january
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bonjour |
here are a few photos from yesterday :)
the cam will be on and off here and there, it can't be on always or it overheats and stops functioning.
i'm over at jason's right now taking care of him 'cause he is sick today.
and posts i made under the bed from the last few days:
Posted by ANA on January 07, 2005 at 00:43:12:
anyway..so...
jason, my dearest and bestest, decided to help me today by installing a very old hardrive from one of my old main computers onto my main computer now so i could get everything off of it which resulted in computer meltdown.
so...that is why i have not been on cam today, 1st it was so loud i had to turn it off for a bit, and then when we tried to restart it, it would not restart.
off to a new plan.
ok...wait...he just said he thinks he got it started now...
(without the old harddrive)
so i will update this soon in the actual anagarm.
but i wanted to let you know now what was going on (from a different old computer in the thing room)
as to why the cam picture has stopped for a lot of times today.
bear with me!
this will be worth it in the end , i promise :)
and thank to my jason for trying SO hard to make it all work, and sometimes it still does crash...
computers and the internet...no one sees this part in the romantic scheme of it all...
:)
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Posted by ANA on January 07, 2005 at 03:05:58:
ok, things went worse than planned. even with the old harddrive gone (which worked FINE before)
it still won't work.
it's totally fucked.
dunno why.
it makes no sense.
but we will be getting in contact with geek squad or SOMEONE ASAP to fix my computer to make the cam up and running ASAP!
i'm really sorry for this inconvenience.
we could not foresee it.
and we are doing everything within our power to recitify this situation right away!
thank you for your patience!!!!
when i come back online full steam...i swear i will make this up to you :)
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Posted by ANA on January 07, 2005 at 13:14:40:
my harddrive to my main computer is pretty screwed, at the moment.
i've already forgotten what i was supposed to say about what is wrong with it.
all i can remember is it's something about the partition.
(i don't even know what a partition is)
jason has been working on it all morning and he's bumming. he even went out and bought some $60 software to try and fix it but that didn't work. he called up a company that retrieves lost information on hardrives and they cost $100 just to look at it and then anywhere from $660 to $2,000 to recover it!
well, that is nothing he or i can even consider to afford so...that is not an option.
he has no idea what happened to my hadrdrive. he is bewildered. he took every precaution not to shock it or anything, he has all these professional tools he uses to ground everything so he is beyond bewildered and frustrate as to why this happened.
it maybbe from a hard reboot or something.
he is still working on it. i don't know what more he can do , tho.
i may have just lost everything on my harddrive, all my cam photos, and my mp3s (which were thousands),
all the cool photos i've saved from the net, all this important email i saved, my bookmarks, lots of important text documents, all my programmes, software, passwords, receipts...everything.
i really hope some sort of miracle happens where we can get this thing to work again and i can retrieve what is on there.
from now on, i will find a way to make a back up of everything that is on my computers in case this ever happens again.
it hasn't really sunk in that everything might be lost forever.
but maybe it isn't...maybe someone this can get fixed, but if not, i need to go buy a new harddrive.
not to mention that i still have to get stuff off of the OTHER harddrive from my old main computer...and even have to get stuff off the harddrive from this computer that i am typing to you now.
this is a REALLY old computer and i only use it to do the anacam business and then i shut it off.
anyway...suckfest....
jason and i will do everything in our power to get my main computer up and running again ASAP.
but it may take a day or 2 days maybe.
i will keep you updated in here.
i wish i could update this in the anagram so that most of you will see this and know why the cam has stopped.
i hope you all see this post!
i'll write some in my livejournal, too, in hopes you see it there ,as well.
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Posted by ANA on January 07, 2005 at 13:54:58:
jason is a bit more positive that he can retrieve the info off my harddrive, clone it, and then reformat my harddrive so it can be used again.
he isn't certain, but he is feeling more positive about it now. he can't see anything actually wrong with my harddrive, he scanned it with all these things.
he thinks if he upgrades the software he bought to the pro edition he can clone my harddrive.
but 1st he needs to hear back gtom the company who made the software in order to upgrade.
problem is, this company is in norway, and so they are not around now since it's way late over in norway right now...and it's also not the weekend, he doesn't have any idea if they will be around this weekend, but he has sent them an email and now all we can do is wait to hear back from them.
jason has macromedia dreamweaver on his computer, so what i can do for you while we wait to hear back,
i can still make you interesting anagrams with photos and stuff by taking digital photos for you of things.
and i can take cam pictures with this very old laptop i have that has my old black and white connectix cam on it it (which i cannot get hooked into the net, as it's it's just such an old laptop and so slow, it would not be able to handle ftping a photo up live)...or maybe i could try...i'll see if it has a phone jack in it.
