| january
13th, 2005 |
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things i've written under the bed in the past few days:
Posted by ANA on January 10, 2005 at 17:06:40:
today i got my period full force,
thank goodness.
it's another grey gloomy sleepy day but i'm trying to stay on top of daily
chores.
tomorrow windows xp should arrive and the cam should be back up!
jason is dealing fine with his 1st day back at work.
he is also not feeling sick anymore :)
i'm going to clean the house now for a bit and take a bath.
tonight we are going to go eat at a german restaurant :) yum :)
i will bring my digital camera and take photos :)
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Posted by ANA on January 10, 2005 at 22:33:50:
and i competely forgot!!! i feel
like such a schmuck!!
*completely embarrssed and ashamed*'
jason took me to dinner and i didn't even know WHY we were going out to dinner
until we got there!
how dumb am i???
GOOD GRIEF!
the restaurant we wanted to go to wasn't open so we went to this irish pub that is one of your favourites.
windows xp has been sent now and we have the tracking #.
and it will be here on wednesday, not tuesday. but hey, it's on it's way!!!!
:)
and if mphand also send me his xp, i can put that on this OTHER computer i haven't been abl to use because it's NT. and then ana2 can have 3 cams :)
it's actually snowing here and it's very pretty :)
i'm watching that show called "medium". so far it hasn't impressed me but it's a good premise.
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Posted by ANA on January 10, 2005 at 23:19:09:
pluckyfluff is making a book:
http://www.pluckyfluff.com/book.html
and i get to crochet a cool hat from those 2 yarns on that page for her book!
i'm psyched and honoured!!!
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Posted by ANA on January 11, 2005 at 02:45:01:
i'm laying here in the dark listening
to c2c on my little clock radio.
thinking about my hat show in may for hours.
i always love props. last year i had the models throw glitter and chocolate
coins.
i've decided that for this year they
will all carry silver mylar balloons.
i need to sew black tube dresses this time for everyone.
i'm thinking of making them all wear masks so i don't have to deal with make
up this time.
i have so many ideas...so many ways this could go.
but keeping things cheap and simple is the way i must do it.
i might have 7 hats, 4 neckpieces, and 2 shawls, and 2 sweaters....
it'll all work out somehow.....
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Posted by ANA on January 11, 2005 at 19:18:13:
today i cleaned and cleaned and cleaned
and cleaned!
got stuff off the floor, dusted off all my guitars and synthesizers, vacuumed
the thing room, looked through old magazines i had and cut out the pictures
i wanted to save and threw the rest away. did lots of laundry,
now i'm making a bath, ate soup, took a trickload of things down to the trash.
and down in the trash i discovered a HUGE mirror they are throwing away. it
must be about 7 or 8 feet talll and 4 feet wide. it has a little piece missing
in the corner and that is all. that thing is MINE. i sure hope it is still
down there after i take my bath because i moved everything out of the way
to make room for that thing to be slid into the thing room, and i there is
one wall open at the far end where i am going to lean it against.
i think it's will look really nice there :)
and i've made more floor room for
me to put my instruments out and plug them in and see if they all still work,
i sure hope so.
i can't seem to find either of my 4 tracks, tho...so i'm still looking for
those. a mystery.
rounded up a few things to sell, still have to take pictures of them and all that. i don't think i'll do ebay because it's just such a pain and even moreso now that i don't have paypal anymore :/
as i've been cleaning and cleaning i've jbeen thinking and thinking of all the things i want to sew and how i might go about that.
i hooked up the other extra computer
i had, which i forgot i had since it was way back there, but discovered it
does not have a harddrive. i can't remember why i took the harddrive out of
it. another mystery.
so now, i need to get that computer a harddrive, and mphand will give me xp for it.
and i will use it for a third cam
(i hope that one of my logitech cams will work with xp).
OR i may have to tranfer all my anacam biz over to it as this computer that
i am writing to you on now which has all the business on it, also seems to
be duying and freezing up and giving me the blue screen of death
sometimes (don't worry, i've backed up all the biz).
but i still have lots of pictures and text and stuff that i want to get off
this harddrive and onto cd, too.
sooooo muchhhhh workkkk to dooooooo....
toooo many dyyying computerrrrrrrs!!!
but at least i have been cleaning and getting rid of some things.
i feel majorly energized to get back on my feng shui thing.
feng shui now!
and as soon as i have things more clean in here then i need the fixer guys to come up here and fix a thing on my stove, make it so hot water actually runs (not slowly slowly drips) out the the faucets, and wash the carpets and paint some walla over so they look sparkly white again.
so that is the update for now.
tomorrow windows xp comes and hopefully
the cam will be working tomorrow, godwilling
*fingers crossed*
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Posted by ANA on January 11, 2005 at 20:38:13:
i'm in a temporary crapp ass moos
now as i went down to get the mirror, and the guy at the desk would not help
me move it because it's something about "liability". liability my
ass. they said i could have it and that's why there is a guy at the desk in
the 1st place, to help us out with stuff like this.
