april 7th, 2004

10:58pm

i never thought i'd see bob dylan in a victoria's secret commercial.

the tv show "the swan"

thoughts on this?


i didn't get out today. i don't know how time moves so fast sometimes.
i'm not getting much crocheting done because when i sit in my bed or on a chair, i start to hurt.
so i am going to crochet on the floor and see if that helps.
i'm waiting to hear back from my friend carolyn, who is a masseuse, to see if she thinks she can help me.
and i'll go that route 1st. people's oponion on who i should go to about this pain is split pretty evenly, so i guess it is still up to me.
i'm going to try the massage route 1st, since that is the cheapest way to go.  

3:58pm

taken from helloyarn:

1. Grab the nearest book.
2. Open the book to page 23.
3. Find the fifth sentence.
4. Post the text of the sentence in your journal along with these instructions.

"researchers have conducted a number of experiments demonstrating that one's level of life satisfaction can be enhanced simply by shifting one's perspective and contemplating how things could be worse."

"the art of happiness" by his holiness the dalai lama

5:41am

comforting things


(this isn't a meme i grabbed from somewhere, i'm starting this one. these aren't things i find sensual or that i just like but things i find specifically comforting)

sounds:

1. distant trains at night
2. the dryer at night
3. pooka snoring
4. any cat purring
5. the sound of a foreign film, because i am comforted by the sounds of talking, yet, since i cannot understand what they are saying, my brain only concentrates on the sound of the words not the meaning of the words. i love the movie "wings of desire" especially for this.
6. the whirs and bleeps of the starship enterprise. or any other vessel from any offshoot of that series.
7. the sound of typing because it reminds me of my dad typing his sermons
8. the sound of a distant sewing machine because it reminds me of my mom sewing late at night.
9. any early pink flord cd (dark side of the moon and earlier, but most especially "more" and "meddle"), brian eno's "music for films", the cure's "seventeen seconds", the cocteau twin's "blue bell knoll", the strangler's "feline", duran duran's "planet earth", peter gabriel's "so", the beatle's "sgt pepper" or almost anything by the beatles, early joni mitchell, james taylor, buffy saint marie because it reminds me of my childhood
10. the theme songs from: dr. who, star trek, coast to coast am, dreamland
11. the wind rustling through trees

smells:

1. any good quality incense most especially sandalwood or almost anything japanese
2. opium perfume (reminds me of my later childhood)
3. play doh
4. crayons
5. new books and magazines
6. clothing from ragstock (a store i worked at for almost 8 years)
7. the sweet puppy smell of my dogs
8. jason smells like home :)
9. downy
10. leaves burning, and fall leaves
11. freshly photocopied paper
12. the smell of hairdye
13. the smell of twig tea or jasmine tea
14. the smell of rain when it hits the hot pavement in summer
15. limestone
16. lindseed oil
17. jergen's lotion, original scent
18. the smell of ironing

tastes:

1. these cookies called "kringles" my mom used to make
2. lipton instant chicken soup
3. cinnamon coffeecake
4. coconut macaroons
5. fresh white bread straight from the oven
6. kraft macaroni and cheese
7. communion wine
8. dumplings in chicken soup how my grandma used to make
9. tator tot hotdish
10. instant mashed potatoes (especially from kentucky fried chicken)
11. coca cola
12. tang
13. instant oatmeal (maple and brown sugar or apple and cinnamon flavour)
14. blue mr. freezie freeze pops
15. bomb pops
16. juicy fruit gum

sights:

1. my bed
2. the sky, especially when filled with the big white puffy clouds of summertime
3. the ocean
4. monarch butterflies
5. dandelions
6. jason
7. my dogs
8. candles and bonfires
9. apache tears held up to a light to see through them
10. old warehouses


touch:

1. clothes straight from the dryer when it is winter
2. jason
3. my dogs
4. leggings
5. polished stones
6. a ball of yarn
7. my baby blanket
8. seal fur coats (which actually aren't seal but i found out they are shaved "some-other-animal"...i cannot remember now).
my mom used to wear a coat like this during church.
9. high quality sheets freshly made at a hotel
10. the feel of swinging in a swing
11. rocking in a rocking chair
12. bundled in a blanket
13. spooning (me on the inside)

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if i think of more (and i'm sure i will), i will add them

5:21am

i love the sound of distant trains outside my window at night...

i also find the sound of the dryer comforting :)

i'm going to crawl into bed now :)

4:52am

funeral party

i think it would be interesting to have one's funeral BEFORE one died. this way everyone can say what they would like to say to you before you die and not feel any remorse for things left unsaid. and some friends may never get to say goodbye as they will die first! and you could make a huge happy celebration of it. of course, it's completely egotistical as well. but so are birthdays. it would be the opposite of a birthday party, but at the same time, exactly like a birthday party as death is also a birth. i think i may do this someday. i think it would be fascinating and fun to do :)

(i hope no one takes this entry as a sign that i am depressed. i am absolutely NOT depressed or suicidal in any way) :)

1:55am

you decide

ok, my shoulder/neck is not getting any better. whether i have a pinched nerve or some sort of sprain i do not know (i think it is a pinched nerve). i've never had something like this before. so my question to you is, do you think i should go to a regular doctor for it? or should i go to a chiropractor? i've never gone to a chiropractor before so i know nothing of it. i am leaning towards thinking of going to a regular doctor but i cringe at the thought of all the money i will have to shell out for that. money i do not have. a chiropractor is cheaper, i think.

chiropractor or regular doctor?
what the majority rules i should do is what i will do.
(at least what i will do first)

12:39am

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