May 24th, 2004
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i still am not done with my hats. one today took a turn i did not quite expect and became this very elaborate sculpture that might be the weirdest hat i have made yet. and i'm still not done with it.

i hope i can finish it before i leave tomorrow. or else i will finish it at first avenue as i'll be there from 3pm until i go on...which maybe will be 12am? who knows. i have no idea when i go on. that is just a wild guess. maybe it's more like 10pm or 11pm. heck if i know. i just hope in between doing make up for my models, figuring this all out, and then doing my OWN make up and stuff, i can finish 2 hats. both are 1/2 done. maybe one is more than 1/2 done.

a lot of my hats i could just add intricacies on to for such a long time. i just want to keep going on them until they are beyond eleborate. but that will not be possible this time around.

and already i do not want to sell my favourite ones because i haven't been able to live with them for awhile and make my peace with them until they can leave my house.

everything will happen how it is supposed to. that is just what i will have to believe or i'll go mad.

anyway. i'll take some digital pix of this most recent bizaree one before i leave and get it up in here before i leave if i have time.

so much to do!!!!

i need to clone myself off many times over.

i hope i get to sleep soon. i am hyper tired.

i want to go to sleep so i can get up somewhat early (for me) and make sure i have everything packed for the long day tomorrow.

i can't forget: 1. pick up my biz cards. 2. glitter 3. batteries for camera

if i don't get to type to you until this is over....next time i make an anagram for you here i will have to much to tell.

one story i do have a small energy to tell is this male model i have named treka, who is a very tall handsome african american, but has an accent that sounds middle eastern maybe...he is kind of upset about having to wear a skirt. and he said to me "who would wear such a thing?" and i said YOU will.

ha.

anyway, then i said, pick out the hat you want to wear. to my models, i figured first come first serve would be best, because if they are wearing a hat they feel comfortable and happy wearing, they will pull it off better.

so treka picks the faerie dread hat! that one that looks like a bridal veil. he doesn't want to wear a skirt but he wants to wear the faerie dreead hat? too funny! and he really doesn't see how this is very hilarious :)

that was quite unexpected as that hat is the finale hat. and when he put it on, having this tall black man wearing it just turned it into something else completely (which i love to be surprised like that)...like george clinton and something from parliament funkadelic...but this guy is not very funky (as far as i can tell) but he was just so happy to wear it it just looked looked like funkadelic on him :)

i really had not envisioned a man wearing it. especially a straight man (i am assuming he is straight). it's such a goth white girl hat (to me), and so to have this very macho (he THINKS he is macho) african or middle eastern or whatever it is he is guy wearing it, well, i love it very much.

so i told him, well, you will be last on then for the entire night. the absolute finale. and i told him he would be throwing chocolate into the audience. but he thought he'd be the ONLY one throwing chocolate into the audience and was sad to hear when he found out other would throw chocolate too. (and the other models overheard this conversation and had to snicker a bit, but in a good way) and i'm like , treka, but you get to wear the BEST hat and be last! and he did concede that he was lucky and should just be happy he is wearing the finale hat of the entire evening.

and he was like, can i just pose and pose and have fun at the end? and i'm like, yes, treka, you can pose to your heart's desire. you are last, milk it for everything you can, and we will all be drunk :)

ha.

ok, and then this other male model left 2 messages on my machine about how he could not find first avenue for the "fitting" (hello, it was a DRESS rehearsal? well, i guess it wasn't even that.....what WAS it? the universe was probably sparing agwua the pain of what mayatta went through...that story in a sec).

but i'm like hi! first avenue the BIGGEST rock clucb in the midwest? on FIRST AVENUE? next to the target center? duh.

i sure hope he can find it tomorrow!

so, poor mayatta, from liberia (i think), a GORGEOUS GORGEOUS woman, african american, as well) just shy, was there right away. waited for 4 hours with all of us....sitting alone and cold by herself. i tried to comfort her but what can i do? be the mother to everyone? she chose this as her profession (only been doing it for a month)..get used to the "hurry up and wait" motto. next time (if she still decides to choose this as a profession, bring a magazine or book or gameboy.

but still i felt so awful, she looked so dejected. but she is absolutely stunning. she chose to wear the dutch future hat, which i thought was also ironic since i thought of a blonde girl wearing it ( i didn't pick very many blonde models...i picked mostly exotic ones, but i did pick one that looks very swedish but she didn't show up). anyway, she picks the dutch one. with her tiny dreadlocks.

anyway, it looked good on her. anything would look good on her, she is gorgeous.

but 15 minutes away until all my models were FINALLY up to have their walk through "choreography"", her boyfriend came to pick her up and she had to leave because he had to get to work *sigh*

it was a weird day. who knows who will actually show up for the show.

more stories later...

 

4:52pm

new hair, jason's graduation ceremony, dress rehearsal at 1st ave,
my band, the blue up?'s star on the side of first avenue!

well, i finally got a photo of the star on 1st ave that my band has :) yay! i would have taken a better one but it was raining when i took it and so i had to do it very fast. i would have taken more pix of the dress rehearsal but it was basucally 4 hours of the most boring and pointless thing ever. i don't even know why i was there or any of us were there. none of the designers were even supposed to bring their clothing. it was just the models practicing walking, which, i would think they already know how to walk in a straight line. i'm glad i did bring my hats tho cause i got to meet my models (some of them) and show them to them and their reaction was positive so that was a huge load off my mind. but some models didn't show so i sure hope they do show at the show tomorrow! *bites nails*

i want to write more about this, but it all gives me a stomache ache even more to rehash it right now and i just have to get on with my day and finish a few hats and other things that i need for the show tomorrow. i wish i could stop being such a nervous wreck about this.

3:36pm

we didn't have time to get all totally as wild and crazy with my hair as we were going to and it still took her 8 hours to do my hair. if we would have had an assitant we could have gone full out with more glitter, but we did get a few glitter bits in :) i like the pink, white, and brown :)
pix soon...i'm just so nervous and i have so much to do....

5:15am

i was still too hyper to go to bed, as tired as i was....
i listened to my voicemail which i only do about once a month, if even that, but got a wonderful voice mail from mark from negativland so i had to call him since now have long distance.
i'm so glad i did because he is so inspiring to me.
just what i needed to hear...that everything comes to you in the right ways and in the right time if you follow our heart. ahhhh. it has been a tough month.....but the divine universe channels itself through people to me, and through me to people.

i didn't know he was friends with matmos who ended up being the back up band for bjork's last tour.
makes sense, tho.

such a small world and how cool is that?

mark is going on a speaking tour which is EXACTLY what so many people need to hear right now.
and he has matured into such a story teller.

more on this later. but i need to find a place for him to speak and show his films.
he is going to email me his requirements. but i wil make this happen...

after my hat show :)

1:11am

long 15 hour day. exhausted. much to tell!

and i have my fabu rock star hair back. it cost me my laptop and my hello kitty vibrator but was well worth it :)

i will write about everything when i wake up i PROMISE!

i'm so glad i get to sleep in tomorrow. i need it so badly.