it seamless. all this happens in the blink of an eye and nothing seems out of the ordinary about it.
(i sure hope i'm explaining this well, i really need to make a diagram of this someday)
and this is how we move through life, time, space.

but SOMETIMES our decisions are HUGE ones which make us "skip" a few realities/frequencies and the reality we find ourselves in is a reality that is identical in every way to the reality we were just in...EXCEPT, a few "little things" are off. (i'm not sure of the exact definition of "quantum leap" but this may be like a tiny quantum leap"?) like you now have 2 packages of dog treats instead of one.
or you are missing something...like you SWORE you put your keys on the kitchen counter but later on you find them in your bedroom and you KNOW you didn't put them there.
sometimes things go missing altogether and are never found again, inexplicably.

most people will just brush this off as being flakey. and sometimes maybe it is.
maybe you DID buy 2 packages of dog treats but you just forgot you did.
or you have 3 cans of chicken noodle soup and 2 tomato, when you could sworn on your life they were ALL chicken noodle yesterday.

usually we move through time and space in a logical way. say each parallel universe has a number and usually we go though them like 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, etc.
except it's more like 1a, 2zz, 3ygd, 4bbb, 5wer (since there are infinite realities within each frequency)
but when we make huge life altering decisions we can end up going 1,2,3,5,9.
so we skipped 7 and 8 because we made a "jump" in our "frequency" by our huge decision. (quantum leap?)
sometimes the decision is so huge the whole buildings may appear in your vicinity that were never there before, but you just brush it off as "you didn't notice it until now"
or buildings you could have SWORN were there are now gone or a few blocks off.
everyone in that reality will say "that building has ALWAYS been there", that's because in that reality, that building WAS always there.

i know i've already written this story down before and i wish i had a search engine to find it so i didn't need to write it down again. but here is the story of the 3 cookie jars, which explains my point.

when i was in the band "the blue up?" the bass player starting to not care so much about practicing her bass.
and the drummer, renee, and i were concerned. we knew we couldn't "make" carolyn practice her bass, so instead renee and i decided to "switch realities" to the reality where there was the carolyn who loved to practice her bass.
since we cannot change her but only change ourselves, our only option was to make the shift.

as it says in the bible:
"Again I say to you, that if two of you agree on earth about anything that they may ask, it shall be done for them by My Father who is in heaven” (Matthew 18:19)."
(the same is true in wicca, or creative visualization etc etc etc)

(good grief, i cannot believe i am quoting scripture, but there are some really good things in there at points!)

and because of that we knew we had power in agreeing because there were 2 of us.

so we shook hands on it and said "we shift now to the reality where carolyn loves to play her bass"
and the NEXT day, she was all interested in playing her bass!

now "the proof" that we had made this "shift":

there were 3 smiley face cookie jars that someone had given us, as a band, as a gift.
they were 3 different sizes. one would fit into the next one and so forth, like nesting dolls.
and they were wrapped in newspaper. when we got them, we couldn't decide who should get which size, so we put them away to think about it later on but then we forgot about them at carolyn's house.

after we made the shift, a few weeks later i remembered the cookie jars and i called up renee who was going to carolyn's house for something, and i said to her, "hey, pick up one of those cookie jars for me, i don't care which size i get" and she said ok.

renee came back to my house and handed me my cookie jar, and it was the largest size and it was covered in bubblewrap. renee ALSO had a cookie jar wrapped in bubblewrap which was ALSO the same large size.
and i remarked to her...why are our cookie jars the same size?
and she said "i don't know! i was wondering that myself!"
and we both talked about how we could SWEAR they had all been 3 different sizes and wrapped in newspaper.
renee and i remember this vividly. now ALL 3 cookie jars were the same large size and wrapped in bubblewrap, not newspaper!

we asked carolyn, "don't you remember that the cookie jars were 3 different sizes?"
and she didn't. she remembered them always being all the same size.
but that was because we were in the reality with the carolyn where these cookie jars HAD always been the same size, so of course, to her, she would remember them as they always had been in that reality!

and we said to her," but if they had all been the same size, then we would have each taken one home the very night we received them, since there would have been nothing to think about as to who gets which size!"
to this she just shrugged.

but renee and i figured it out that this was "proof" of our switching realities!

might sound crazy to you. but hey, until it happens to you...it's hard to explain.

i've done this with other people where we two agree to shift to the reality where "such and such" happens.
the more people you can agree to make the shift, the more power is added.

and sometimes i have good results with it, and sometimes it has not worked (like when jason and i switch to the reality where we win the powerball :)

maybe because:
"You ask and do not receive, because you ask with wrong motives, so that you may spend [it] on your pleasures (James 4:3)." ?
i'm really not sure. i don't see anything wrong with spending on your pleasures.

