july 15th, 2004

11:56pm

news flash:

i'm convinced that 70% of the human race, at LEAST, is absolutely mentally retarded.

in other news, i'm in a relatively happy mood despite this and i'm ready to move to the ocean. any ocean. any time.

 

10:02pm

just got done watching the documentary about g.g. allin. and i feel absolutely drained and exhausted from it.

YUCK.

what a black hole of negativity an stupidity, anger and hatred....and poop. lots and lots of poop.

 

4:00pm

i have a headache and can't get rid of it. took excedrin. took aspirin twice. now i'm drinking a mountain dew.
please headache go away. on top of that, i am extremely tired, i could just fall over and go to sleep right now.
i got all ready to go out to the p.o. but then realized that i have to wait until i get my replacement debit card.
i'm just trying to keep moving a bit and stay on top of things anyway. did dishes. picked up some clutter. threw some more things away. took a quick bath. ate some food. took out the trash. received my warm leatherette cd. found some new weird radio stations. took some photos of the bird's nests before i threw them away. at least got some use out of them.
i hope this mountain dew puts some life in me, 'cause i hate being this tired and i'd reallt like to at least get outside for a walk today.

i'm listening to this hilarious lounge radio station called "space age pop music". it's that really schmaltzy psuedo elevator jazz pop from the 60's and stuff.

 

12:05pm

i wish i could not be such a nervous person. every morning i wake up and i'm just extremely anxious.
after i wake up fully, it goes away, somewhat. but right when i wake up i am just as anxious as a cat falling from a burning building.

2:17am

when you were a child, age 7 and younger, what did you wish to be "when you grew up"?
what were you interested in? how did you spend your time?

and how does that differ from what you "became" today and what you are interested in now and what you do with your time?

2:02am

i just remembered that i woke myself up this morning by talking in my sleep. i was thanking a couple and i said " thank you for your precious gift" outloud and that woke me up.
but i cannot , for the life of me, remember the dream or why i said that.
i remember remembering it for a minute as i woke up and i thought to myself i must remember that so i can think about it later and what that meant...now i've forgotten.

12:06am

i feel really sad for courtney love :(
i really hope she somehow gets her shit together.
i just want to scoop her up and stick her in my closet and feed her chocolate malt-o-meal.

i can see now why the universe diverted my package to her (over a year ago, if you remember...maybe 2 years) and therefore she didn't know i wanted to be in her band and so didn't get in. ya, the universe saves my ass, once again. things happen for a reason.

12:00am

wallpaper:

 

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these words were chosen at random from the "feng shui for dummies" book.
i went through and 1st added the words in white, and then went through them again and added the words in red.

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i'm thinking of getting this answering machine, i put it on my wishlist, what do you think of it? think it'll do the job , ok? it sure is pretty cheap!

i hope that link works. if not, it's the:

AT&T 1719 Digital Answering Machine with Audible Caller ID
on amazon.com