but i will do this, and i will still make interesting anagrams for you with cam photos and digital photos and i will upload these into the anagrams via jason's computer.
that you for your patience and understanding as we try and work this all out :)
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Posted by ANA on January 08, 2005 at 14:00:57:
in about an hour jason and i are going to best buy to buy me a new harddrive and windows xp.
all my information has been saved from the broken harddrive (yay!)
jason thinks he knows what went wrong now but it's too complicated for me to explain.
i'm also going to bring the broken camcorder in to get fixed. and then maybe finally finally finally we can have a cam2 that is always on!
it's been so quiet in my bedrrom without the computer on. i really do like that.
the biggest pain about not having a computer right next to my bed is that i keep thinking of things i want to google and i can't google them! i wonder about this and about that and want to go find information on it immediately! what did i ever do without google?
but the quietness has been nice. the biggest pain about me having a cam is simply the noise from the computers. so it's been nice to relish in the quietness, especially at night when sleeping.
yesterday i made THEE greatest soup i've EVER made! i am the queen of soup!
i cut up these pork and wild rice sausages that howie gave me, and added in a bunch of ham, too...
and then lots of pepper and some curry, and an entire bulb of garlic and an an entire onion and i simmered it for 3 hours. they key to a good broth is simmering things that long :)
but i never really want to eat the onion or the garlic, i just want to add it for taste to the broth, so i had the great idea of picking all that out of the soup and putting it in the blender (oh, and also the potatoes...skins on)
and then i took a bag of frozen veggies and added that to the blender, too.
it was beans, carrots, lima beans...and a bunch of other beggies, i've forgotten.
so all this with the potatoes, onions and garlic all blended until completely creamy and then added back into the soup.
and DAMN, if that was not the best idea i ever had and this soup is insanely good! it's kind of like a split pea soup with ham and sausage but way better than that! just garlicy and peppery and smokey and a hint of the curry. holy mackerel. and jason loved it, too, which makes me excited because maybe this is a way i can get him to actually eat vegetables.
now i have a ton of ideas for making broths of creamed veggies. like spinach or fresh peas, or yams.
sorry if this soup update is boring those who do not cook, but i just LOVE to make soup!
it's my favourite thing to make because i feel like i'm making a secret potion. like i am a witch with her caldron or i am a mad scientist whipping up some crazy thing. and it makes me house smelll soooo good and it's such a yummy warming thing to do in winter.
i hope some day that i can have a big nice regular kitchen with actual counter space so i can get into cooking really eleborate things. i really never knew i'd like to cook as much as i do. i was never really that much into food.
there are 2 things i'd really love to get, one is a crockpot and the other is a bread maker.
i think making bread could be something i could really love to do. can you make really thick pumpernickel bread or rye bread with those bread makers? or do you need an old fashioned brick oven to make that kind?
i want the heavy bread that weighs a ton, the european kind. or if i could make fresh sourdough bread with almonds and dates in it. mmmmmm!
i'm going to post this now because i don't know how long these entries can be without getting cut off.
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Posted by ANA on January 08, 2005 at 14:17:57:
more typing chit chat to you...
since i can't type in my anagram, i type to you here :)
i did take some photos yesterday that i will get up to you soon.
i never did get all the stuff off my OTHER old harddrive, which is what started this whole fiasco.
but least the harddrive is out of the computer and i can now throw that computer away. and also that monitor because the monitor is screwy, too. this will free up a TON of space on my desk. yes, i actually have a desk, but it's in the thing room. if ever i get rif of my piano, i will move the desk into my bedroom. i sure do miss sitting at a desk at my main copmputer. sitting on the floor against my bed as i do now is kind of whacking out my body, a bit.
i wish i could sell the piano and then buy an electric piano. i really want and need a piano to record the new music i am going to be making, but real pianos are a pain to upkeep...tuning them, etc.
the humid summers and dry winters here make for an out of tune piano. and i have to get it tuned before i can sell it which will cost a few hundred dollars that i don't have. plus, real pianos are loud and i don't want to disturb my neighbours.
but having this desk i am now sitting at typing to you 1/2 cleared off will be really nice.
i think i may set up my sewing machine on it. i hope my sewing machine still works. i've had it for maybe about 20 years and i've only used it about 2 times. sewing amchines scare me, they are so loud and it's hard to get the right speed going on them. and threading them is a PAIN in the ass, bigtime. and when the thread gets all bunched up in them, rrrr, a serious pain. i guess that is why i never used them.
