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30th, 2004 |
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word to remember: Amigurumi
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i definitely have pms,
i think, i am sooo hungry all the time!
but i am not at all overly irritated by anything, which is an oddity.
and i don't feel overly emotional. i'll take that as a good sign.
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i think everyone should journal.
it's so interesting to look at things in retrospect.
11:45pm
i'm not much for poetry or song lyrics,
i don't know why...
lyrics that have moved me have been by robert smith of the cure or morrissey.
and poems by ee cummings, tho i have never really studied any of these by
these people.
but my friend kiitos just posted these in her journal and WOW, really good
lyrics i like!
Jimi Hendrix / Bold As Love
Anger, he smiles,
towering in shiny metallic purple armour
Queen Jealousy, envy waits behind him
Her fiery green gown sneers at the grassy ground
Blue are the life-giving waters
taken for granted,
They quietly understand
Once happy turquoise armies lay opposite ready,
But wonder why the fight is on
But they're all bold as love, yeah, they're all bold as love
Yeah, they're all bold as love
Just ask the axis
My red is so confident that he
flashes trophies of war,
and ribbons of euphoria
Orange is young, full of daring,
But very unsteady for the first go round
My yellow in this case is not so mellow
In fact I'm trying to say it's frigthened like me
And all these emotions of mine keep holding me from, eh,
Giving my life to a rainbow like you
But, I'm eh , yeah, I'm bold as love
Yeah, yeah
Well I'm bold, bold as love (hear me talking, girl)
I'm bold as love
Just ask the axis (he knows everything)
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it's almost time to crawl into bed with the monsterelles and listen to c2c :)
11:03pm
i never did email diva zappa , i really should do that.
10:32pm
on april 7th , 2005 my cam will have
been around as long as jennicam.
i figured that out a year ago, but am reiterating it now as i am going back
a year to see what i was up to.
i have also surmised that my hair
grows about 4 inches a year.
the average human grows about 6 inches a year.
and i need a stepometer.
who makes a good one?
oh funny, i started crocheting that
stuffed animal i call "the
snorkler" a YEAR ago! and i am just now thinking of finishing it.
how time flies!!! more
pics
10:13pm
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today was finally getting to the
p.o. and sending off many hats and other art.
talking to this tiny woman with a tiny voice about my hats as i boxed them.
she was an odd one, with an old senile hippy in a wheelchair laughing beside
her.
then i sold 2 more hats today. yay!
i have enough to pay rent this month and back owed bills!
watched the fascinating devo dvd that jason rented.
i have more and more respect for them the older i get.
they are so amazing.
and i thought and thought and thought about my crochet book, the fashion show in may, and making a new music cd. wondering how i can do all three and how to go about all three and now it's all starting to make me sick of thinking about it.
i don't think i really want to make
a book, i just want a book OUT. you know?
i want the $$$ from it and i want my knowledge dispursed.
but i don't want to go about actually making it because i have NO idea what
that professionally entails.
if i take it one inch at a time, it might be ok.
and the way i will write it will
most likely be all hippy trippy and spiriual and the examples i will show
will be totally "out there" so i need to temper that with some more
"normal" things, too, to make this book very truly more successful.
i don't know...i will think on this more.
what i will do is just keep making
it and see what it will be, i guess, and then get feedback.
just as i do with everything else.
and i need to get EXCERCISING!
there is SO much to do in this world and the normal cleaning things, household chores take up so much time, for me. i sometimes wonder if i should get on a schedule and then never do. i HATE schedules.
tomorrow i hope to make it to the bank and deposit a few cheques and pay a few more bills.
so much to do!!! i wish i could pay
someone to redesign anacam.
i wish i could pay someone to do a lot of things.
prioritize prioritize prioritize.
i'm excited and happy and a bit overwhelmed.
all i remember about my dreams last
night is it was one big long one about trying to get strangers out of my house.
people kept breaking in, arriving, i kept trying to get everyone out of the
house.
it just went on and on and on and on...
in one scenario i even burned down the house so that no one could arrive at
it.
the hosue was always falling part.
leaky roof, floor boards going.
sometimes the house was just a tent, blankets over poles, winter coming.
my horoscope:
ARIES (March 21-April 19): The seeds
of some trees are so
tightly
compacted within their protective cones that only flames can
free them
and allow them to sprout. The lodgepole pine and jack pine
can't
reproduce, in other words, without the help of forest fires. I
suspect that
you will have a resemblance to those fire-dependent,
fire-resistant seeds
in the coming months, Aries. Your ability to prosper and
flourish may
require you to spend time in the metaphorical equivalent of a
large blaze.
Don't worry for your sanity or safety. Just as the seeds in
jack pine cones
can tolerate temperatures of 1,700 degrees Fahrenheit, you will
be very
hardy. P.S. Your first trial by fire may begin any minute now.
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