november 1st, 2004

David Duchovny
i'm shocked...he actually makes a VERY good engaging and funny late night host!
who woulda thunk?
(i love him, but he never appeared to me to be someone who would be a good host).

10:42pm

ok, my friend and i worked it out.
i am hyper. i'm worked up.

12 hours until i vote!

9:29pm

and of course one of my lj friends tries to give me the "tough love" approach about this on LJ.
fffffffffffffffffffffffffcuk.
leavemethefuckaloneandletmegrievehowineedto.com

8:05pm

good fucking grief.
one of the places i told my mom about to try and get her off LJ was myspace.com

so i joined it JUST so i could invite her onto it (months ago) so she would have somewhere to go besides LJ (as i gave her also about 15 OTHER places to go.)

as soon as she joined, i then deleted her from my friends thing on it.
i don't use my myspace thing for anything, so don't even go there to find me because there is absolutely nothing there whatsoever.

but when i 1st joined it, i did just test out their lame blog feature and i all i wrote is "test" on my 1st and only entry.

well, i don't know what made me actually click that blog entry today. i guess i was just trying to see what more myspace had to offer and i was clicking on stuff to try to understand it ( i still don't really like it, i like LJ better, so don't go there to see anything i have written there, because i haven't written anything)

but FUCK ME if there isn't a REPLY to my entry that just says "test" from my frickin' MOTHER from TODAY. and she writes "test" back. fuckin a. i could SCREAM!!!!

JESUS H. MUTHERFUCKING CHRIST ON A STICK.

so i deleted that one entry so their are NO posts there and now she has NOTHING to reply to.

HOW on earth could she reply to that stupid ass entry when i had , i thought, "banned" her from my myspace thing?

ffffffffffffffffffffuck.

this means there are going to be more attempts by her to contact me ANY minute now.

godfuckingdammit *and swear words i have not even invented yet*

5:38pm

another documentary with me in it! do you have comcast on demand?


blow me away! a documentary i did with A&E 5 years ago (and then they shelved it for whatever reason) seems to have surfaced!!

On Comcast OnDemand, the A&E Channel is running a show called "Fantasies and Fetishes".

It's on Comcast's OnDemand - if you have Comcast Digital Cable, you'll go into OnDemand (channel 1), then go to "cable favorites" then click on "A&E" - it's called Fantasies & Fetishes.


they even interviewed dave navarro and jacqui for it because they wanted to interview some of my fans!
it was originally going to be for their now defunct show "the unexplained".

does anyone have comcast on demand who can tape this for me and send me a copy????!!! i will pay and/or give for free ana2 for doing this for me!

ah! zane pointed out to me i can order it on amazon!
it's under "the unexplained: fantasies and fetishes"
i wonder how long it has been out that people could order it??

nice of them to let me know, eh?? *orders it when they should have SENT me a copy*

guppygrrl who told me about this and who saw it said:
"Your segment wes slightly aggravating in the portrayal - cut scenes to shrinks and such insisting that it must be exhibitionistic and that you've turned it into a sexually gratifying experience, blah blah blah, but what can you really expect from a show called Fantasies and Fetishes, right? ;) "

grrrrrrr.

how weird is it that hardcopy would do a piece on me that was good and fair and nice and A&E would do the friggin' pop psychology lie chaep shot crap on it?
and i gave A&E SUCH a good interview.
it was one of the better ones i did! i gave them SUCH a well rounded interview explaining my art..and they distill it down to pop psychologists who say i am just an exhibitionist?
(well, i have yet to see this thing...so i will reserve SOME judgment...but good grief).
i gave them my all, they interviewed me and filmed me for 3 days!
and GET THIS....
the guy who interviewed me STOLE 100 bucks from me!!!
i can't prove it...
but there is no possibility that it could have been anyone else.
i won't go into details, but believe me, HE did it.
and AFTER he stole the only cash i had, he bought us some liquor to celebrate on the last day of filming, making it seem like HE was buying it when , in fact he was buying it with MY cash that HE stole.
can you believe it?
it seems unreal, but i swear to you, it's the truth.

 

3:03pm

jesus h. muther of gawd.
geek squad best buy says the can find NOTHING wrong with my camcorder!
they said that they have left it on for entire DAYS and NOTHING wrong happens with it.
this makes NO sense AT all. this is very upsetting.
so, all i can do is go get it.
and then i will just put a date and time stamp on my cam pictures and when this thing screws up again, i will print out the cam pictures with the date and time on them so they can see that it IS screwing up and screwing up recently.
gah.
this is SO frustrating.
why would it screw up at my house and not there???
no, it's NOT my computer, is only THAT camcorder that screws up.
and i see it in the VIEWFINDER of the camcorder so it's not my computer or anything to do with MY equipment. it has to do with THAT camcorder.
my jesus made a pit stop to best buy and miraculously healed my camera.
i don't know.
but augh. just augh.

2:25pm

i'm full speed ahead today.
took more pix of yarn, finished hat.
got yarn up for sale. although i am thinking of taking it off the market so i can make hats from it and make more $.
i don't think people really know what to do with my kind of yarn, anyway, because it's unusual.
now i need to find the emails from people to get their addresses to send some people things in the mail.
and i need to clean the kitchen, eat something, get to the bank or the post office or both
do the credit cards....lots of stuff...
trying to just keep on going as much as i can and gets lots done today.

 

2:09pm

made from fabric strips from dresses from the 20's and 30's mostly.
a bit from the victorian era (the cream colored bits)
some silk, some satin, some rayon.
the shiny ribbon is from a scarf from the 70's
i love this hat! it is going to lexi in exchange from some of her delicious mohair yarn that i cannot live without :)

fabric yarn
more info here:
http://www.livejournal.com/users/anavoog/41776.html