(seriously, i do NOT think everything in the bible is TRUE, i just think there is SOME truth in it. i don't throw the baby out with the bathwater...)

when you agree you have to really concentrate on it and believe it with all your might, as illogical as it may be.
you must "suspend" doubt and just think " i don't know HOW this will happen, it just WILL".

i've found it easier to switch to realities where things seem like it "happened" naturally. rather than something really "out there" like where you win the powerball. but i think the powerball thing could work, i just don't think i want it bad enough or something. or i have a hard time visualizing it or believing it.

the other day carolyn and i agreed that we would switch to the reality where a friend of ours would finally understand that diets would not work and that just eating sensible with moderate excercise would be the best path to take.
and lo and behold after years of trying to "change" this person, in about 2 days they finally "got it" that eating sensibly with moderate excercise would work!

WE didn't change this person, it was US who "changed" as we agreed to tune in to the frequency of the parallel reality where that person "got it".

this is the crux of how you can change the world around you by CHANGING YOURSELF.

and all these "parallel" people, for which we all have infinite parallels, are not separate people but make up one "whole" person. we weren't with a completely different carolyn, we were with a different aspect of her entire being which spans infinitely. we are all "interdimensional" beings.

each nanosecond i make each little decision, i am moving "into" another one of my parallel selves, which make up all of me. all the other "me's" are also living out their lives with all the other decisions i made. there is a me who decided to not quit school, a me who died young, a me who is an archeologist instead of an artist. etc etc etc.
all of these make up the bigger multidimentional "me"

and when you get further on down the road, this is why we are all one because there is a me who is YOU, or a me who is saddam hussein, or a me who is a snail. because every possibility is living itself out right NOW.

this is why sometimes there can be "bleedthroughs" where you feel you are not in the right place or doing the right thing. you are feeling and connecting to a frequency that exists, but you are not "there" and this can be confusing.
because while it's easy to skip a few steps, it's very difficult to just skip a TON, because then it would look like you just "blinked" out of existence to get to the place where you feel you SHOULD be.
it wouldn't seem to have been a logical progression and you would be thrown off kilter if all of a sudden, in the blink of an eye, you inexplicably found yourself living in africa as a man, for example.
that would be a massive quantum leap (i'm going to go look up now what is the exact definition of quantum leap)

although i do believe that can be done and has been done.

but it is our hopes and desires and imagination which propels us forward, and as i said before, this is the wind in our sails that gets us to point a to point b. and our INTENT is, perhaps the rudder which chooses which direction to move.

to many of you this is going to sound like a bunch of new age bullshit, and to others, total psychosis.
i don't mind :)
i know what i know and i have experienced it.

so, for the few of you that want to try this technique, i really recommend it.
it works :) it's pretty darn cool :)

and anyway, THAT is why there might be 2 dog treat bags in my kitchen instead of the one and why i had a dream about this the night before so i would recognize it when it happened to me.

because i have really been making a conscious effort to "switch my frequency" in the last few days and get more positive instead of more negative frequency i have been in.
and i really HAVE noticed the shift.
but the dream and then the dog treats confirmed that to me, as insane as that sounds :)

and i am very pleased :)

i hope i did an ok job of explaining this, it's a really simple thing, but for some reason it takes FOREVER to explain.

 

looked up quantum leap, as i wrote this, it was the 1st time i made any connection that perhaps what i was explaining WAS a quantum leap. funny i didn't make that connection until just tonight:

"In physics, a quantum leap or quantum jump is a change of an electron within an atom from one energy state to the next. This is a discontinuous change in which the electron goes from one energy level to another without passing through any intermediate levels. This phenomenon contradicted expectations set by theories older than quantum mechanics that energy should always change continuously."

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Horoscope for Aries (May 14 2005)

You'll attract both business and personal partners with your energetic lifestyle and because you do everything with such conviction and passion. Honesty regarding your motives will be what counts when it comes to being successful.

and

An understanding atmosphere
You are particularly perceptive during this time - you have an almost infallible feeling for the fine, often unnoticed sensitivities of others and can take these into account during team-work and in conversations. In this way you create an open, sympathetic atmosphere in which your counterpart feels relaxed and secure. This is an excellent background for all personal contact and private talks with people who are close to you. Perhaps small hurts that others have suffered, which have made them sensitive, will come up in conversation. Should you find out that you yourself - even if unintentionally - were the cause of this injury, you now have the opportunity to make this good. Even small wounds need to be healed.

and

You feel as if you can shout your optimism from the mountain top, but it seems as if no one can hear you. This can be quite annoying, and it may even make you angry. Mars, the Warrior, is forming an unstable quincunx aspect with Jupiter, the planet of big ideas, encouraging your temper to interfere with otherwise workable solutions. Today, you're better off remaining silent and holding your opinions until tomorrow.