september 30th, 2004
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who won the "debate"?
according to CNN.com's "quickvote poll": as of right now about the question of who won the debate:

bush: 18%
kerry: 78%
evenly matched: 4%

on msnbc.com:

bush: 31%
kerry: 69%

but it's really weird because some of the media says "it appears that bush has won". huh? like, i'm listening to coast to coast am right now, and that little news blurb that comes on once an hour said that. wtf?
when i was watching tv, and switching to many channels all over, it WOULD appear, according to some, that bush had "won" (or at least was a draw, which was more the case) yet all the polls (i've seen so far)...and even some other poll recited by CNN on tv said there was a HUGE kerry lead.

i think the public thinks one thing, and the media says we think another thing. this is the bullshit dictatorship game.

more discussion here:

http://ana.livejournal.com/1417783.html

 

7:11pm

i made a vegetable stew with every can of vegetables and tomato sauce and spaghetti sauce and salsa and frozen vegetables and those weird soy veggie things i had.
i'll be eating it for days.
now i'm watching survivor.
and then the debates.
i'm only watching the debates to watch to see if there are any juicy moments where george bush falls all over himself and sets himself up and is shown to be the fucktard that he is, to those undecided voters.

and then i can't wait to see what jon stewart says. oh ya oh ya :)

4:01pm

check out the beautiful photos of acrolove in her new voog hat!

http://www.livejournal.com/users/acrolove/48462.html

*gleeful* :)

i'm going to get ready now to go on a walk with jason and the pups.

2:20pm

things i am thankful for (to keep myself positive):

my boyfriend,
i have 3 of the most loving dogs ever who make me laugh everyday and keep my heart light and the most needed times,
my wonderful apartment with the great windows,
i have food,
i have 2 cokes in the fridge,
i have a nice computer and dsl,
i have many great friends,
my belly is full of ramen and eggs,
i am smart,
i am funny,
i look pretty good for my age,
i live in a place that has no hurricanes, earthquakes, or volcanoes,
i have thousands of songs at my disposal that i can play for any and every mood,
i have a king sized bed,
i have electricity,
i have a phone,
i have clean running water,
there is a washer and dryer with this apartment,
i have lots of beautiful clothes,
i have been (pretty much) successfully self employed for many years,
i am healthy,
i have all my body parts, and they all function,
i am able to move through bad situations,
i, basically, have good discernment skills,
i am a good person,
i seem to make a lot of people happy with my art,
it's a nice day outside today,
i am strong,
i am resilient,
i am a good cook,
i am creative,
i am seldom bored,
i can laugh at myself,
i can laugh at the absurdity of the universe,
i know when to quit,
i know when not to give in,
i can get things done when i set my mind to do them,
i can easily amuse myself,
i am, basically, self reliant,
i can lift myself up when i am down, most times,
i can adapt,
i am a good conversationalist,
i am , basically, mentally healthy, even tho i spaz at times,
i can carry a tune,
i have a sense of rhythym.
i am musical,
i can read,
i can write,
i have many skills,
i can see many sides to the same story,
i cna be compassionate and empathetic,
i can face my fears,
i am not repressed,
my dad loves me

things i would like to work on:

being more tolerant,
not interrupting people when they are speaking sometimes,
doing more random acts of kindness and giving,
realizing that my worth is not based on how beautiful i am, or even how unique or smart, but more on how i love,
be more altruistic,
trusting in the universe more,
learning to forgive,
being less anxious and sometimes neurotic when anxious,
letting go of things i cannot change,
getting more disciplined about excercise and meditation,
keeping my house cleaner,
donating to charity more,
not being so hard on myself sometimes,
read more, less tv,
less reading the news,
get back to doing music and drawing, a bit.
drinking less coca cola and more water,

1:52pm

paid my phone bill. i'm $100 or so short on money this month.
it sucks. i have to sell something.
and then after i paid my bill the woman said i have 2 unpaid bills from years and years ago, and i'm just like whaaa?
i mean, why have YEARS gone past and they tell me this now? it makes no sense.
and one is for the wireless service for when i had my remote cam. that was EONS ago and i know i paid that.
but fuck me if i'm going to go through all my records and try to dig up the proof because i don't have the energy! gah.
so now i, supposedly, owe this extra 200 bucks for bills from years ago that i do not have! i always pay my phone bill. if i hadn't paid it wouldn't they have disconnected my phone? wuzzup with that?
this really really bites.

i made myself some ramen and eggs.
things will work themselves out somehow.
they always do. it's just so stressful.
but i can't let this bring me down.

and jason is really stressed out too because his company is going to lay off a ton of people and then outsource to india. and they made the announcement but they won't say WHO is going or when. just some time in october.
so, needless to say, jason is really stressed out and he doesn't know if he is on the chopping block.

12:58pm

 

today i promise not to write any diatribes about anything.
except maybe one tiny little one about the presidential debate happening tonight.
ha.

i'm just glad "survivor" is not cancelled because of these debates. it happens right after survivor. hey! i have my priorities!

i will get outside again today and take more pictures for you, like i did yesterday in continuation of my goal to take 5 interesting photos a day to jumpstart myself back into creativity. it's another gorgeous day.

more pictures. less diatribes.