november 8th, 2004

 

11:34pm

i got a ton done today. and i even spun 3 skeins of yarn.
one is made from a mixture of odds and ends of fiber i had...a mish mash yarn.
and the other 2 are made from white recycled silk.
it's the silk bits that are discarded from the weaving process when they make saris in india.
i was kind of disapointed about how insanely tangled it all was and parts of it were dirty and sometimes i'd come across what looked like pieces of shells from some sort of nut or something.
i picked all that out.
and it took a lot of strength to pull it into pieces thin enough to spin. silk is sure strong! it was like one big huge ball of tangled up silk string. i had quite a work out with it. my back is sore and i'll bet my arm will be sore tomorrow.
i wish all the silk had been all PURE white like most of it was.
so i am thinking of either dyeing it or maybe bleaching it, i don't know which one yet.
i think bleach because i really love white and i bought it because i wanted white.
if i get it pure white it's going to make a really lovely really thick soft fuzzy bumpy luxurious silk hat!
it almost looks like it's made from curly mohair or uncarded wool sometimes, but it's all 100% silk. pictures to come later.

 

5:30pm

i'm going to try really hard not to buy any more beverages and just drink water (even tho tap water is full of pollutants, too) because
#1 pop isn't good for me and #2 it darn expensive.
i don't know if i will be able to deal, tho. coca cola is one of my greatest things i love.
but sugar and aspartame, i know, are just so bad for me.
and maybe i will even lose a bit more weight, even tho i usually drink the diet and the c2.
and then...no beer either. can't afford it, too many calories.
augh. it will be hard. i hope i can do it.
but i can't really afford it and i want to lose more weight and get healthier.
i really wanted to weight 100 by the new year. i'm not sure what i weigh right now but i think it's anywhere between 108 to 110. i have no idea.
i mostly gauge if i am gaining or losing fat by measuring the circumference of my right thigh at it's thickest part, and it usually stays at 21 inches.

and then i hope i get energy to excercise. it will be hard to go off sugar, and alcohol and maybe even caffeine all at once and then ALSO excercise.
but...i will try. i know i am not sounding like i have much resolve.
i guess i don't, and i know that is a bad sign.
i hope i will have more resolve tomorrow.

i did have a mountain dew today. and i almost went to the store to get more, and then i stopped myself.
the store is still open for another hour and 1/2 and i am already battling with myself to not go there.
maybe it's extra hard to give up these small addictions because they are just that, so small.
it's so easy to justify it and rationalize it because there are so many other addictions and habits i could have that could be far worse. and i'm not even overweight, so it's easy for me to just stay where i am at and not try to better myself because i can easily skid by on how i am right now.
and that is cool...but i just want to be a BIT healthier and a BIT skinnier and have a BIT more energy and save a BIT more money. *sigh*

i hope i have more resolve about this as time goes on.
but then i must just say "fuck it" at any minute.
this is the battle going on in me right now on one level.

2:44pm

the politics of fashion


updated my hat page.
and then to the p.o. box to send off 3 hats.
it's sooooo hard for me to part with my hats. and the other night i got into a mini flame war with some girl who was an ass and then she revealed to me that she was the one who was about to buy my dust hat and she wanted to let me know she certainly isn't going to buy it NOW, and i replied that i am SUPER glad not to let her have that hat! that hat is the 1st one i ever made and it RULES. god, i'm glad it isn't going to her! argh! i hate when i end up selling my hats to people who end up being really assholes to me.
like my magical mop hat went to this girl who, a few weeks later, turned into a raving bitch at me. it makes me sad. my hats are my creatures.
finding out later on that the person you sold the hat to is a mean person is like handing over a kitten to an abusive person, to me.

i googled my name last night and "hats" or "crochet" and i found people have said a lot of nice things about my hats and linked to me :) that made me very happy!!

like:
"August 31, 2004
what would ana voog do?
for me, it's become a question worth knowing the answer to: even when i have strong opinions of my own.

ana voog's most recent fashion show fills me with joy and makes me feel more at home in the world. and, when i'm setting type for letterpress, i most enjoy listening to her music via internet radio."
from:
http://www.notsoswift.com/knitting/


and then i found places that were dogging on my hats and whole slews of people saying how much they hate a particular hat of mine.

http://j-walkblog.com/blog/comments/16855_0_1_0_C16/
it's amazing that i cause controversy even in making hats!
but then these people couldn't even tell that was a mannequin and not a real person :)

jane (whose blog has titles to her entries like "Average Jane Does Almost Nothing, Average Jane Continues To Suffer, Average Jane vs. Her Fingernails, Average Jane Has Nothing to Say)
says: "How is this hat any different from the horrible, crocheted things that people's grandmothers make as Christmas gifts?"

hell, if there are any grandmothers out there making hats like that one, PLEASE introduce them to me! :)

and here a place for "bad fashion" and i'm linked to on October 05, 2004 (i sure dig this dress at the top of the page! gimme!)

http://growabrain.typepad.com/growabrain/fashion/
who knew?

so bizarre! well, at least people NOTICE my hats and talk about them, that is for sure! i'm not mediocre and forgettable. i'm sure many people hate john galliano's work, too, and he is my favourite. and bjork STILL gets crap from the american media because she wore that very cool and funny swan dress :)

http://www.fremontyouthtoday.com/curr/vari06.html
people need to get a sense of humour about fashion.
fashion certainly does get very political just like food.
i mean, i know i certainly can have some pretty violent reactions to the clothing i see in target sometimes.


1:59pm

ANAPIX!

go here:
http://www.anacam.com/anapix2/
to see the winners and the entries and to choose your new photos to enter the contest and receive free ana if you win!

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SOUP!

i would just like to mention that SOUP is the current theme in photocontest, so if you have any soup photos, you should go enter it at photocontest

:)

1:13pm

not much to say yet.
just getting the normal daily activities done.
it's cold and grey. listening to old 78s.