july 21st, 2004
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11:16pm

and another good thing! i sold my vintage canon on ebay finally. someone used the buy it now feature. sold it for $290. it's going to a good home in massachusetts :)

3:31pm

wow, well the donations keep coming and and now i feel bad for swearing so much about humanity yesterday.
i am seriously flabberghasted and speechless and floored and humbled by the generosity of the people who have come to my rescue to get me a new camera. i guess people really do love my photos and humanity is not all bad. and there are many shining beings of light out there.

it is good to see this and be reminded of it. my heart feels healed. i may even be able to get the compact flash card and the wide angle lense.

this must be what people mean when they say that the universe doesn't shut a door without opening another.

and now , instead of being cameraless and feeling dark in m heart, i will be getting an even BETTER camera and my heart if filled with light.

i guess this must have been the reason why my camera was stolen in the first place.
the universe works in strange and mysterious ways!

thank you, everyone, THANK you from the bottom of my heart.

 

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i'm still feeling nervous and a bit off kilter today from my long talk with my mom last night.
i think it was mostly a good thing, but i am still feeling mighty nervous and off kilter. i need to take a bath or something and ground myself. i'm very nervous about seeing her on saturday. i hope that all goes ok. i think it will. but i'm extremely nervous about it.

 

4:28am

my knowledge of the goodness of humanity expands....
there IS kindness in this world...

i'm still buzzing from this day...i will fall asleep to coast to coast am

4:03am

today (yesterday) was an intense day. so far 62$ has been raised for a new camera for me. please read below! thank you!!!!!!! :)

i talked to my mom on the phone for almost 4 hours tonight. i think most of it was good but i really have to think on it and also see what results come of it to fully grasp what was said and done tonight. we are going to get together this saturday for lunch. this will be the first time we have gotten together in 3 years that has not been to see a psychiatrist. truly historical...and i am PETRIFIED.