November 11th, 2003
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11:39pm

matrix 3...didn't like it.

visually stunning. but predictable and exhausting.

i feel really crappy. fighting getting this cold.
i'm trying to remain positive and have fought it for a week but tonight i feel like it is winning.
i need to get to bed and sleep it off.

4:59pm

a short nap with the squigglebeast.
i wish i knew if i am catching a cold or just allergic to something.
so many people i know are sick with a cold right now.
in an hour jason and i are leaving to go out to eat and then to see the matrix.
i'm excited!

 

2:13pm

ramen.

 

2:06pm

i wish i could shake this being-on-the-edge-of-a-cold feeling.
i will take more echinacea and vit c and may have to take a nap even tho i really don't want to :(

12:59pm

i'm not done with this hat yet (but i'm almost done)
i wanted to show it to you now because i love it!

12:45pm

could that ladytron video "blue jeans" be ANY cooler?

12:11pm

i got up at 11am even tho i went to sleep at 6am almost.
i did because i saw it was sunny and i figured that would keep me awake.
that, and i had a red bull in my fridge.
i really don't want to get in the habit of sleeping into the afternoon again.
it's 50 degrees outside and already i am considering that a heatwave and want to go out into it.

tonight jason and i are going to go see the matrix 3! yesssss :)
i hope it will be better than part 2.

i'm going to take advantage of the sunlight and CLEAN MY FRICKIN' HOUSE!

yes, sirree.

for those of you concerned about my mom picking a counselor...i think it will be ok.
if i hate who she picks i don't have to keep going to that one.
i also asked her for the names and phone #'s of the ones she was given a list of from her insurance provider.
i have to go to one that takes her type of insurance.
and i will call them.

it's just that this entire process is very overwhelming for me and it's hard for me to get at all motivated and energized to put any energy into it especially since i feel so pressimistic about the entire thing.
i also think i will be able to tell from the 1st session whether or not she really is open to change.
and if i get the feeling she is not, then i won't be continuing down that road with her.
so why should i put in all the major effort finding the perfect person to go to if she will just not even be open to change? if i see she is open, and i don't like who she picked, then i will get really involved and pick another person to go to.