so he left a note for one of the maintenance guys to help me.
no doubt they will come knocking at my door at 8am when i am totally asleep.
and i went to look at the mirror again and someone bumped it and knocked a
huge pieces off of the other corner :(
before it was just one little corner that was missing, not a big deal.
but now there is a really big piece
missing from another corner and i am SO bummed about it..
fffffffuuuck.
i hope no one else bumps it and makes
it worse :( i'm so sad :(
that mirror is so nice and probably costs a few hundred at least.
why why why why did somone have to
bump it?
i don't even understand how they bumped it because it's not even in the way
of anything.
arrrgh :( i know it's weird to get this sad over a mirror that is in the trash, but i just adore mirrors, especially really huge ones.
i could make the coolest photos with it. it will look so nice against my wall in the thing room and make it seem bigger in there.
i want to hang lights around it and make it seem like a spacxious faerieland in the thing room and make my msuic in there.
if anyone ruins that mirror even further i am going to be very upset.
i can't believe that guy won't help
me move it. it would take him only 5 minutes.
it's not even that heavy, it's just really big :/
all day i cleaned and organized and
dusted and scoured to make way for this thing. and now...
i'm really cranky it's not up here an i'm paranoid someone is going to bust
it further :/
*sulk*
i will go try to cheer myself up
by looking at pluckyfluff's yarn that came today.
and i will think about how i am going to go about making the most marvelous
hat from it for her book.
it even has a little silk vinatge dog spun into it that reminds me of pooka. and it's soooo soft.
i really hope i do this yarn justice. it HAS to be a very spendid hat.
oh sigh oh sigh oh sigh....
how much DOES an 8 feet by 4 foot mirror cost anyway?
i'm going to go look on the net just
to know...
i'm curious.
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Posted by ANA on January 11, 2005 at 20:47:34:
In Reply to: *gurgle* posted by ANA
on January 11, 2005 at 20:38:13:
i can't even find a mirror on the net that you can buy that i as big as that
one is.
and the ones i do see that are way smaller are hundreds and hundreds of dollars.
gah! i wanna smack whoever whacked into that mirror and took a huge hunk of it today! bah!
*must think good thought good thought good thoughts*
*deep breath*
i guess if it is meant to be for me to have that mirror then i wil get it, if it's meant to sit in the trash and get hacked to pieces by people who just don't care about then...so be it.
fargin' a.
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Posted by ANA on January 12, 2005 at 04:47:32:
i've even been going through all
my socks and finally getting rid of the ones with holes and ones that have
no match. how many pairs of socks do you have? i have about 38 pairs. is that
a ridiculous amount of socks?
i must have gotten rid of about 20 pairs. and went through my nylons/tights
and got rid of ones that do't fit me or i don't wear or they have runs...and
i am going to see if it might look cool to cut them up and sew them into stripey
tube dress things. you'll just have to see what i'm talking about when i make
one.
i still need to get rid of so much. i have so many sweaters i never wear but
i can't part with them because they are cool and vintage. but i am really
really trying to get there. slowly but surely i will get rid of things i don't
need!
sooo hard to let go!
i am way sleepy now. time for bed.
i have lots of cool new pix for you for the next anagram :)
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Posted by ANA on January 12, 2005 at 14:32:02:
we can only hope everything will
go well with installing the new hardrive and xp when jason gets homne!
i feel awful he has to do this right after he gets home from work, and he
is so tired from adjusting to getting up so early in the morning again (like
5am...uck!)
i made jasmine green tea. it's grey and 33 degrees.
i have to get to the p.o. box today because tomorrow will be 7 degrees, so
today is the better option.
no stop by nor call from any maintenance
people here in regards to that mirror. gah.
no one here wants to help me move it. i don't blame them but that is what
they are paid to do here.
once i wake up more fully i will go down there and bug them some more.
i had a dream that i was back in
the blue up? carolyn was playing bass but there was a guy on drums.
and we had to rehearse in front of a live audience which really really sucked.
some guy from "the label"
told me to "stop noodling"
and i thought he meant i should stop giving someone a noodle..as in the food.
i just had NO idea what he meant.
and NO one would explain it to me.
and they were all label type guys treating me really condescendingly.
and i wasn't even "noodling" at the end of the song i was playing,
i was playing this old 60's garage band song called "goping all the way"
which has no "noodling" at the end.
i said, that is not even noodling
THIS is noodling and then i proceeded to give them a virtuoso performance
that was a cross between flamenco guitar, free jazz, and some other avant
garde coolness.
and i totally blew their minds away so they shut up and let me do things my way.
in reality, i wish i could play guitar
like that but i really don't have the discipline.
but now i feel kind of like playing guitar, which is an odd feeling for me,
but i good i have it since i want
to write some songs.
i'm so scared to plug in my 4 track. i just know it's broken and i can't start writing anything until i have a 4 track.
i really hope it's not broken. i'm so sick of things being broken in this house.
my green tea has maybe cooled down enough so that i can drink it. and i'll get ready now to go out into the freezing cold and get some errands done before jason comes home.
