december 22nd, 2004
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there is nothing better i love to fall asleep to than some british guy getting all riled up about the ice age and king arthur and who made it to which continent 1st on c2c.
it's like a brian eno ambient soundtrack.
blah blah blah the ice age....blah blah blah....the black death...blah blah the old church and god and the ark of the covenant.
it lulls me to sleep, but it's necessary to have the english accent when speaking of mount sinai and the 10 commendments.

funny, i've been on blogger since may 2000
never updated my profile or even made a profile until now.
never could figure out how to use blogger.com to save my life.
still don't know how.
i can't believe my username and password still works!
i have no idea if i have a url there, or...i just...it seriously is the most user unfriendly system i have EVER known or i am just...really dumb when it comes to that blogger.com thing. every year for about 5 minutes i go poke at the thing and try to understand it. and each year it never makes any sense to me whatsoever. what is the point of "blogger"? what on earth does it DO?

i have posted "blogs" titled:
i am here 21 Oct 2000
argh 01 Jan 1990 0
test 01 Jan 1990 0

why it says i posted in 1990, i have NO idea.

and that is why i am here and not on blogger.

at least i now know that i can reply to people who have a blog on blogger, but i am CLUELESS about how it works or how to use their system to have a blog of my own.

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jeans

ok, i don't think i have ever owned a pair of blue jeans in my life.
aside from kickass black stretch jeans, which dates me, but i don't care. black stretch jeans rule and you will never convince me, or any member of the cure or poison otherwise :)
anyway...

i'm not a jeans type of person.
but i'd like to try that now.
i have no idea why. that is just how i feel.

i am guessing that finding the perfect pair of jeans is like looking for the perfect shade of red lipstick (for those of you who are on that quest, you know exactly what i mean), so i am guessing this won't be easy.

i just want a pair of CLASSIC jeans. not too tight, not all loose.
maybe like a pair that john mellencamp would wear (good fucking god did i just say that? do i need to be shot? maybe i should have said lou reed?). something that will hang a little bit below my belly button but i don't need them to be all hip hugging britney-esque. i want classic rock and roll jeans.
maybe i should say classic bruce springsteen jeans (i can't believe i am saying that either, being a hardcore new waver):

what i'm trying to say is NORMAL classic jeans. not some fancy schmancy stone washed whateverness that seems to be going around now. i don't need them all worn in, i want to wear them in myself.

do i need to buy some men's jeans?
because women's jeans seem to look really...i dunno...unclassic and delicate.
i want jeans you could jump trains in.

like when i bought my engineer boots i had to get them in a boy size because men's shoes last longer and are more kick ass (for engineer boots, that is)

the same goes for my jeans. i want to wear them in and have them be classic and rustic like my engineer boots.

so...i am thinking levi would make these, but someone point me in a general direction, please :)

so do i buy some guy jeans? is that what i should go for?
but even when i go to the levi site and click on guy jeans there are 15 different kinds!

 

7:16pm

what is bush doing here?
http://movies.ziaspace.com/Today5.wmv

as scottbateman says,
"What the hell is Bush doing in this video at his press conference the other day...? Why does he suddenly mutter into his tie for a few seconds, in mid-sentence? Weeeeeeeeeeeird."

it gets weirder and weirder the more i watch it. it's about 7 seconds into that video. it's a short video.
at first i thought he was burping, but then, it really is like he is saying something, like he is momentarily possessed by another entity for 2 seconds. can anyone make out what he is saying? it looks like it is a word that starts with B. or else it's a really short sentence like "be with me" or something. anyway, it's very psychotic or like tourettes or something.

or if he was just distracted, what a weird place in his speech to get distracted over something under his podium or whatever. and he did SAY something. it's not just a burp. it's just weird, that's all i can say.
watch it like 10 times and you'll see what i mean.

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i'm going over to jason's to watch "trekkies 2"

5:50pm

these sausages do not have cooking directions on them.
i wonder if they are already cooked and i just need to heat them?

5:40pm

diversify's mom's saurkraut soup (sounds so interesting and delicious!):

ingredients:
1 - 28oz can sauerkraut (drained).
1 tsp peppercorns
1 tsp ground caraway seed
1/4 of a medium onion (chopped)
2 cloves garlic, minced
1/2 rounded tsp paprika
1 cup dried porcini mushrooms (rehyrdated occording to directions) - my mom says fresh ones aren't as good?
5 rounded tbsp flour
5 rounded tbsp sour cream
12 cups water
2 sausages (either polish or ukranian)

Directions:
in large pot, add water, onion, garlic, caraway seed, peppercorns, mushrooms, and sauerkraut. Cover and bring to a boil (make sure to watch it as it can boil over), then turn on low and simmer covered for 20 minutes.
add washed sausage. you'll probably have to bring it to another boil and then turn on low again and simmer, covered, for 30 minutes.
remove sausage.

in seperate small pan, stirring constantly, heat flour on medium-high or medium heat until hot, do NOT brown!. you can test it with your finger to see if it's hot. take off the stove and add paprika, mix. add cold water to the flour (probably a cup or so, more if needed) and stir it, it will probably have lumps. add in the sour cream. mix it with a hand held mixer or whatever to get rid of the lumps. Stir into pot of soup. Simmer 10 more minutes.

you can add salt to it as well if you want. and it is eaten with bread (it helps with some of the sourness).

