December 23rd, 2003
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8:22pm

gonna try to go to bed early again.
i just gotta keep trying.
if nothing else, i will get up one hour earlier.

i need to spin up this black merino i have to make my dad a xmas scarf with.

i'm dying to tell bionicgurl (kat) what she got for xmas from her boyfriend!
ooooo, she's gonna be so happy!!!!!

her getting her present is seriously going to be the highlight of my xmas :)

4:36pm

oh wait...tonight is NOT xmas eve...
it's tomorrow night :)
ok...see that shows how totally not in synch i am with xmas this year!

4:12pm

merry christmas :)

jason's present i got him did not arrive in time for xmas :(
oh well. he is jewish so...
but still! i wanted it here! bah.

i tried so hard to get to sleep last night early.
but i was just completely hyper and my heart would pound everytime i tried to go to sleep. it sucked. and so i went to sleep after 6am again :(

but i did get up at 2pm which is 1 hour earlier than the other days.
bah.

i'm going to clean my house now.

xmas eve is the night my family would always open all the presents and have the big supper. and the xmas day we would see what santa brought in our stockings and we would have a more low key supper.

i miss xmas how it used to be. i miss having a tree and the smell of the tree and the smell of everythng cooking and the smell of bayberry candles.

today is just like any other ordinary day.
and although that doesn't totally suck, it does suck a little bit.