| january
27th, 2005 |
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i
have so much to say about this , i don't even know where to begin...
let me begin by saying i am not talking about ALL men)
i have so much to say about this
, i don't even know where to begin...
i'm sick of women being used as the excuse to be violent to another country.
i'm sick of women being used as tool of interrogation. i'm sick of women being
the conduit and mascot and tool and used as a political tool for this agenda
and that agenda...religious or political. i'm sick of women being used to
REFLECT and mirror insecurity, fear, and shortcomings of a society (wear this,
don't wear this...we'll make you our mascot or die!). we are not your bullhorn
or walking advertisements for YOUR bullshit.
i'm sick of women being a punching bag, a scapegoat, a garbage dump for stress,
and i don't see how using women as a tool to humiliate makes this world a
better place. i'm fucking sick of it. i don't see how reinforcing the viewpoint
that a woman's body, sexuality, or menstration cycle is "dirty"
and "evil" makes this world better for anyone.
all that does is create more fear and violence and hate of women. i'm sick
of women being used as status symbols, dolls to collect and trade and buy,
or as ways to boost your ego, as possessions.
fuck that shit. i will make a better worded longer rant on this later. it'
s been brewing in me for a good long time. but it's just such a huge task
to even know where to begin with it. i am so angry! my menstruation cycle
is not a TOOL for your WAR! MY BODY is not a TOOL for your fear mongering!
my sexuality is NOT a weapon! fuck you USA army.
making the world a better place does NOT start with smearing menstrual blood
on a man's face in a way to humiliate.
and fuck you also for using homosexuality as a way to torture and humiliate,
as well. you do us all a great disservice by spreading even more hate and
fear. wouldn't it be better to show men that women are something NOT dirty
and unclean? something NOT to be feared? something NOT to wage war about?
and what does this say to men (who
already have so much insecurity and fear of the own penises/sexuality that
they have to cover up women head to toe to minimize any sexual desire they
may have)... what does it say to men to make a man be forced to have a erection
and then point out that "see! your body DOES betray you and you unfit
now to even pray to god". you are not worthless in the eyes of god and
your family for having an erection?
and what does it say about and to men that it is THEY are the ones who see
THEMSELVES as so dirty that if they even TOUCH a woman, practically, she is
now "tainted". but instead of face their own fear and insecurities
about feeling "dirty" and "ashamed" they just project
it onto the woman and say SHE is now the dirty and tainted one.
wouldn't it be a BETTER thing to teach that a man's erection is JUST AN ERECTION and not some horrible calamity that must be squashed?
you're so freaking scared that you don't have control over your own body, that you must control the bodies of others rather than just work it OUT in a healthy way?
control control control. fear fear
fear. no wonder so many men suffer from erectile dysfunction (so the media
says)
but hey we have a pill for that now so you can have your erection WHEN you
want , how you want as as long as you want! yay.
just...and then this factors into
the the superbowl nipplegate which was BROUGHT to you by viagra, of all things.
and just how depressing it is that seeing a nipple or a breast or being touch
by a woman (especially one which is menstruating) is one of the WORST tortures
you could do to some men? how depressing is and insane is THAT?
what a completely FUCT world.
i have to stop here now because i'm
too tired to type anymore...
i wish i could say this all more eloquently.
so thanks USA army for reinforcing
the idea that women's bodies are dirty and men's bodies will betray themselves.
that really helps out a lot to make this world a better place.
11:41pm
watching nightline about the iraq
war. augh.
i get really irritated with mothers who have dead sons who say we should stay
in iraq because if we don't the death of their son will be in vain.
ya, like let's drag all the OTHER sons and daugters into death, too!
hell she lost hers! you should lose yours, too!
jeeeeeez.
won another free coke. yay america.
my belly is full with a sardine sandwhich.
11:04pm
ok, i've been stumped about the pluckyfluff
hat for a week now?
but i have finally reached the solution now, i'm quite sure.
and it doesn't involve me taking apart what i've made so far, but just finishing
it up, what i have made so far.
it's going to be weird and sea creature-esque, i think.
i'm glad i have made peace with it and resolved it in my mind, finally!
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10:04pm
i did make it to the treadmill today.
so i did do THAT. if nothing else.
4:15pm
what's my DEAL? why can't i get with
the programme?
i have ZERO energy. is it just because i have the winter blues or something?
2:48pm
happy birthday mphand!!!
my dad emailed me today and told me that today is also my mom's 60th birthday. so THAT is weird. makes me feel yucky that i am not calling her.
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mphand...is it your birthday today??