august 15th, 2004

11:38pm

origami means "folding paper"
i'm looking up if there is such a thing called freeform origami but so far i can't find anyone who has ever used that term. by freeform i mean "making it up as you go along" , as i do with crochet.
maybe what i am thinking of would just be called "paper sculpture" , but i think freeform origami sound better :)
i've always wanted to learn origami, but it really started cooking up in my head even more a week ago when it ocurred to me how i would like to collaborarte with this local designer here named "dj gramann". and he makes these very precise paper outfits and i suddenly saw how cool it would be to add organic freeform crochet ,like i do, into these rigid perfect paper outfits.
then i got to thinking, hey i could just do it myself. and i saw origami in my head. and then i realized that fit in with this whole other thing i've been mulling around in my head for a long time about folding fabric and then sewing it to stay in these folded ways...or i could starch it maybe. i' have no idea. i'll just have to experiment.

and now i really want to fold fabric, and also fold paper into weird angular futuristic shapes and then crochet into it , or add string of some sort.
i can't convey to you what i am thinking in my mind, you'll just have to see what i'm talking about when i try this and then show you :)

6:59pm

i really want to get into origami. i put a ton of books about it on my amazon wishlist last night so i would remember.
i want to mix the ideas of origami with clothing.

i wonder if there is such a thing as freeform origami? does origami just mean "the art of folding paper"? i don't think i could stand measuring thing s with rulers. i just want to fold paper in weird and interesting ways. i think i will jus try to make up my own style on my own, but having a few books on it would be nice.

6:50pm

why must i keep EVERY single piece of paper that ever makes it's way into my life?
threw away a huge garbage bag of it. i have my receipts in bags now according to year now.
(yes, i'm a bit behind in my taxes)
now i have to go through those bags and sort the receipts according to what they are (food, household, art supplies, etc). and then i'll get those to my accountant. and then...we'll i'll take it from there.
hopefully get on some payment plan or something. i don't knwo. something.
anyway, i made a BIT of headway with this. and that feels a bit good.
i just can't wait until i have this all over with and it's not hanging over my head anymore.
and i have to come up with a system where i keep track of my finances better.
i was doing that for awhile but writing about it in here, but then it fell to the wayside.
i need to get mroe disciplined in this area, and i will.

i'm going to page through a ton of magazines my mom brough over for me so i can throw them away, too.

and then i'm going to jason's to watch 6 feet under.

4:42pm

holy crap, almost forgot to renew my domain names! but i did now. *whew*

4:27pm

i'm going to go through at least ONE box of all my misc. paper crap to at least start on getting it organized. and getting all my receipts in order so i can frickin do my taxes. if i can just work on it a little bit a day, i'll be ok. if i think of it as one huge task that must be done all at once, i just crumble.

so...off to sorting a bit. *sigh* this is my most hated thing to do.

3:50pm

i've got to find SOME cam that will not be blurry for the while my camcorder is in the shop getting fixed!
i will see if i can find a logitech one that works. all mine are old tho and i don't know if the will work with windows xp. so.... i don't know...
but i will try...i just have to find the software for all of those cams.

but the camcorder will take 2 to 4 weeks to fix and i simply can't bear using that blurry cam for that long! aaa!

i slept until 3pm today which was a drag. i surely do not want to get back on that sort of sleeping schedule!

last night it felt like i had dreams within dreams.