but maybe i will give the sewing machine one more chance to grow on me.
i wish i had a really BIG table that i could put everything on. a sewing machine at one end, and all my paints on the other end. i've always just done things on the floor, but now that i have 3 dogs, i cannot work like that anymore. and so a lot of things i used to do, i just don't do anymore because i can't set up projects on the floor without the dogs screwing up what i am working on.
like all my musical equipment, too. always just had it set up on the floor. and that is what i will have to do again, but just keep an eye on the dogs not to chew on cords or lay on top of my synthesizers.
also, when i start singing again, i sure hope sebastian will get used to it, because if i sing now, he starts to howl. :) anytime jason or i sing, hum, or whistle, sebastian will howl :) it's actually really hilarious, but if i am trying to record, it won't be hilarious at all.
ohmigosh, the time really flew! i have to quick get ready now to get to best buy and get the hardrive!
more later :)
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Posted by ANA on January 08, 2005 at 16:47:36:
got the new harddrive but best buy wanted $200 for windows xp!!!
and jason says we can get it online for 80 bucks, so that is what we are going to do.
in the meantime, as we wait for that, jason is going to try installing my old hardrive from my old main
computer and i'll use that until windows xp arrives.
i just hope this will work because my old computer that had that old harddrive was really breaking down
a lot, and that is why i don't use that anymore.
so....i am skeptical but we'll see what happens.
and i FINALLY bought the new gwen album so i am happy about that :)
and also a cd by a band called keane that i saw on tv the other day.
and listened to it partially in the car on the way home and i LOVE it.
it sounds like radiohead's "the bends", if the bends had been happier.
it's beautiful, anthemic, and the lead singer's guy's voice is like a cross between thom yorke, coldplay, and bono.
so if you like that kind of beautiful melodic anthemic music that pulls on your heart strings, this is a great album for you to buy :)
ok...off to keep jason company as he puts in my old harddrive.
more later...
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Posted by ANA on January 08, 2005 at 18:49:36:
after much frustration, jason was not able to get my old harddrive to work.
so...
now he is going to try one of HIS old harddrives.
*sigh*
not much to say other than that....
or i might try and see if i can get this very old laptop of mine hooked up into the net via a dial up modem.
but i don't know if i remember the password to get on dial up or even if that laptop HAS a modem....
if only we had windows xp, we'd be totally fine
*double sigh*
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Posted by ANA on January 08, 2005 at 19:40:15:
jason's harddrive didn't work either. he thinks maybe harddrives with windows xp on them are not compatible with my motherboard. who knows?
BUT this old compaq presaio that maw gave me years ago (god bless and rest his soul) has an ethernet card in it and i didn't even know that! so i am fnally able to send you a live cam image from it! so here i am on this slow computer with windows 98 sending you a picture through webcam32 (which only allows me to be able to send one photo to one place, not multiple photos to multiple places, so i can only send to the smaller cam 2...not also the big cam and also anacam. i will see if maybe this compute can handle sending a bigger picture to the bigger cam instead of the smaller. which would you prefer?)
and i'm using ye olde ancient black and white connectix cam, which i think was the very 1st official "webcam" ever made.
so this is what i will have to use until i get windows xp sent to me via the mail.
jason has expended so much energy that he is now physically ill and mentally exhausted. he went to go lay down in his bed in the dark. the poor guy didn't even sleep the other night and then lst night he had crappy sleep, so i think that is the main reason why he feels so crappy besides the fact that he has been working nonstop trying to get SOMEthing to work. poor guy, i felt so helpless as he worked because i had no knowledge of any of this stuff to help him.
i just tried to make sure he stayed fed and was as comfortable as possible and gave him as much positive energy as i could and love and hugs.
i wish i could get this laptop up onto my bed by the ethernet cord will not move there.
because it is not long enough.
i'll try to figure out where to put this cam so that it can actually send a picture of something that is not my floor.
more later...
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Posted by ANA on January 08, 2005 at 19:59:19:
this connectix cam's formats biggest size is 320 by 240
( i guess way back then anything bigger wold have been to big to refresh
on a page...i do remember those days!)
so...i will be sending this to the small cam 1 page...the big cam will not be
working for now.
i'm saving the photos and also taking digital ppictures for you.
i think what i will do is just wait until i get windows xp and my main computer going to make a new anagram because i don't have a way to get the digital pictures off my camera without my main computer and to take all these
photos i am saving from this connectix and then put it on a floppy
(and i forgot to buy floppies) and then go to jason;s to make an anagram is
a pain in the ass.
i will just wait and then make you a GIGANTIC anagram with everything
in it when my main computer gets to working,
that is at least my plan for now. i may rethink it..
but i need to just chill out now for a bit because thinking about all of this
is making me feel a bit batty.
i really miss listening to music, too...since all that was on my computer.
i will try and scrounge up some batteries for my walkman.
for now, i will just update you all in here, as my journal, k?
more later....
