May 6th, 2004
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9:12pm

you know what i have had for years now and have never even used ONCE? rollerskates!
what's my deal? i'm going to rollerskate tomorrow , dammit. (if it doesn't rain).
they are white with gold sparkly laces and yellow pom poms. brand new.
i tried to find yoko ono once at this gathering she was supposed to be at because i wanted her to sign them. i never did see her, but i also found out she doesn't sign things.
but it would have been cool to have yoko ono rollerskates :)

my dream is to someday live in a warehouse space that is so big i can rollerskate in it, like in the movie "diva" from the 80's.

i SORT of got SOME cleaning done today. i'm still sort of cleaning...sort of...

i'm weeks behind updating on my finances here. receipts are everywhere.

i'm so hyper.

the scabs are peeling off my tattoo.

 

3:26pm

ok, i'm getting my hair done with dreadlock extensions again on the 16th and a girl named mckenzie is going to do them. i need to find things to sell to come up with the $$!!! aaa! but at least i am getting my hair done! *whew*

2:53pm

it was so weird last night to go through photos of models and pick which ones i wanted. and i still have yet to pick a few more and then see the male models as i think i want tome of those, too. it makes me feel bad to judge people on their looks and pick others and not others. it was just weird. i had a lot to say about ti last night but now i have to much to do to write it all down. maybe i will later on tonight. i'm very hyper.

and then i had a very intense talk wit one of my friends last night about intense things going on in her life and my life. and it was such a good talk and i'm so glad we had it. it was a really good thing. but i can't talk about that because that is private.

but ya, the energy has been intense lately for almost everyone i know. everyone is dealing and working through a lot of emotional things. a lot of endings and beginning to things. peole dying, getting married, graduating, breaking up...

i'm losing friends , i'm gaining friends. things are going at a very fast pace.

i'm having to assert bounderies here and then tear down bounderies in other places.

up down and round and round.

and i don't know what i need more right now: to go outside or to have a clean house.
i am opting for a clean house even tho the weather is PERFECT our right now.
but my house is neyond a disaster and i need all this icky old energy that has been accumlating in here to be feng shuied on outta here so i can have a clearer space to live, breathe, grow, and create.

so i am going to use my incredible hyper energy now to clean as much as i possibly can.

and then after that, i need to crochey my ASS off. and then after that i need to do my taxes.
and then after that maybe i will write some music or something.

oh, and on saturday fuzzybumblebee and i have an intermediate spinning lesson at some wool festival we are going to somewhere. *whew*

then there is jason's graduation and his sister's wedding this month!

so much so much.

and then my mom is still doing her mom thing.

and i miss my dad.

 

 

 

 

2:11am

i have to much to write. but i will write it when i wake up later on today.
right now i am exhausted and need sleep.
things have been so intense and hyper. but deep down i think i am happy :)