march 15th , 2005

i redesigned my hat site,
let me know what you think:

http://www.anacam.com/hats/

how do i make the background image by less bytes without diminishing the quality?

9:59pm

tomorrow jason and i are going to see The Fixx!
and what is weird is not only are we seeing them in a small club, but gary tibbs, who was the bass player for adam and the ants, is playing bass for the fixx!
so this will be my 1st time i am in the same room with a member of adam and the ants.

i am going to scream "fixx music for ant people!"
and "gary tibbs and yours truly!"

(you have to know some adam and the ants songs to get that :)

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i take back that the newest duran duran cd sucks, it has grown on me and i like it now

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bo rocked on american idol tonight.

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btw, i find it kind fo insulting that my box of tampons says "as extraordinary as you are".
puh-leez.

 

9:17pm

emailed my dad and let him know what is going on in my life, the good stuff, the bad stuff.
it's always so hard for me to tell my dad what is going on in my life.
it's s emotional for me. and there is always this fear of his silence afterwards.
he is always kind and good to me, it's hard to put it into words and i'm emotional spent from writing it.
so i'll just stop writing about it here because i don't have any more energy to explain it other than that.

i'm so glad for the good things happening in my life.
i am feeling such conflciting emotions.
on one side i am broken, devastated, and sliced into tiny cubes.

on the other hand, these cubes are being held together by the force of the universe or the grace of god, and even tho i am almost broken, i am spinning plates and juggling and contorting as if i were in circque du soleil, and i can just sort of watch myself from the outside and be amazed by that.

maybe even because i am sliced into cubes i am rearrange myself into new beautiful shapes.

i could draw a picture to depict that, but i don't have the energy because it would be very intricate and mathematical like an escher drawing mixed with dali and a car crash.

 

5:56pm

dwell magazine april/may 2005

(these are kind of crappy photos, those pages should actually be white)

ok, i bought 3 copies. it's just a very tiny little blurb and a tiny little photo (the hat shown is actually in italy now!), but what they wrote was so cool and right on!!!
and they spelled my name right and got my url correct! yippee!!!
BUT they said i used "knitting needles"!! i do not KNIT, i CROCHET! ha :)
well, slowly but surely i shall make crochet a word that people finally KNOW :)

STILL, this is SUPER wonderful for me and i am EXTREMELY grateful!!!
i think their paid circulation is around 170,000! so i hope that at least a small percentage of that see my little photo and come check out my hats!
and i hope this leads to more coverage in other magazines *prays to the gods and goddesses of surface magazine* :)
thank you universe!!!!

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i also bought jason 6 different kinds of sudafed and zinc lozenges.
and i forgot to get him some OJ and kleenexes with the lotion in!
bah!
so i will try to get some of that now...

3:19pm

oh, of course my mom emails me TWICE just now.

her timing is PERFECT , is it not??

anyone see a pattern there?

things go good for me, she tries to bring me down.

well fuck her NO WAY can she bring me down today!

hahaa!

screw you mom my hats are in DWELL!!!!!

i'm off to get food and then to go to the magazine store

 

3:13pm

ohmigod, so i need to get something in my stomache, i wish i had some tums because it's completely acidic.

ok can't even type now.

too excited!

just have to go

scree!

too excited!!!

 

3:04pm

i'm in DWELL magazine!!!!!!


the just sent me this email:

"Hi Ana,

Wanted to let you know that the April/May issue of Dwell is now out, and that your hats are featured on page 44 of that issue. Hope you like the piece -- we think your hats are amazing.

Best regards,
Amara "

gah!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MUST GET A DWELL NOW SOMEHOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!

aaaaiiiieeeee!!!!!

*snoopy dance times inifinity*

so cool to because ther number 44 is my life lesson number and so it has a huge importance and symbolism to me!!!

 

2:39pm

jason's cold is worse but he is actually at work. i can't believe he went in.
i'm not trying to psyche myself out but i did feel on the edge of something the last few days and i woke up today with a bit of a sore throat for the 3rd day in a row. so i am upping the vitamins and echinacea and now i am making homemade chicken soup with lots of fresh garlic which i will feed to both jason and i.
i really hope do not get his cold. i'm trying to remain positive to fight it.
a terrible cold is the last thing on earth i need right now.

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Horoscope for Aries (March 15 2005)

Take charge and do something that will help benefit your career or financial situation. You can simplify your life if you are organized and set up a budget. Additional responsibilities are likely to occur.

and

For the benefit of all
This can be a very pleasant time, although it is not very good for getting things done. You are more likely to spend time in fantasy and daydreams than in working in the everyday world. But if you are involved in any creative activity that has to develop completely inside your mind before taking physical form, this is an extremely useful influence. At its highest, it enables you to deal with people with great compassion and tenderness. In your close relationships you act for the benefit of all concerned, not only to satisfy your own needs and desires. A relationship that begins during this time has the double potential of being very spiritual or insubstantial and illusory. Time will show you whether it is a real spiritual relationship between "soul-mates" or just a delusion to that effect.