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Posted by ANA on January 08, 2005 at 21:50:31:
i put on my big black fur coat and authentic russian black fur hat (from cyka) and went to go get myself
some beer called "moose drool". i can't help but laugh at the awful funny name of that :) but it's really good beer from montana :)
and checked my mail and got a gift card to chili's restaurant from stan! thanks stan!!!!
and got some lovely trinkets from ducky doolittle (i love the meat stickers!!!)
and some more yarn from her to start on her hat i am going to make for her.
AND i received my little samples of weird demeter cologne, and so far have only smelled about 6 out of 28 because the only way you can really smell it is to put it on your skin and now i have run out of parts on my arm to do that.
i will do another 6 when these ones fade.
so far i have smelled earthworm, rye bread, russian leather, mohaghony, bon fire, espresso, dirt, pumpkin pie
and snow. ok, i guess that is more thn 6 :)
they do , interestingly smell like their names, but sweeter. i've not found one i am in love with yet...
but i hope one of the 28 i will truly love :)
i am having fun smelling them :)
now i'm watching 48 hours with jason.
he is feeling really sick :(
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Posted by ANA on January 08, 2005 at 22:58:55:
i just typed to you all the longest post and it was all erased by the dreaded "illegal action" thing that happens
and the browser shut down :(
and then i tried restarting the browser 5 times each with the same conclusion.not only that but the "mouse" on the laptop started wigging out on me and not working. it's one of those touchpad type mouses built into
the laptop. i syarted having no control over it which took me EXTRA long to make the post that was erased :(
i don't know if the laptop overheated or what.
this is just NOT my day as far as computers go.
i know i've kept that laptop on for long periods with no problems before.
i even took it with me to new york when i went there to be on the sally jesse raphael show (barf times infinity(
and the desktop wallapaper of that computer is still this cool shot of the empire state building that i could see from my cheap hotel room.
this was just a few weeks after 9-11 , too, so it has special meaning to me to see that tower., i doubt i will ever change that wallaper as long as that computer lives.
seeing the emnpire state building still there, in it's red white and blue lights (but black and white as far as the connectix was concerned), i will never forget, and is probably as patriotic as i will ever feel.
now i am typing this to you from my only other computer that works, but i can't put a cam on this because it's where all the anacam biz is, and so i keep it off to make it secure.
what i was saying in my post that got erased is that jason is truly sick :(
he has a temperature of almost 101 :(
and he never gets temperatures.
he went back to his house because he was afriad he was going to barf :(
poor creature :(
he was shivering all over.
he needs SLEEP.
he gets so stressed about computer stuff and i feel so guilty that he is sick now.
and i know he is sick because he felt so guilty about thinking it was his fault my computer fuct up in the 1st
place, but it really could have happened anytime. i mean, computers are so mysterious.
tomorrow i am just going to dediacte my day to taking care of him.
i am going to go over there the secnd i wake up and see what he needs and get him soup and beverages and viatmins and make sure he has a comfortable "nest" in bed, and he will watch cartoons all day, i will make sure he rests and watches cartoons.
tomorrow is his last day of vacation and i feel so awful that his last few days were spent stressing about my computer problems.
tomorrow is his day that i will wait on him hand and foot.
my poor little monkey :(
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about the laptop, i think i will just keep it off until i get up.....
i will try to turn it on now, just one more time, now that it has had time to cool down, and see if it acts any
better. and i hope so...
and then if it an overhaeting issue, i will just have to turn it on for a few hours at a time and then let it cool, etc.
i know this frickin sucks. believe me...i am living it, and trying my best.
soon this will all be over and everything will be back to normal.
i swear i have never had so many weird computer gliches as i have now in all my years of having a cam!
this is really quite out of the ordinary....
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Posted by ANA on January 08, 2005 at 23:03:29:
In Reply to: farg. posted by ANA on January 08, 2005 at 22:58:55:
and the other special meaning that laptop has for me is that it was given to me by "maw", who died from cancer about a year ago :(
every time i restart the computer it asks me for the password and the username is "maw"
and all his programmes and bookmarks are still on it :(
*sigh and tears*
i even have old bookmarks on this laptop from
"geek-nation" if any of you have been around enough to remember that (i think about 3 of you are)
so much goodness and memories in this old laptop.
send it some good juju to work :)
it's been around the block a few times and has many stories to tell :)
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Posted by ANA on January 09, 2005 at 06:30:55:
In Reply to: Re: farg. posted by Thingie on January 09, 2005 at 01:16:19:
that being said, you CAN make yourself sick from guilt. abolutely. the "mind/body" connection.
totally entertwined.
