May 19th, 2004
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11:39pm

i got press!

http://www.citypages.com/alist/detail.asp?EID=92133

A LIST RECOMMENDED EVENT

Voltage: Fashion Amplified

This nexus of "indie fashion" and indie pop shows just how funky glamour can be in Minneapolis: With a $5 advance cover, you don't have to be rich or cool to rule this world. Still, there's nothing more NYC-fashionista than benefiting a good cause: In this case, it's for the Youth in Music organization (www.youthinmusic.org), which trains volunteer music instructors for local schools. Among the 18 designers are singer Ana Voog and event organizer Anna Lee. Among the seven bands on the runway are openers Coach Said Not To and Revolver Modèle (both with new CDs); soaring pop headliners Faux Jean (who premiere a new lineup); as well as the Melismatics, Shadow Box, Friends Like These, and Luke's Angels. DJ Danny Sigelman will spin between sets. For more information, log on to www.voltagefashionamplified.com. 21+. $5/$8 at the door. 7:00 p.m. --Peter S. Scholtes TUE MAY 25

First Avenue
701 1st Ave N, Mpls.; 612.332.1775

it's interesting and kinda cool that they still think of me as a singer :)

i need to get back to singing. and after this show, and then after i do my taxes, i think that is what i will do :)

6:49pm

taking a bath was good. then i totally switched off and zonked out for an hour on my bed.
i needed that. when i woke up i was exactually finally hungry so now i'm eating some chicken.
then i'm going over to jason's because i need to be near him.
and i'm going to crochet at his house for awhile while i watch american idol and hope that fantasia doesn't get kicked off.

4:43pm

gonna go ground myself by taking a bath.

4:03pm

still all i have been doing is typing back and forth with coordinator of the show asking her if she knows what time the last band goes on so i can tell people who can help me with my make up what time to arive. why doesn't ANYONE know things like this? my entire process of calling all these potential people who can help me cannot start until i know what time i can tell them to arrive!

and there is more stupidness but i don't even feel like typing about it.

crocheting used to be something i did to calm me down. not it just makes me nervous. and i hate that!
i have to do things in my own time and in my own way.

why do i not play live anymore?? because of shit like this just takes the fun right out of it. everything is always a nightmare. things always go wrong. it's always some nutso fiasco that drains me.
i do not even know if i want to do a hat show again. at least i am not going to do one like THIS.
it's just way too big. too many people. too many bands. too much to coordinate. too much potential for things to go very very wrong.

and THEN in the middle of all of this typing with this woman, and i am rocking back and forth eating rolaids like candy, my mom writes to me about that same stupid idiotic lj drama from MONTHS ago. the one where i have told her 3 times to STOP TALKING TO ME ABOUT IT! fucking a! just shut UP about that stupid lj drama that you got YOURSELF into and quit trying to drag me into it! you made you bed now lie in it. good god, PLEASE shut up about it! i am NOT the person to talk to about this! and for the love of god WHY are you bringing this up to me right NOW??? AGAIN?? when i am in the middle of huge anxiety??? god! unreal.

ok, and i hope SOMEONE gets back to me telling me at what TIME i go on with the last band so i can CALL people and let them know!!!!

 

 

 

2:49pm

miso soup saves my life.

2:33pm

i have to crochet. i have to just do it.
even tho i feel like crawling into a ball and switching off.

rolaids for breakfast.

12:44pm

i'm just a bundle of raw nerves and emotion.

and if fantasia gets kicked out of american idol tonight, i will have to riot. in fact, if she doesn't win the entire contest, i may have to slit my wrists.

almost every time she sings, i cry.
am i a little bit stressed out? ya, just a little bit :)
(not about american idol)

i apologize for any over the top emotional things i may write for the entire rest of this month. this month has been crazy for me.

11:50am

i think it's been 3 days in a row now i have gotten on up at 11am. the MORNING!

go me :)

fantasia on american idol made me cry last night because she is just that good. she almost always makes me cry when she sings. i love her so much and hope she wins!!!

12:40am

things are nuts. i'm still nervous as hell and will be until i SEE it all put together. but things are pulling togther.

I believe the universe is "on my side" and so all shall fall into place,

whatever happens happens.

good people are aligning with me. most people being YOU!

whatever happens is going to be DAMN interesting to be sure!

thank you all for being here with me at this time. YOU, each and every one of you are making this able to happen. with your contribution to ana2, my hat show would not be happening as it is now. i hope you feel this to be true and from my heart.

THANK YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART FOR GIVING ME THIS GIFT!!!!

YOU are the CORE of helping the dreams of this "faerie" come true.

i thank you from the core of my being for contributing your 15 bucks each month so i can eat and buy yarn and buy make up for this show.

every dollar you give me is CRUCIAL. AND NONE OF YOU WILL BE FORGOTTEN .
when this is all put together and a success, ALL of us did this as a team!

each and everyone of you is now essential to this project and i will give you everything i have in me to make sure you are in my heart at this experience and to document this experience to bring to you!!!

i do not TAKE any HELP YOU GIVE ME NOW FOR GRANTED.
and i want to make SURE that you feel as much a part of this as i possibly can make you feel.

thank you :)