5:31pm

ok, starting to slow down now.
probably because i haven't eaten anything yet today except sugar and caffeine. yum!
maybe i shall make some wild rice sausages :)

5:03pm

i'm as hyper as a little wound up toy!
*boing boing boing*

howie! wild rice sausages!! :) :)

4:30pm

david kahne wrote me back!
score!
funny fact: it his whistle in the middle part of the bangles "watch like an egyptian" song.
that was who was looking for the most!
he is working with The Strokes :)

i got to the p.o. box for a money order. it is SO COLD outside.
there is no skyway to the p.o. for me.
the streets are entirely white, not with snow, but with chemicals to keep everyone from sliding.
it looked weird, actually, for how white it was. it was like someone had spray painted the streets white.

1:48pm

ok, had a red bull to get my energy up.
must get dressed and to to the p.o. box to get a money order and stuff.
it's really sunny outside but only 0 degrees F.
13 below wind chill.

i'm really in the mood to listen to mazzy star.

i wish i had a cassette player.
i have HUNDREDS of cassettes and can't play any of them.
i need to convert them all to mp3s somehow.

i'm always wanting something, aren't i?
but hey, it's so important to me to be able to play my music,
especially now when i am drinking it in for inspiration to write again.

ok enough typing.

maybe i should walk to the bank, too, just for the excercise.
thank goodness for the skywway system here.
since it's so cold here in the winter's we have an entire "habitrail" system that connects everything so you can go anywhere downdown without every going outside, pretty much.
but sometimes i get a little lost in it.
sometimes it can be fun to get lost and i end up in some weird business building, wandering the halls.
i like to explore.

but today is not one of those days.

i think it's so cool that through google i was able to track down people on my life from long ago. god bless the internet.

but it's starting to get hard to fill everyone in on everything i have been doing for the past 7 years since it's been so much.
hard to summarize it.

i'm hearing some really good stories, too.
i wish i could share them with you, but they are not mine to share.

oh, and i weighed myself today and i weigh even LESS.
106 pounds. wtf?
i weigh i pound less than a week ago and i am NOT excercising and i eat about 1,500 calories a day, on average, is my guesstimate.
i don't even understand how that could be, my body looks and feels the same. actually, in the photos i made from last night, i thought i looked a bit fatter and that was kind of bumming me out.
so...i really don't understand why i am losing weight!
maybe i am losing muscle mass? because muscle weighs more, right?
either that or i am not seeing my body as it really is.
do i LOOK like i have lost weight to you?
don't i look like maybe i have GAINED 5 pounds?
seriously...someone tell me so i know if there is something either wrong with m head, or something wrong with the scale, or i am losing muscle mass.
i'm really curious.
(ya, i know guys HATE it when a woman asks them that but there are enough women in here who can give it to me straight!)

ok, i measured myself and i am still 35-28-35
which is what i was months ago, i do believe.
so i must be losing muscle mass is my own rational explanation.
that sucks.
i need to make some muscle!

i have been visualizing that i will weigh LESS by the new year..but i guess that was the wrong visualization for i what i really wanted, i need to visualize that i will have less FAT on my body (and more MUSCLE) by the new year, because THAT is what i want.

ok, again, enough typing.
the sun goes down so quickly here...

but don't the days start getting longer now?
oh ya, DUH yesterday was the winter solstice!

 

12:54pm

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIITOS!!!

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jim dunbar wrote me back! he was my 1st A&R guy at columbia and he was the one who flew out to see us play to see if we should be signed. anyway, so cool i tracked him down and weird that he said he was just thinking of me too because he was at mike watt's house and remembered that day and that bbq we all had at 1st ave. i had forgotten about the bbq (probably because i was nervous i had to play that night and so, i'm guessing, i barely ate any because i get nervous before show). now he works on film soundtracks like "the aviator".
i don't know if i have much energy left in me to email. but i must find the energy for him...later. i'm just glad i tracked him down and he wrote back and was happy to hear from me :)
i wonder if if was then mike watt who DID fwd my message to jim (as i asked), because the email jim wrote me back from was different than the one i emailed him at.

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i have to get a money order today.
i HAVE to get motivated to do that.

3:33am

shy