June 2nd, 2004
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11:12pm

 

4:46pm

my yahoo hat group

ok, i've started a completely new yahoo hat group:
http://groups.yahoo.com/group/anavoog/

i tried to convert an old group of mine over, but it just wouldn't work, so i created an entirely new one.
join this group if you'd like to receive email updates from me about my newest hats and other fiber art related emails.

this group is moderated so that you will not receive emails from anyone else but me :)

12:29pm

i need to start thinking more abundantly, my friend kiitos, remminds me. yes! i do! abundance is a state of mind.

i have not been this abundantly as i could be! i must get back on that path! i have been focusing on what i do nto have instead of what i do.

thank you for reminding me :)

i need to read my "creating money" book again by sonya roman or whatever her name is. that is the best book i have ever read about it.

 

12:03pm

after 10 days of rain and grey humid blahsville, it's finally sunny outside. and so i MUST get outside and ground myself on planet earth and get some sunlight to cheer me up a bit. i've just been catching up on bill paying and stuff like that. and now i must go clean the kitchen a bit and also go run this days credit cards through. i miss having the 4 cams in ana2. i need to get more cams somehow so i can have all of those back.

jason leaves this friday for las vegas for a week!
i will miss him and still haven't really been able to spend any really good quality time with him since he graduated.
he is going to begas to learn how to "remote influence" the dice and things like that. how to make the dice roll what you want, with the power of your mind, etc. i hope he brings back a bundle of money :)

and he is going to see cirque du soleil's O. which i am totally jealous of because i always wanted to do that with him. bah.

i wish i was into wanting to know how to roll the dice how i want, or how to bend a spoon, etc. and so does he because he wants someone to do it with, but i am just not into it as much as i really tried to be. and i'm not into remote viewing anymore either. the rules are just too rigid for me. it was made by military men. and i don't even trust military guys to begin with. i don't know why the CIA would want or allow the public to be aware of a way in which to spy on the government or on anything. and so i do not trust their methods they are teaching. and i didn't like their methiod anyway. it seems laborious and counterintuitive.

i also witnessed purposeful disinformation lecturers placed within the remote viewing community. and a great many attempts by many of the big wigs in the remote viewing community to discredit anything to do with aliens or to silence other remote viewers when it came to the topic of aliens.

i don't know, that community and so and and so forth just has a general feeling of "heaviness" around it for me. it doesn't sit right with me. it would work much better for a left brained male, which i just am not.

i'm way too frooty fluffy happy happy joy joy new agey girly poo for that kind of methodology. :)

their methodolgy is so laborious. like dialiing the longest long distance number of all time in which to talk to god. when i would rather just dial 0 and have the operator connect us. or just walk there and speak to him/her directly.

anyway, i don't know what kind of methodology they will use to influence the dice and such, but i know i cannot stand gambling and the noise and energy in casinos is enough to drive me up a wall.

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about money. i was thinking the other day about money and who came up with the idea? and what is the logic behind it? what are the rules? how did they decide what would BE money and hw much of it to allow in? like how much paper money is out there now for america? and this is all based on how much gold we have? and why gold? why not diamonds? or why not have it be based on things that we actually need, like food or timber or oil?

and what do the other countries base there money on?
like some tribes used shells or beads. why? who decided that?

i just want to know everything about the history of money. and i want to know it right now.

and then money just cracks me up because it's all just so worthless really. you can't eat gold or make a house out of gold or even wear gold in the winter to keep you warm.

 

11:53am

paid off my server bill from the previous month. now i still have the current one todeal with. augh.
paid off the rest of my phone bill so that will not get shut off.

jason is lending me $ for rent. so now i gotta find things to sell that equal 900 bucks.
i must find the energy to do this. i have my pxl2000 cmaera. and i need to find all the things that go with it so i can sell it.
then i may have to sell a bunch of hats for 1/2 price or something. i don't know...or a synthesizer...

so depressing and stressful.

12:00am

more pix of my hats from the show here (towards the end):
http://www.mordac.org/voltage/
by Daniel Schultz