october 23rd, 2004
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8:07pm

i've just been watching reality tv and getting back to a few people who emailed me.
i am so behind on things.
i decided to write back my uncle-in-law a small email asking him what is up and asking him if he knew his wife, my aunt, wrote me a horrible, hurtful, vicious email about a year ago about me and my site.
it will be curious to see if he replies, and if so, what will he say?

5:28pm

mouseovers part 1

5:15pm

 

4:48pm

first, here's some misc pix, some from before the crew came over.
some from my nikon from my persepctive while they were here:

i forgot to say that a few days ago, i received an email from my uncle-in-law.
the one who is married to the aunt that sent me that horrible rotten email saying i was a shameful whore, etc etc.
he thanked me for my link the transcript of john stewart on crossfire.
that is all he said.
so...he is reading my journal.
and his wife, my aunt, HATES my site with a passion.
i don't know what to make of that.
that is just damn weird to me.
what do you think of that?
i didn't write him back.
i wonder what other relatives of mine are reading my lj?
i have to say it creeps me out pretty much that the husband of my aunt who hates my site is trying to get friendly with me.
i don't know what his motive is, if there is any motive.
i just think it's really weird.
am i weird to think it's weird?

i wish i had been more "with it" for this crew that was here.
they really got to see me at my nervous worst, although i was articulate mostly, i didn't feel very stable, emotionally, and i was feeling very vulnerable. it was very hard to have a huge camera on me with lights on me for every second they were here, even tho they were very very nice. it was very dificult for me to deal with this time.
i think i did mostly ok. but we did have a night where we went out drinking and it turned into quite a circus with people gawking in this most intense of ways at me with my pink hair and entourage of camera crew.
everyone trying to figure out if i was "famous" or whatever.
some guys even said they would streak for the camera, although i have no idea why (and they didn't).
people sure do turn into different creatures when a camera is on them.
all i could really say when we got home is, "now you see why i hate going outside".

i'm just so glad to be alone now. in my clean house.
i'm proud of myself that i remained mostly together for it all.
but it took every single ounce of energy out of me.
i really had no "sheilds up" for anything, like i would have normally been able to do had i not been already emotionally exhausted before they arrived.

and i got a tape of the documentary from canada that will air there in english in february. i am very pleased with it! they did an amazing job.

i'm pretty sure this documentary, too, will be very cool. they are interviewing 16 camgirls for it, and it will be feature length, not one hour as the canadian one is.

 

3:08pm

we've been having a lot of scams here. people hanging out in malls and getting people registered to vote...but not really. i didn't read the whole article. and then someone knocked on my door and this person registered me, but i haven't gotten my registration card in the mail even tho that was over a week ago, i think.
so now i'm not sure of that was part of a scam.

and then i found a leather bag on the road the other night filled with democratic party stuff and forms to register people, and cheques for donations to the democratic party (one being for $2,000! and other containing people's visa numbers!) what a scary thing to be lost!

we called the democratic party and the film crew that was just here documenting me is going to drop it off to them and then the democratic party can call the police if that was something real or a scam, there is a lot of weird stuff going on...)

i'm just taking it easy today mostly, still sifting through hundreds of photos...i'll get them up here bit by bit.

1:40am

documentary crew left a few hours ago.
i am so exhausted.
i think it went well. they were very nice people.
i'll get pictures up of it and write about it tomorrow.
right now i need to rest.

it's raining out pleasantly.
the house is quiet.

i hope i find something sufficiently mind numbing on tv to fall asleep to.
i missed survivor on thursday!