august 11th, 2004
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6:14pm

i'm going over to jason's for a bit.
and then i think i will go to bed rrreeeaallly early.

5:10pm

i ate a little can of canned fruit. so that makes me feel a bit better.
i want to snap my fingers and have my house be clean and have my hair not smell like cigarettes.
it's cloudy and coldish today. 57 degrees! fall is on the way. and it seems to be early.
august is usually one of the hottest months.
i'm glad it's cloudy, it feels calmer that way.
i think i will just crochet this hat i was working on that i never did finish in time for the show.
i'm listening to new agey music. maybe i'll take a nap.
i need to refuel myself with food and sleep and calmness and puppy snuggles and jason hugs.
i hope jason has time to be with me tonight.
maybe there is something good to watch on tv tonight.
i need to vedge and snuggle and refuel my body and soul and turn my mind off.
i think i shall be back to normal by tomorrow.
i always feel really drained after i have a show.
but last night after it, i was on cloud 9 of hyperness and love and happiness. but i kept poor jason up way past his bedtime and he had to deal with the aftermath of my drunken happiness and heart bursting with everything and i just wanted to stay up with him all night long and dance in the streets. but he was such a good sport about it. but i feel guilty for being such a spaz and keeping him up way too late.

3:58pm

i think i am just way overstimulated. i don't even know how to wind down.
i put so much energy into these shows. i get myself all wound up.
i'm really antsy today. i just need the vedge but i feel like pacing.
i wish my house was cleaner. i wish i had the energy to type out how the entire show went.
but i don't have the energy to rehash it all. but it did go very very well.
so much better than the last one.
weirdly, all i can think of wanting to do today is crochet because i am still in that mode and cannot snap out of it.
i really need to center and ground myself but i don't know how to go about it.
i haven't eaten much of anything in 2 days but i am not at all hungry.

the only thing i could think of wanting to eat is miso soup but i don't have any.

there is a little place by me that has it and they open at 5:30pm. maybe i will go over there and have some miso soup when they open just to get something in my stomache. i'm sure i'd feel a lot more grounded if i ate something.

 

3:05pm

i still can't shake this nervousness.

i can'twait until i can see the pictures back that fuzztbumblebee took.
and also her husband, P, videotaped the show.

2:38pm

we'll be bringing in the cam this weekend to go get it fixed.

2:36pm

another address to send dan things:

for parcels, cards and letters etc, please mail to:

Dan, c/o danica gee
1215 wharf street
victoria bc
v8w 1t9
canada

 

9:41pm

i'll tell the stories behind these pictures later. but 1st i just want to get them up, so these pictures probably won't mean much to you until i can tell you the stories behind them.
i didn't get many pix of me and none of me in my outfit, but lots of other people did, so i'll get those from them.
so much to tell, but now i must sleep more.
i'm so exhausted. i didn't eat anything yesterday,and the day before just a few crackers with hummos. i'm happy, tho, and the show went really well :)

my outfit as i was still working on it.
people getting ready to go on
	my stage props waiting in the kitchen
		rehearsals for various sections (their outfits are not on)
the set list		we were stuffed in the basement in a tiny corner that seriously was like 85 degrees.
me before i had my outfit on
elaine (fuzzybumblebee) and her models (a zen monk from japan! and a 15 year old cheerleader!)	all of these outfits are fuzzybumblebee's creations.	rhinestones i put on elaine's back that it is an upside down cross was unintentional.
	i did the make up on them and drew these on their arms
	i wish they had their cool hats on in this picture!
		we were very crowded
	dj gramann and a stripper comic
finally, a pic of him in his hat (by fuzzybumblebee), but he had taken the make up off because it was the end of the night

 

8:20am

got up to pee. going back to bed. i can't believe i'm not hung over. yay :)
but i definitely need to sleep more and take it easy today. i expended SO much energy.
i took a ton of pictures. i wish i would have had time to take more, tho.
pictures forthcoming...

2:00am

goddamit. i love jason.

1:22am

my god i am drunkish tipsy.
so many pictures

lord.

hold on.

ya, it went well......