march 3rd , 2005

10:12pm

i was good today.
i was in a pretty good mood.
i got everything packed up and ready to mail.
i felt very organized and motivated.
i hope this motivation and energy sticks with me for awhile!
i have to get up at 9am tomorrow then drag one of my beloved mannequins downstairs and give her to a total stranger. hard.
but i'm learning to let go of things. and i'm glad to have the $99.

10:04pm

movies and things i've watched with jason since he got netflix:

The Importance of Being Earnest
Garden State
We Don't Live Here Anymore
The Russians Are Coming, The Russians Are Coming
Bubba Ho-Tep
Roger Dodger
All or Nothing
Napoleon Dynamite
Drunken Master
The Secret Lives of Dentists
Bad Santa
House of Sand and Fog
The Office Special
The Forgotten
Mystery Science Theater 3000: Manos: Hands of Fate
Once Upon a Time in America
The Office: Series 2
Once Upon a Time in America: Disc 2
King of Hearts
A Home at the End of the World
The Office: Series 1
The Eyes of Tammy Faye
Party Monster: The Shockumentary
Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban
The Chronicles of Riddick
Super Size Me
Before Sunset
Noi the Albino
The Stepford Wives
Wag the Dog
Devo: The Complete Truth About De-evolution
The Kid Stays in the Picture
Saved!
The Day After Tomorrow
Arrested Development: Season 1: Disc 3
Arrested Development: Season 1: Disc 2
Dogville
Rififi
Arrested Development: Season 1: Disc 1
Devo Live
Big Night
Safe
Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
Love Liza
Man on the Train
THX 1138: Special Edition
The Station Agent
Seconds
Murder by Death
Kill Bill: Vol. 2
Smiles of a Summer Night
The Assassination Bureau
3 Women
The Anniversary Party
Storytelling
Waking Life
Psych Out / The Trip: Double Feature
Before Sunrise
Hated - G.G. Allin & the Murder Junkies
Jupiter's Wife
Residents: Demons Dance Alone
13 Conversations About One Thing
Home Movie
The Fog of War
I Am Trying to Break Your Heart: A Film About Wilco
Pitch Black
Michael Moore's The Awful Truth: Season 1: Disc 2
The Animatrix
Michael Moore's The Awful Truth: Season 1: Disc 1
21 Grams
The Cramps: Live at Napa State Metal Hospital
Life Is Beautiful
Schizopolis
Grave of the Fireflies
The Triplets of Belleville
Kill Bill: Vol. 1
The Big Blue
Pink Floyd: The Dark Side of the Moon
Donnie Darko
Naqoyqatsi
White

1:37pm

a man is coming to get ne of my mannequins tomorrow at 10am.
and another person, a person i knwo, is coming to get another on saturday.
it's really hard to part with them, and really hard to part with them for 1/3rd of their worth.
but i need to make room for new things in my life, and i need the money.
it's it's not like i didn't get lots of use out of them.
and i still have so many mannequins.
and it's not like i can never get any more some other day.
and i can't believe i am parting with so many dolls. those were my prized posessions for so long.
but i am just ready to let go of them and make way for new energy.
and i'm proud of myself for having the strength to let go of these things.
and i'm glad i found the strangth to take pictures of the stuff and sell them.
now i just need to get everyone's addresses matched to what they bought and keep that all straight.
and then box all this stuff securely so i can mail it.
and you know how i procrasinate on things like that.
but i do have a few boxes at the present tie. and so i am going to work really hard today on organizing all of this so i don't get overwhelmed by it.
i feel energy and strength today to do these things.
i'm really relieved to have made some money, and it's enough to catch up on my rent until the next month hits.
so far i've made maybe about 400 bucks. but we'll see how much gets taken out for shipping, because i didn't factor shipping into that. so maybe i made $350 or so.
so i have enough to pay rent now, but not if janey cashes the cheque i sent them last month for my server bill which they said they never recived and now i'm trying to email them to see if they got it yet or what is up with that. if i have to cancel that cheque it will be a bummer because i think it costs about $20 to cancel a cheque.
but by the 5th, which i have til to pay my rent before they fine me, i should have enough in there to pay rent and also for janey to cash the cheque on last's months server bill.
and then i must pay THIS months, plus the last 2 months of phone and electricity. *whew*
if only i get get AHEAD of this money game instead of just barely making it or falling behind, that would be great!
and so off i go to tackle the organization of boxing all this stuff and finding the addresses nestled in all the emails.
gmail threads things in a weird way that is a little confusing for me.

i'm listening to elliot smith's album that he made right before he killed himself. so sad.

also, jason found this new band called "animal collective" that i LOVE! i have "sung tongs", i think that is what it's called. it's reminds me of pink floyd's "more", but FAR weirder!
i just am really blown away by them!

ok...onward!
here's the last of the collages (for awhile):

 

Horoscope for Aries (March 3 2005)

You can do well if you are on the move and eager to get things done. Your ability to take control and problem-solve will lead to an opportunity you least expect. Don't be too trusting.

and

Big plans
You are inclined to make big plans and set long-range goals under this influence as well as to examine the goals you already have. The advantage you have now is your ability to see the whole picture and to think in terms of large structures. You are more inclined to think in ideal, abstract terms. But also your foresight and planning ability make this a favorable time for most commercial transactions and business deals. However, there is a negative side to this influence that can be destructive if you are not aware of it. You are sloppy about details and inclined to overlook any elements that don't fit neatly into your grand vision. Also there is a danger that in communicating with others you may adopt an arrogant or self- righteous tone that will alienate them and set them working against you.