january 21st, 2005

7:48pm

he decided on this one:

http://www.zincmusic.com/

6:56pm

or...these are pretty spiffy, too!

6:37pm

alternate shots of the zebra:

 

6:26pm

i made him a version in colour in case he would prefer it that way:

which do you like better? colour or black and white?
i am kind of leaning towards colour now.

6:12pm

working on putting something new up for bobby z.
i took this photo for him today and made this (click for bigger):

now i'm just waiting to hear if he likes it or not.
he better like it because i think it rules :)
it's so classy, tasteful, and playful :)
i'm glad i created something cool today :)
it makes me feel good.

jason is still not home!
i feel horrible he has been stuck in traffic this long!

 

3:58pm

the snow is really coming down now!
there is a snow emergency. we could get 4 inches.
i'll believe it when i see it. we've had so little snow here this year.
but it is really coming down now. it looks like there is more than a solid inch out there already.
i hope we get 4 inches! i want to g out into the snow after and take pictures!
it's always so pretty right after a snow, so pristine.
then after a day it just gets dirty and grey and gross looking.
but for a few hours it looks like another world and i love it :)
of course i can say this because i am indoors and not stuck in traffic :)

jacqui's phone is busy.
so jacqui..if you read this please call me, k?

i really feel like cutting my hair. it's taking every ounce of discipline in me not to do it. but if i cut it i will not be able to get it all in a pony tail on top of my head.
and i am trying so hard to get so that i can put it in one ponytail and then grow it out so that i can put it in a big long braid and twirl that long braid up inot a bun and stick sticks through it so it's a cross between something swedish and something japanese.
but at the same time i miss soooo much just being able to wear my hair down and shaggy and have it look GOOD, with bangs, all joan jett like (when she has her shaggy hair).

woa, joan jett completely bald!
http://www.mandrewsphoto.com/Maryhhhh.htm

actually this woman has the hair i want:

http://www.livejournal.com/users/my_collapse/60790.html

i like her photography, too.

i feel a need to do SOMETHING with my hair.
maybe redye it pink? yellow? blue?

i get this way in winter...nah...i get this way always.

3:39pm

coffee (with TONS of heavy cream) and snow.
and madonna "music makes the people come together.....yaaaaa...."
jason is stuck in traffic, poor love.
gonna call jacqui now, see if she is available to talk.

2:40am

i didn't get up until 2pm cause i was up past 5am.

i got sucked in reading this gay man's journal who has been through just about everything!
childhood molestation, finding dead woman in the wood's, cancer, his back breaking, life threatening asthma,
all his ups and downs of his career and finding himself, the attempted suicide of his mother, his spiritual journey as well his all his adventures in carnality, prostitution, drugs. i think i must have read it for over 5 hours, and that was reading as fast as i could, skimming, and skipping over the boring days. *whew!*
i don't do that very often with people's journals, but he was a good writer.
i wish i could share with you all the stuff but everything was friends only.
but he could definitely write a book.
and i guess i liked him because he remind me a bit of richard sharah, and he also reminded me a bit of myself (a lot because he is an aries, too and my age and also a total new waver...well actually more of a goth...and an artist).
so reading his stuff was comforting and kind of made me think a lot about my own life.

i must say tho that some gay men and the whole cruising thing and anonymous sex just has me mystified. how you could just be in a bathroom and then the next minute you are having sex with some strange person you will never see again, and not even having planned it.
it makes me a little jealous that one could feel THAT carnal and that free about it, but at the same time it weirds me out and i am glad i an not built that way because i think it would be exhausting, not to mention scary.

and then i had the most involved dreams about cleaning my house.
in my dream it was really a wreck, i mean i had to put out fires, and i had to sort through just all this old broken stuff. fire damaged stuff, water damaged stuff, things that were broken and beyond repair.
but despite that this was a huge task and almost overwhelming, i had the energy to do it and was really excited in this dream to finally clean up EVERYTHING and throw the stuff away and get things in order.
it felt like a very energizing dream even tho it was also an exhausting process.
and i feel even more renewed to do this in my waking life now.

and then poor jacqui (post under the bed), i saw her post right before i was about to sleep, right at the very minute i was off to the land of nod. and so now i am doing everything i can to wake myself up and de-groggify myself so i can call her and talk with her about it all. i think today calls for coffee.

today is all about about shaking the cobwebs off the soul and shaking the booty.

and when i woke up it was snowing.
it's not snowing big beautiful flakes but the tiny kind that makes it look more like it's foggy out that actually snowing.