January 13th, 2004
    
     
     

eaten: salisbury steak tv dinner, cranberry muffin, diet coke

 

11:07pm

i may be able to salvage the hat. it just won't be as cool as i wanted it to be, perhaps.
it's REALLY nice to stay home all day today.
i get really overstimulated if i go out too much.

7:52pm

ate today:

10 almonds, cup of stew, a coke

spent today $18.50:
2 salisbury steak tv dinners, a coke, a case of diet coke, a red bull,
a bunch of bananas, 2 rolls of toilet paper

 

6:02pm

posted to crocheting community:

crochet and spirituality [13 Jan 2004|05:59pm]

crochet
[ana]

i am wondering if anyone else here feels a deeper connection to something spiritual while they are crocheting because i do.
firstly, it's meditation to me. i am a pretty high strung nervous person a lot, and crochet has really helped me stay grounded and calm down. secondly, when i'm crocheting, it feels like i am connecting to something really ancient and therefore that is also very grounding and it feels good to me to be connected in that way.
(i know in crochet history they say it has not been around for a long time...maybe i am just connecting to needlework in general).

also, it seems that crochet is just such a good analogy for so many things in life. the way things are interconnected. the way it is important to lay a good foundation. the way that there is joy in repetition. and the way that even a thousand mile journey begins with one step. it's also good for cultivating focus, discipline and patience.
and with free form it's good for trusting in yourself and the universe, following your heart, listening to your intuition, and not trying to force anything but let it be what it wants to be. to let go of attachment.
and like life, crochet seems to be more about the process than the final end result.

i also think there is a huge connection to even physics and higher mathematics. like string theory and sacred geometry.

i think that the process of crocheting a doily or a potholder could help to enhance spiritual enlightenment in the same way that tibetans create mandelas...and so many other worldwide religions and belief systems.

is there anyone else on here who has made this observations or had other observations of this kind to share?

5:48pm

i am moving away from negativity and into positivity now.
ohhhhhhhhhhhhmmmm. :)

5:04pm

i have to get my schedule back on track.
this going to bed ta 8am and sleeping until 3pm is not good for me.

some ana2 member had the nerve to tell me to get more nude today.
as if!
i'm not some fricking stripper that takes requests, thank you very much.
and i guess the nude pix of me yesterday and just a few days ago don't count a nude. go figure.

photocontest has been a pain in the ass lately.
i won't go into it.

i have been crocheting this hat, and it has been taking me forever because it's made from very very very fine wool.
and then i thought, it'd be cool to felt this...as i never have felted anything before...
but one part of it was made from that superwash wool that will not shrink or felt.
and the other part of it did sort of felt.
anyway...it ended up looking pretty stupid.
and then i started adding this other thing to it which is also kind of stupid.
i have probably put in about 40 hours of crocheting into this hat and it's just...stupid.
so that has me a bit bummed out.
but live and learn.
i try new things...

i need to scrounge up something to eat now.