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Posted by ANA on January 12, 2005 at 18:34:29:
jason is installing all the stuff.
*crosses fingers*
i got the mirror up here! i bribed them with $20 :)
woo hoo!
i'm gonna go be with jason now and give him moral support and hand him screwdrivers or whatever else he needs :)
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Posted by ANA on January 12, 2005 at 23:55:51:
my hardrive is running, i am online
:)
i have some of my programmes going.
i was going to try and make an anagram because i have all the things necessary
to make one, but there is some setting on zonea;rm that isn't allowing me
to ftp very well. like i sort of can for a minute...and then zonealarm blocks
it, then it worls again for a minute, and then it doesn't. and it's just too
frustrating for me to make an anagram when things like that are happening
so it will just have to wait until jason gets home
to look at zonealrm. i did a print screen of what it said so he can read it.
but i do have a bunch of nice pictures to show you :)
and the cam is back!
and i can now type to you from my main computer!
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Posted by ANA on January 13, 2005 at 01:23:41:
In Reply to: glarb. posted by ANA
on January 13, 2005 at 00:56:23:
still waiting for my password to c2c, too.
i just noticed that on the box of
my q tips one of the things they mention you can use q tips for is caring
for umbilical cords.
that really cracks me up. ya, i just have so many umbilical cords over here
to take care of :) good thing i have a box!
every day a try a new demeter perfume.
and they are starting to have all the smae smell to me. there is a common
thread of something chemically running through it.
all the scents smell like they are supposed to smell..but with something chemically
and wrong added.
i'm really glad i spent the money on samples so now i know.
i'm kind of sad that none of these
are just fantastic, tho. like rye bread...that would have been really nice
to spray in the air.
but it smells likes rye bread with chemicals, or synthesized rye bread...which
it is.
i think i will just stick to my natural oils, which i love. pure rose oil and sandalwood and things like that. you just can't beat nature. there's nothing like the real deal.
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Posted by ANA on January 13, 2005 at 01:51:15:
In Reply to: passwords and demeter
perfumes posted by ANA on January 13, 2005 at 01:23:41:
i'm getting pictures off the laptop i was using that i saved and i've taken
the photos off my digital camera, too.
so tomorrow (today since it's now 1am) you should have a nice anagram :)
i'm also going to make soup today!
today WILL be a happy and productive day. i decree it to be so!
i also like my big mirror. i think it will be very helpful with dancing and excercising and if i get into tai chi or yoga, it will be good for me to see the poses.
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Posted by ANA on January 13, 2005 at 03:21:36:
In Reply to: anagrams posted by ANA
on January 13, 2005 at 01:51:15:
yay! i finally figured out what my username and password is from unknowncountry.com,
after trying about 20 guesses and combinations :)
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Posted by ANA on January 13, 2005 at 14:06:47:
i had the most elaborate dreams,
again filled with such deep symbology, myths, pantheons (what is a pantheon
anyway? i just said that
word in my dream) . looking at this elaborate money from the future of lithuania....depicting
all the myths and human tragedies and struggles as well as the hidden world
of demons, faeries, hell, heaven.
also time travel was possible and certain times were getting very popular
to visit. like 1520 BC or something like that.
something happened at the that time that a lot of people flocked there. i
think it was the purity of the water or something like that.
and i saw people living in perfectly clear little glowing pods at the edges
of docks on lakes.
and i was at some museum and i saw
someone had made a little antique looking iron robot toy that said "destroy
anaca" on it.
and so to fuck with the man who mde it, i stole it, and after a bit of drinking
wine loked up his phone # and left a message on his machine
that i had kidnapped his robot, hoping to inject some humour into him. i thought
of sending the robot on trip like some people do with
people's lawn ornaments, like they will steal a troll from a lawn and then
send it around the world and the troll will sned postacrds and pictures of
himself as to where he is in the world.
didn't they do that with the spongebob squarepants blow up dolls awhile ago?
now i've lost my train of thought
because the maintenance guy is here to fix my hot water pressure, yay!
and just in time, too, because my toilet is working so great all of sudden
either, which is a real mystery.
talk about things not working in
my house lately!
but at least they are getting fixed.
there is still something wrong with my dreamweacver or my server because whenever i connect to my server then try to see my files on my server, it won't show everything that is there. this is REALLY frustrating. and i have no idea what is going on.
jason is working from home today
and he is coming over at 3pm to transfer a bit more of my harddrive that he
saved back onto my computer.
