march
16th , 2004 |
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7:40pm
well, my mom said she is sorry ,
for whatever that is worth.
it's not worth all that much to me right now. but i'm glad she said it.
and i have figured out who sent me
that tattletail email.
wow, what a total freak this person is! absolutely one of the most pathetic
people i have ever come across.
and if they are in ana2 reading this right now. then whatever. they can't
hurt me because i know what a silly loser they are. silly tiny pathetic lying
twisted perverted fucktard. your little game is OVER.
i can't believe my mind could be blown even FURTHER by the extent some people will go to pretend to be something they are not on the internet. the extent of the pathological lying and the PSYCHOSIS it would take to go through THAT much trouble and THAT many identities is absolutely sad. this entire person's life must feel so shitty to be eaten up by THAT much anger. wow! their soul is black tar.
whatever!
5:05am
got my period. feeling rundown. i
wonder if my mom will write back and i wonder what she will say if she does.
it's nervewracking but i am hanging in there and preparing for the worst.
so, i'm pretty sure i will be ok with whatever she says. not ok as in super
fine and dandy but ok as in i am not going to flip out TOO much. i've already
gone through every possible scenario in my mind and already kind of "lived"
through it.
i'm so happy that lj made a new feature
so that if you ban someone it takes them off your "friends of" list.
so wonderful. and now i can take off all those inactive journals, too. *dreamy
sigh* :)
i took about 50 serial adders off my "friends of" list tonight. it's a beautiful thing that i don't ever had to see them associated with my journal ever again :)
i just ate a kipper sandwhich and now i'm going to crawl into bed and fall asleep to yesterday's coast to coast.
i feel strangely serene in this moment. or maybe it is just that i am not overraught with anxiety and i feel "normal" for a few minutes here. ahhh :) normalcy :) it is heaven :)