December 19th, 2003
    
     
     

6:55pm

i have a bad headache from my period.
going to jason's to watch legally blonde 2 and eat a frozen pizza.
feeling shakey from all the caffeine i had today to try to rid of my headache :(

5:54pm

ways to cheer up
a thing i posted in a friend's journal in answer to her question, "What are quick things you can do to change a negative emotional state?"
thought i'd share here, too:

1. drink a vanilla coke and listen to madonna's greatest hits really loud! especially the song "lucky star" :)

2. baths with bubbles and a rubber ducky!

3. beer!

4. watch the movie "groundhog day"

5. make a list of 30 things you are thankful for! (this one works really well as it makes you focus on all the positive aspects of your life immediately)

6. hitachi magic wand!

7. hitachi magic wand and chocolate!

8. uplifting music, candles and incense...dance around the room and shake all the icky energy out!

9. squish puppies and squish kitties! if you don't have any visit a pet store and squish them!

10. bake cookies then colour in a colouring book while waiting for them in the oven!

11. pink bunny slippers, chocolate milk and the movie "valleygirl"

12. go look at pictures of annie sprinkle!

13. learn to crochet. so meditative and calming and centering! plus yummy yarn to feel. mmmm :)

14. shop shop shop!

15. dye hair a new colour, put on high heels shoes, prance around to sexy music

16. get laid!

17. read or listen to "the power of now" by eckhart tolle

18. get plenty of sunlight and fresh fruit! mangoes!
if it's not sunny, get full spectrum lighting or go to a tanning bed and just get a little light.

19. channel the power of oprah through you!


share your ways you cheer yourself up!

6:38am

going to bed NOW!

5:36am

big discussion:

http://www.livejournal.com/users/ana/1271646.html

i should get to bed but i am so HYPER!

2:57am

played around with my little portable priner that jason gave me.
it's cute as a button! it doesn't print big, just as big a normal photo and it looks great!
my fave feature it has is that it can print from a movie...and it can print 25 stills from that movie and print it all on one page :) so it's very much like a super sampler:

http://shop.lomography.com/microsites/supersampler/

i don't know what 25 pictures it will choose :) i love when i get to be surprised :)
i can also have it choose less than 25...like 16 or 8 or 4.

but i really want the super sampler, too. and bad!
soooo much i want in this world. soooo much!
at least i am NEVER bored!

and i have been browsing all books about eating raw food at amazon.

i have too much in my cart right now but i didn't buy anything. i have to make sure i have enough for rent. all these delicious cookbooks!
i've never been into cookbooks before but all of a sudden, i am.
like i need to be into any more things.
now i want a huge kitchen and all sorts of weird appliances.
but 1st i'll just get a blender because i want to make smoothies and soups the most.

i need to go food shopping because all i have is a few pieces of leftover chicken.
and some noodles.

i want to throw veggies in the blender and come up with conncoctions so bad that i am DROOLING!
i love conncoctions and potions! it's like SCIENCE!

i am in my "taking in all sorts of information" phase.

i always have my phases.
let me think what they are...

1.the take in every available amount of information until i my head explodes phase
2. the write write write chat chat chat post post post til i want to puke phase
3. the sleep sleep sleep all i need is quiet leave me alone i need to stare phase
4. the i need to DO DO DO CREATE CREATE CREATE until i make such a mess of everything i need to stop phase
5. the oh my god i need to clean everything or i will freak the heck out phase
6. and the ever popular i hate my life everything is pointless i am so ugly i hate humanity there is no way out phase

rinse. repeat.

have i left out any of my phases?



1:59am

i'm having a deep desire to raise my "vibrational frequency" by eating mostly fruits and veggies , mostly raw.
but i don't want to do 100%. i just want to eat better , lighter foods.
i am interested in how or if that would effect me.

i want to stretch and excercise almost every day.
and meditate, dammit.

needing this big "cleanse".
needing to get rid of stuff both physical and emotional.
figuring if i do the physical, the emotional will follow suit, perhaps.
i just want to get LIGHTER LIGHTER LIGHTER!

i want to get internet surfing down to a minimum...unless there is something i want to know about (which is almost constantly).
i want to watch very little tv, if any tv at all...just as an experiment.
and absolutely no news.

i want to see how it will effect me if i do not watch the news or read anyone's livejournals for a month.

i have a great desire to do some sort of psychededic journey to get my mind back on track.
and my priorities back in order.
that always works for me like a charm.
i'm finding some interesting legal substances.

i would seriously LOVE it if i could SOMEHOW get back to nature.
i don't know how that is possible in the wintertime.
i wish i could go sit by the ocean or a desert or a woods somewhere.

i need a major psychic rehauling and attunement.

the thought of this energizes and excites me.

i wish fresh organic fruits and vegetables didn't cost so much.

i don't know if i will start parts of this january 1st or not.
but i may.

i need to get this computer out of my room because the sound of it is driving me INSANE.

i wish i had money to buy a food processor and a juicer.
and some plants
and vitamins
and fresh food
and one of those ionizer things
and a few bizarre contraptions on the internet like the pyramid structures here:

http://www.pyradyne.com/

i want CLEAN. i want LIGHT, i want SIMPLE!

i'm going to have it! i will accept nothing less!
bit by bit...i will get there...

i am ready for a transformation!