april 21st, 2004
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11:28pm

oh, and i never did get my xanax yet from drugs-one.com
hmmmm. i have this feeling i'll never get them.

10:55pm

you probably don't remember, but many moons ago i wrote about how one of my aunts in canada emailed me out of the blue telling me that i was pathetic and it made me cry.

well, i just found out some things about her that made me feel quite a bit better about that. actually, it is truly sad about her and i shouldn't actually feel better about it. but she just hurt me so much by judging me so harshly and just emailing me this really extremely hurtful cruel email out of nowhere.

anyway, i found out that...well, actually, i probably shouldn't tell you the details, even tho i'm not even telling you her name and you have no way of knowing who this person is, but i'll just not say the details to be a tiny bit more nice. but i will suffice it to say that her life is fucked up to the extreme. as in...jerry springer fucked up. i had no idea. all my aunts, and actually everyone in canada who are my relatives (which are all my relatives at this point since all the ones in minnesota have died, just about) have always seemed so perfect to me. ALL my uncles are doctors. and all my aunts were cool artist hippies. and i have always looked up to them.

now i find out that the aunt that hurt me is a total fuck up and her husband is also an ass an all their children are also fuct. and so, even tho she cannot hear me , i say my to my least fave aunt:

"EAT SHIT AND FEEL THE KARMA, BITCH.

you call MY life pathetic?
i sadly see now why you wrote me what you did. because you are a sad sad sad jealous fucktard.

KISS MY ASS."

i'm sorry. sometimes i just have to say really vile things to get it off my chest so i can move into my more loving ohm-type vibrations of kindness. <sarcasm...sort of.>

if i were a total bitch i would email that to her so she could feel the burn. but i won't. because i'm not a total bitch.

i know i'll have compassion for her at a later date, but right now i just feel vindictive because of how she hurt me and i just had to get that off my chest.

 

 

 

8:00pm

mouseovers:

the first dandelion of spring :)

and look! tulips and buds on the trees and the grass is green!

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american idol

ok, what on earth was that about that 3 of the best singers were the bottom three this week (latoyah, fantasia, jennifer)? and my little fantasia firecracker at the bottom 2??? excuse me? ms. hudson now voted off? what UP, america? there is something really weird going on! is it all little white 12 year old girls voting?

discuss people. discuss.

and WHY oh WHY is that red haired "crooner" dude not voted out yet?

PUH-leez! *talk to the hand*

i am having a little fit here.
Current Mood: pissed off

 

7:46pm

i got out and mailed a package and tried to pretend i didn't have a cold and drank coffee to try to give me some energy and took pix. and i took a few i'll get them up very soon. i've been working on them for the past hour. my cold is still hanging in there, tho, like a snaggle toothed tiger and my eyes just feel bleary and are burning and my nose is running constantly. it is such a drag.