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Posted by ANA on January 09, 2005 at 06:24:28:
In Reply to: Re: farg. posted by Thingie on January 09, 2005 at 01:16:19:
i'm sorry if i gave the impression that just because jason is jewish he has a temperature.
when i say that it is very tongue and cheek.
you'd have to know our relationship and my relationship with his family and him to get the "joke". (although still very serious)
which isn't much of a joke since he is actually sick.
sometimes i don't realize how much you DON'T know about him since i do not speak about my beloved jason very much for his own privacy
we have our inside jokes. in many ways, health-wise he is like woody allen. we joke about this often.
he gets a tiny bump and thinks he is dying of cancer.
this in no way diminishes his sicknesses or symptoms, it's simply a joke we share to lighten things. he is TRULY sick. no joke. that is why i am over here at his house taking care of him.
all that being said, i DO believe one can make oneself sick from guilt. this does not make the sickness ANY less REAL. it's totally REAL.
i am a "new ager" and do believe almost all sickness originates in the psyche, no matter what ones heritage or birth religion.
but yes, i do believe "guilt", "stress" ( stressing STRESS) and not enough sleep is enough to make ones immune system very vulnerable.
my poor creature is indeed, truly sick.
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and some interesting info from mphand:
Posted by mphand on January 09, 2005 at 13:57:24:
In Reply to: Re: farg. posted by ANA on January 09, 2005 at 06:24:28:
Recent research, and speculation from it, suggests that evolution utilized existing pathways when "upgrading" from non-emotional animals to emotional ones. The theory is that, very early animals interacted with their environment entirely through processes that fended off enternal threats (essentially, an early immune system). When we finally evolved our neocortex (essentially, "new" brain), allowing for the possibility of more social/emotional behaviors, evolution coopted the existing immune brain-body pathways for this new "wiring." So, this overlay of mind-body reactions allows/causes one to impact the other, because they utilize the same neural pathways, and the same neurochemistry.
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Posted by ANA on January 08, 2005 at 23:36:50:
the laptop wigging out thing must be an overheating issue,
since it now works fine after i've shut it off for awhile.
i will turn this off when i go to sleep, then and turn it back on when i wake up :)
elimidate is on. arrrgh. that is all there is on tv to watch.
painful.
i will listen to my keane cd instead.
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Posted by ANA on January 08, 2005 at 23:38:48:
i think it would be nice to have a chatroom again, just for here and there.
maybe not everyday.
is mirc still the best option? i have not done chatrooms in a few years.
i think my yahoo group comes with a java chatroom feature. should i just use that?
suggestions?
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Posted by ANA on January 09, 2005 at 06:04:46:
In Reply to: Re: wrestling posted by Thingie on January 09, 2005 at 01:19:07:
i know i wasn't making much sense, and then jason walked in all so sick and so i stopped typing and went to his house to sleep.
(but i've awoken for a minute at 4:30am) to type here 'cause it was so hot from his heater)
the wrestling federation, or whatever you call it, the "fake wrestling", was having 2 sides to wrestling: a southern "J.R. from Dallas" side and a muslim side , some guy named "mohammed".
and for that round the "bad guys (the muslims) won and beat "J.R." (into a bloody pulp for maximum emotional effect)
it's also had to explain 'cause i was so sleepy when all this was happening that it went under my radar and since i NEVER watch wrestling it's hard for me to explain it properly.
but basically, what i gathered was that the "muslims" were saying to "the southerners/americans" that they HAD to be accepted because "they were americans, too"
and using "that card" not in a good way but as a way to fuck over "real good time americans (the southerners).
anyway, during this "play" (of fake wrestling)
the muslims won and the fake southerners were beat bloody to rile the crowd. so that next time the south will win aganist the muslims and everyone will cheer.
it was really sad propoganda.
made to teach the stupid the propoganda that to be "PC" for the muslim community is bad.
and that all muslims want to use the "PC" aspect of things to weaken the american spirit.
very crafty and very depressing.
i hope you catch my drift.
i never watch wrestlinhg
and also so tired...
but , in a nutshell they were trying to make muslims loook bad.
using the "PC" aspect of things as a shield while destroying "america ideals"
it was very crafty, well done, and depressing.