November 3rd, 2003
    
     
     

11:19pm

the movie was so happy :) it was a japanese film called ping pong :)
and funny too as eebomb was there and we were talking about how she may name her new japanese chin baby, ping :)
go see her new monster here:
http://www.livejournal.com/users/eebomb

she got him from http://www.japanesechinrescue.org/

and she told me today that in a roundabout way i helped her get one!
because she used me as a reference and they called me but i wasn't home
but they heard i was ana vog from anacam, and they knew who i was and knew that i had japanese chins!
and she told them she was taking care of mine, so they trusted her and she got her new dog! :)
how cool is that??
so now i am going to email them and thank them for letting her have a chin :) yay!

7:17pm

i'm having a hat sale to make up for the $ i spent in virginia.

here they all are here:

http://www.livejournal.com/users/ana/1237397.html#cutid1

only 49 bucks! so that is more than 1/2 off! :)
if you are an ana2 member i will give you free shipping!

xmas is coming so why not get someone you love a hat for the holidays? :)

6:53pm

i'm going to go out to a movie with my friend carolyn in 45 minutes.
i still haven't unpacked or taken a bath. i guess i better take a really quick bath now.
cooked up some chicken. superrrrrr cold and grey snowy day.
i missed some great coast to coasts while i was gone.
maybe i will have to become a member again so i can hear back episodes.

3:06pm

the ride home...

 

2:48pm

here are a few picture of the meditation garden at edga cayce's A.R.E.

it was interesting seeing the remote viewing crowd (which is mostly made up of manly army-type men)
and the a.r.e. crowd (which was mostly made up of new agey feel good women) mix together at this conference.
the guy who would start each day was from a.r.e and he reminded jason and i of mr mackey from south park.
everytime i would see him would think of the line from "undercover brother" when they were making fun of the spooky movie ( i forgot the name of it), "i see white people!".
now if you haven't seen all these movies and don't know what i am referencing, i am sorry.
we did everything but have a "group hug moment" at the start of the day. very funny to me :)
we also could have started out our day with special edgar cayce excercises...but we opted to have an hour more of sleep.

edgar cayce's son, who is also named edgar cayce gave a talk, too.
we missed the 1st 1/2 an hour, unfortunately, but what we did see was extremely cool.
his son is so down to earth and funny and the edgar cayce devotees are so obsessed and hang on every word the original edgar cayce ever uttered. they are so devout. it's almost like a religion.
i don't know much about edgar cayce, but from what i've read, it sounds like good common sense.

 

2:27pm

after that dinner it was a lecture by russell targ.
this was the lecture i was most look forward to hearing and if you remember me telling you, i really love russell targ as he brings spirituality and humanity to science and he just seems like the coolest most gentle person.
i wanted to crochet him a scarf and give it to him but i didn't get time to do that.
and now i'm glad that i didn't because after this lecture, which was a lecture that had much buddist philosophy in it and he ended his lecture by saying "be in love", russell was an asshole to me and that made me cry very much.

i got in line to get his autograph. and i wanted him to sign my white leather coat which is a coat that i had tori sign so it is a very special coat for me. and when i politely asked him for his autograph he was taken aback and he waved his arms at me with disdain and repulsion and said " no way no way!"
i was so startled by this and so embarrassed, disappointed and humiliated that i just quickly said "ok"

and then wanted to disappear into the floor.

it was like he kung fued me in a sensitive energy center that i didn't even know i had open and vulnerable.
it felt like a father figure rejecting me and a bunch of other rejections i have had all rolled up into one.
and all emotions i had tangled up in all of that came painfuly to the forefront and to my utter irritation at myself i cried for a good hour about this and felt like my heart had just been burst and squished flat.

it was so embarrassing. i didn't cry in front of anyone, i went outside and sat on the steps.
but people kept wanting to come up to me and compliment me on my hair as i cried and so it was very awkward.

i guess russell only signs his books, i don't know why.
he signed jason's book right before me something about living in joy or something.
he has bad handwriting so we can't totally make it out.

but i must say that for russell to behave like that was very hypocritical of him
and very very very unbuddist, which is what he had just gotten done lecturing about.
so it was just utter bullshit and terribly disappointing and confusing for me.
and of course, he doesn't owe me an autograph even tho i DID fly all that way
and much $ was spent going to that conference and i didn't approach him for an autograph until it was the designated autograph time.
but i think he could have told me he did not autograph anything but his books in a way that was not demeaning and demoralizing to me.

and i might email him and tell him this. but i just don't know if i have the energy.

this was the hugest bummer of my trip.

who knew that the man who helped invent the laser would make me cry...

