February 11th, 2004
    
     
     

i am extremely mystified as to why 95% of you will not let me know what you think of my photos lately.
in fact, whenever i ask you, no matter how much i beg for you to say something, you just won't.
5 people have said anything to me. and it's always the same 5 people. the rest of you remain silent.
do you care at all that i am asking you for some feedback? are you just shy? are you maybe not reading this?
what's going on? am i that scary to say one sentence to?
does it matter to you at all that you are starting to creep me out a bit now by refusing to say something?
you who are remaining silent are starting to hurt my feelings now.
because this isn't the only time in the last few months i have asked for some feedback.
i am so confused by your silence :(
i don't ask for feedback very often...c'mon...

10:11pm

eaten today:

chinese eggrolls, coke, coffee

6:18pm

when i woke up today i was so terribly dizzy. i don't know why or what is the deal.
when jason and i went out to eat the horizontal blinds and the pattern on the tables was making me seriously ill and even more dizzy. i am still dizzy although a tiny bit better. it feels like i went on 20 rides in a row at valleyfair.
my stomache is a little bit off, too, but that is probably because i am so dizzy. ack.

money spent today:

bci-24 black ink 7.99
bci-24 colour ink18.99
8 pack double a batteries 7.99
10 pack cd-rs with cases 8.99

courtney love's new cd "america's sweetheart 9.99
tax= 3.51
total= 57.46

amitriptyline (the drug i take for my migraines) 15.49
a cheap hairdryer: 12.99
tampax: 7.99
diet coke: 1.59
toilet paper: 7.49

tax: 1.43
total= 47.08

i'm going to print out some of my pix to sell.
i still have polaroids , too. gonna take some more of those and sell them.
my nikon is chowing through batteries like there is no tomorrow.
i don't know what is the deal but usually the batteries last about 2 hours and now they are lasting about 1/2 an hour.
i have to find my battery recharger somewhere but i have NO idea where it is.

it's very snowy today. it's pretty.


3:33am

according to this site:
http://www.annecollins.com/dieting/calories-burned.htm

there is 3,500 calories in one pound of fat.
walking 3 mph for 1 hour burns 280 calories so:
walking for 13 hours burns 3,640 calories.
so if i walk 1 hour a day for 6 days a week, i'll lose about a 1/2 a pound a week.
that's 2 pounds a month.
so i could lose 7 pounds by the end of may by going that alone so i could be at my almost ideal weight by the time of my hat show :)

i think i still weigh around 110-112 right now