maybe he can figure out what is going on. thank god i have jason!
i just can't wait until everything is back to working order.
at least i can listen to live365 again :)
coast to coast never did email me
my password so i don't know what is up with them.
but i know i did save that password in a text file, and so when i get the
contents of my old harddrive back i can retrieve that.
i was cracking up and relating to
bill nelson's diary entry today.
man, i love that guy. i sure wish we were friends. i just know we'd get along
great.
we are so alike in so many ways...except for the part where he remembers the
fifties and was really shaped by a lot of what happened then.
and in that boy comic book sort of way which doesn't interest me at all, but
i do find it interesting to hear him talk about it and how it shaped him,
as it's just so foreign to me, especially the british take on it.
and i love how he writes so britishy. an excerpt of his british speak:
"......Both American artists by the way. Maybe it's something to do with my age but I find them infinitely preferable to (and far more rewarding than), the silly/giggly 'Brit-art' mob and their slavering acolytes. (The Chapman brothers being the exception to this quite probably bigoted, senile and purposefully snooty condemnation of mine). It may be (he said, slurping another mouthful of Merlot), that my judgements are nothing more than flippant, unfair and even deliberate provocations... Well, I do hope so. Don't you? But aimed at whom ? Who, reading this diary of a disgruntled twangster, gives a gnat's todger about such things? (Sneer, turn, swagger, exit stage left, giggling...) Such a wag...Naughty Billy, another line like that and it's a haircut for you...
My God, how I enjoy playing up the cantankerous old man persona...All an act of course, all an act. I'm absolutely, eternally, sweetness and light...aren't I Mummy? Damn, must go now...Mummy says I have to have a haircut."
what IS a gnat's todger anyway??
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Posted by ANA on January 13, 2005 at 16:37:58:
so how fittingly absurd that i have
a guy who is a kung fu, qi gong, feng shui, daoist master teacher guy fixing
my toilet!
my toilet seriously broke 5 minutes before he came over, too, which was odd
timing.
i just wanted him over to fix the hotwater pressure in my tub and then 5 minutes
before he comes over my toilet acts up, and then he looks at my washing machine,
too, and then THAT thing screws up comppletely too.
he was taking everything apart and plunging everything as we talked about
how my bathroom was a feng shui nightmare.
and we talked about the tsunamis and the mudslides and the chi of the earth
and how everything is shifting and how this could , in the end, screw up my
bathroom and even computer as the chi shifts around the earth.
and all about letting go of clutter and unclogging things. and i guess there
is a broken water main in front of this building right now, too.
and a lot of my friends things are breaking right now.
now i have better hot water pressure for my bath. but my washer ...the dial
is mixed up so cold/cold is now hot/cold and hot/cold is now
cold/cold. maybe it was always like that and i never noticed it?
things are really crazy here.
and i stilll don't think my toilet is back to normal even with all the plunging he did.
all i can say is i'm glad i didn't
clean my bathroom BEFORE he came over, as i was going to.
because it's really a serious mess now and i would have had to jus clean it
all again even more.
but it was just so "the matrix" with "hitchhkers guide to the galaxy" to have this kung fu master plunging my toilet.
life is BIZARRE.
so he gave me his card and when i can afford him i am going to have him give me a feng shui consultation for my house.
he lived in china for many years and would stil be there now but he had to come back to the usa because his dad died then his mom had a stroke and so he has to take of her.
and i found out from him that the
lakota are the sioux. i did not know!
how dumb of me not to know!
but that makes me happy because the
sioux are my favourite tribe and THAT is who i am going to meet in july.
so that all fits really well!
jason's coming over now...
more later....
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Posted by ANA on January 13, 2005 at 16:51:23:
so, jason is over doing more computer
stuff.
i am going to clean my tub so i can take a bath.
and then, hopefully, everything will go smoothly for a minute so that jason
and i can go food shopping.
and he wants to go to byerlies so yay! because now i can use the gift certficate
from howie to get food!
i am EXCITED to buy some good food 'cause i am so out of food.
and so so so so so so happy about this gift certificate because am so poor
right now!
thanks howie!!
i'm so glad that everything always seems to work out somehow and i remain
fed and clothes and warm and able to make art.
thanks you universe and good friends and everything!
i aprreciate it soooo mch!!!
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Posted by ANA on January 13, 2005 at 19:46:34:
i've run our of steam now. i was
really cruising there for awhile being all positive in the face of so much
turmoil around me.
but now i think i need some food. i need some positive energy to come back
to me now.
i'm drained.
there have been a few more computer scares today that made my heart skip a
few beats.
but so far so good again.
i am so sleepy now. i just want to curl up in my bed with the dogs.
i had so much energy before to go
food shopping, but that was hours ago and now i am very very tired.
i hope i catch a second wind.