2:16pm

another highlight of my trip was this dinner:

lobster, scallops, shrimp on noodles in a spicy sauce.
i'm starving for it right now, in fact.
we had this dinner with 2 pirates named kim and pat and kim's wife
and then this other woman who was insanely insecure and was sort of competing with me for attention or something which was rather draining, but i won her over by the end of the night and all was well.

kim and pat are business partners and they dive for treasure.
here is pat's website all about this:
http://www.imacdigest.com/

they have found millions and millions of dollars worth of gold, silver, and emeralds. they both had pieces of eight as necklaces on and emerald rings. kim reminds me of chewbacca because he is tall and gentle and kind and quiet. pat is more the gregarious sparring pirate. they have more stories than you can shake a stick at and i very much look forward to meeting them again!

jason had met kim before at the monroe institute

 

2:05pm

there was one day we actually got to be by the ocean for 1 1/2 hours.
this is where i belong. i am never more myself than when i am a scavenger for seashells.
i even put a seagull feather in my hair.
*sigh*

 

1:47pm

the morning sunrise looked like heaven.
i could be a morning person if i lived by this every day!
these picture don't even remotely show it's spearkling beauty.
and how it looked exactly like heaven and earth met and had no point of separation.

 

1:32pm

this is what i mostly saw during my trip, the dark conference room
as scientists and former cia agents gave power point lectures.

this here is stephan a. schwartz
he is the one who put this entire conference together.
the conference was held at edgar cayce's A.R.E.
(association for research and enlightenmment)

i can't believe i never made it into their extensive library.
there just wasn't much time for anything else other than these lectures. they would give us breaks and time fr lunch, but it was not leisurely.

the lectures were all very interesting.
but i must say they did not touch upon anything that hadn't been already discussed at last year's conference.
i really wish they had said something a bit different.
however, it was still good to get refreshed on it all.
and ingo swann's lecture wasn't a lecture this year which made it MUCH better than last years. he did a more informal question and answer thing and you got to see more of who he is and what he is about, which made me happy.
i could go on and on about ingo swann and wha a cool genius/eccentric he is, but i just wouldn't do him justice and it would take pages to say it. he is such an elf.

1:28pm

when we got to our hotel, a ramada..this is what our balcony looked over!
i was completely floored that we were right by the ocean on the 2nd floor.
i didn't want to leave the ocean at all. i just wanted to stay right there.
when i threw food off the balcony, all the seagulls would come flying.
some would hover right in front of me and we would play a game.
i would look straight at them and they at me and then i would throw bits of food and they would catch them, gracefully, in midair! they are so smart. i called the seagulls "puppies of the sea" :)
my heart just soared as we played this game. it was pure joy for me.
i hadn't seen the ocean in years, and i hadn't seen it this lovely and open in many more.
i needed the ocean more than anything, and i really enjoyed the conference and i'm glad i went,
but i REALLY NEEDED the ocean and i wish that i had been able to spend all my time at it.
i really thank my mate, jason, for this gift of the conference and the ocean.
each morning i would wake up, i would play the food game with the seagulls.
i think that was my favourite part of the whole trip.

 

1:11pm

pictures taken on my way to virginia and the airport on a layover in detroit

more pictures soon.
i'll be adding them all day...

 

12:05pm

yesterday i was at the warm sunny ocean.

just now i woke up ( it was great to sleep in), and i look outside and it's SNOWING!!!!

gah.

brrr. i'm going to turn on the heat.
and get the pictures i took in virginia up for you.