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10:30pm
i wrote kevin seconds (http://www.kevinseconds.com/)
and email explaining how sorry i am that i was not able to make it to his
concert tonight. even tho i am feeling a lot better, i still i am too drained
and exhausted to go out.
i'm just going to go to bed in the next few minutes. i'm feeling so much better
than i was, but my energy level is really really low and i need to sleep as
much as i can. fuck, i feel just awful that i am missing his show. :(
7:32pm
ahh, it feels so good to be clean!
and to have clean bedsheets, too!
mmmmmm :) simple pleasures :)
it feels so wonderful to have a feeling of physical comfort right now since
i have been in such discomfort. that's the only good thing about being sick
is the happiness you feel once you start to get well again.
little things like being hungry again. so nice :)
and i talked to isa via email for
the 1st time in a year!
or maybe even over a year?
i am just so elated to have not lost her.
such a relief! joy!
6:11pm
what i made today:
6:05pm
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unbelievable floral arrangements and gardens
5:54pm
fell asleep for an hour.
now i think my towels are dry so i'm going to take a bath.
jason seems to be totally better. he excercised today and yesterday.
but my energy is still really low and it seems like i might even have a swollen
gland , now.
but i'm glad my appetite is back a bit more.
2:54pm
i'm finding energy today to pack
things in boxes that i need to ship. cleaned the kitchen a bit, took out the
trash, did a load of laundry, a load of dishes, and i am finishing that chicken
soup. i put the garlic and onions and fresh basil through the blender in it.
then added asparagus and those noodles shaped like shells. it should be done
in 10 minutes.
it fells so good to be feeling a bit better and getting some things organized,
and i even have my appetite back a tiny bit, which is nice. i'm listening
to my fave 80's station on live 365. i hope i can feel totally better soon
so i can get back to excercising and being creative.
after the laundry is done i'll take a bath 'cause it's all my towels that
are in the wash. i am going to put fresh bedsheets on now. i just want everything
clean and all the cold germs in here to be cleaned away.
11:00am
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today i am feeling a bit better,
thank god.
i'm still not totally fine, but i can at least tell that i am starting to
get well.
i would say i feel about 25% better.
what really sucks is tonight jason
and i have tickets to go see 7 seconds, and i told kevin seconds i would be
there and he is really excited to meet me finally after all these years, and
i am also excited to meet him!
he is the one who started my newsgroup for me way back in 1997 (which then
turned into a hell hole of negativity and now finally it's almost dead). but
ya, i really want to meet kevin and i don't want to let him down.
but i still feel really not well enough to go out. especially to take in all
that cigarette smoke again.
bah. and so i am stuck not knowing what to do about this.
maybe by tonight i will be feeling better. and then TOMORROW is duran duran and i REALLY want to be healthy for that! and THEN the next night kiitos and i are going to see fantasia play in some obscure club i have never even heard of.
so 3 nights in a row of going out is a bit too much for me even when i am feeling completely healthy. overload!
so gah...what to do about tonight...i just don't know if i can physically and emotionally deal with seeing many many people, listening to loud music, taking in the energy of a hyper crowd, and inhaling all that second hand smoke...
*sigh*
10:57am
women can be their own worst enemies
http://www.livejournal.com/community/foto_decadent/259904.html
read the comments.
10:56am
Horoscope for Aries (March 21 2005)
A new job or an opportunity to make some money is evident today. A relationship that you value will bring you added pleasure. You can impress and influence someone younger who looks up to you.
and
Ego energies
During this time you should avoid rash and impulsive actions, for they will
alienate others, create enemies and in the long run undermine your own interests.
Your ego energies run rather high now, but in such a way that you are likely
to assert yourself inappropriately. You may issue completely unnecessary challenges
to the people around you. Most frequently you express this feeling as irritability,
excessive impatience with others' actions, argumentativeness and general touchiness.
This is a good time for getting work done, if you can control your impulsive
behavior. Any task that requires sheer physical energy with little finesse
or attention to detail is excellent, because it allows you to work off energy
without suppressing the natural impulsiveness and exuberance of this influence.