May 20th, 2004
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8:54pm

just got back now from getting the candy. jason had lots of errands to do, too.
i bought lots of gold chocolate coins and irridescent confetti for the models to throw into the audience.
it's going to be a very happy thing :)

i THINK i have everything i need now. so i hope to god i can now just crochet and finish my HATS! good grief.

 

3:50pm

jason will be home soon. then he is taking me to go buy candy for my models to throw. yay!

3:12pm

got out to buy my caffeinated beverages.
and i ordered business cards. just the cheapest they had. $30 for 500 of them.
i looked for candy for my models to throw at the little grocery store but none appealed to me.
i need to get to a big place. and i need to get to a craft store or party store to buy some baskets or bags or something to put the candy in.

i need to go get the mannequin legs out of storage now and put my mannequins together so i can see the dresses with the hats. it is a huge feat t do that.

i had the worst dreams. first i was in some house that was mine , when all of a sudden a ton of people from the colonial area just started taking over my entire house and having parties and get togethers and stuff.
i'll maybe write down all the detials later but right now i don't have time.

then the next dream i am in a car with my mom. she is driving and i am in the backseat.
all of a sudden is see about 5 huge tornadoes before us. they are ripping up water towers and those things that hold grain, silos? they are coming right at us and i scream for my mom to stop and turn around and drive AWAY from the tornadoes and not towards them. after much screaming on my part , she turns the car around and starts driving away from them for about 10 seconds. then she tuns the car around again and drives TOWARDS the tornadoes. she wants to see the destruction i guess? things are being ripped apart, things are starting on fire. i DON"T want to go check it out. i scream to her that i don't want to die and why will she not turn the car around does she want me to die? she just ignores me and keeps driving. i'm just screaming that we are going to die.

then all of a sudden we are at a small state fair and i am screaming at her 1 inch from her face. she is emotionless.
i headbut her and she sort of smiles and asks me if i'd like to headbut her again if that would make me feel any better. and then i just realize with absolute horror how shallow all of this is to her and she really DOES think that if i just headbut her 2 or 3 times, this will get all my anger out of me i have for her and then everything will be ok.
and i scream you think a HEADBUT is going to SOLVE this??
and she is just emotionless but with a tiny smile like none of this is affecting her in any way.

anyway, you can all guess what THAT dream was about.

yuck.

 

12:50pm