January 16th, 2004
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5:01pm

pix from jason's show with milo fine

i iwish i could show u pix of jason, too, but he hates when i take his picture.
this was at a studio in "the hood" of minneapolis.
some little children from the neighbourhood came in and watched for about 10 minutes.
they were completely bewildered by these men making "noise" and pretty much didn't stop talking very loudly for the entire time they were in there. they turned around and pointed at me, trying to talk to me about my hair during the concert. it was both extemely amusing to see them being confused and also slightly annoying.

at the bowie concert, a woman sitting next to me and tapped me on the shoulder and then, speechlessly, made gestures that meant "your hair! your hair?" and i stared at her with an indignant look in my eye and said "what?"
and then all she could blurt out is "why?" and i said "why what?" and she said "why the hair?"
i said, "lady, you are at a DAVID BOWIE CONCERT."
i mean, c'mon it's 2004. this is the kind of thing people would say to me in 1984. wake up people.
and the lady was still extremely bewildered and said she had seen david play for the last 4 times.
i guess she knows nothing about ziggy stardust or aladdin sane or low or anything...
what a fucking idiot and how really rude of here to ask me in the way she did.

then in the MIDDLE of the concert she turned to me, as if she had been contemplating my hair throughout the entire concert so far,
she tapped me on the shoulder again and yelled into my ear..
"i get it! i get it! you do it for attention!"
*sigh*
i said to her, " wouldn't you feel extremely stupid if you had my hair?"
and she said nodded yes enthusiastically.
"i said, "well, i'd feel really stupid if i had YOUR hair. i like my hair like THIS. you like your hair like THAT."
then she tried to apologize by saying she was from canada as if that has anything to do with anything.
people are so retarded sometimes.

4:38pm

this is the hat i have been working on for weeks.
you can't tell at all how much work went into it or how detailed it is.
it's just that i am using the thinnest tarn, as thin as embroidery thread.
so it takes a very very very long time. it's starting to look a little bit better now.
i won't go into all the boring details of what went wrong and then how i fixed it.
there is still so much more to do with this hat. i am making more tubes on it,
and i may embroider on it with silver thread and a bunch of other things, so i think it's going to look quite different later on...

this is scarf i made my dad, just a simple thing...

 

 

4:34pm

i have more pix to show u and i am working on them right now and i'll get them up in here in a moment...

 

4:15pm

today at 7pm jason and i are going out to dinner at jason's friend's house.
it is a woman from india and her indian husband. he knows the woman from school.
so she is going to cook traditional indian food and i look forward to that :)

we also went out with them on new years eve.
i hope i can keep a good conversation going tonight, too.
i lead such a different life than they do.

money spent today: $29.86 o silver yarn to make hats for my hat show in may

today on oprah:

i recommend watching this:

Lisa Ling investigates how marriage dowry demands in India have become so harsh, some women are being burned...by their husbands. Plus, impoverished people selling their kidneys for survival.

and...

Dr. Catherine Hamlin has spent nearly 50 years of her career providing free reconstructive surgery to thousands of young African girls and women suffering from fistulas suffered during difficult childbirths. In 1974, Dr. Hamlin and her late husband, Reginald, opened the Addis Ababa Fistula Hospital in Ethiopia. Since then, the Drs. Hamlin and a team of doctors have cured more than 24,000 girls suffering from fistulas, and given them new hope. For her incredible work, Dr. Hamlin was nominated in 1999 for the Nobel Peace Prize. Learn more about how to help her cause.

What is Fistula?
Fistulas are holes that develop in the tissue that separates the vagina from the bladder and/or rectum. They can occur in expectant mothers who have difficulty during labor due to small pelvises, or a poorly positioned fetus. In the United States, obstructive childbirth is often treated by a caesarian section. But in many developing countries, poverty prevents women from getting proper treatment.

Dr. Hamlin explains. "Imagine a little girl...one of the unfortunate five percent of all the women in the world that get into obstructive labor...She doesn't know when she starts her labor, nor do the village women know... They encourage her (to push) day after day after day. After five days she delivers a stillborn baby. The only reason she can deliver is because the baby inside the mother gets smaller when it's dead, and she can push out a dead baby.

"But she wakes up to a worse horror: Finding her bed soaked in urine and sometimes bowel content as well. All of that pushing has created that hole so everything is coming out, without any control." The odor of the nearly constant drip of urine and waste remains. The young woman is often shunned by her husband, and sent to back home to her parents. Dr. Hamlin says the women are then shunned by their families.

"The father says, "Let us build a house for her to live in, a little room somewhere on our family plot. So they put her into a little shed, and there she will stay for the rest of her life, unless she can be cured. She's ruined, a beautiful girl...with no hope of being cured."