October 1st , 2003
    
     
     

4:16pm

well, i guess i still could receive $ to my paypal.
i just can't put $ in from a bank account or verify it.
and i can pay for things with paypal up to $2,000 then i have to verify it...
so...i could use it up to the 2,000 point. so....
i guess i'll just deal with it that way for a tiny while.

fucking blarg.

ok, off to the outside world i go.
and i need food.
that red bull and no food magnified my annoyance factor.

3:26pm

gonna get outside now to do errands...pay bills...mail packages...

3:05pm

god, i am so highly irritated and mystified.
i tried opened a new paypal account because i have 2 bank accouts and i thought i could open one under ny 2nd bank account. but when i entered the bank account # of one they DON'T HAVE...it said that bank account is already registered to a paypal account so i can't use that one.WHAT THE FUCK???
i went back into the paypal account of mine that they closed (i can still access the info), and the new bank account i want to put in my new paypal account is NOT in there. so how the hell do they know of my new bank account #??? i am just shaking i am so upset about this. i am so confused. i don't understand.
did i start a paypal account long long ago that i just don't remember??
fuck.

so now i cannot verify my new paypal account.
and i cannot put $ in it.
so i just cannot buy anything on ebay with paypal anymore ever again, i guess!
i just want to cry.

and now that i have entered some bank account that is already on file with them, i feel like i just shot up a huge red flag and they will close my new account, too.
i just want to fucking cry.
my main way i do business with my hats, and buy yarn and fiber for my hats is absolutley gone.

they have really really fucked up an important part of my life.

i am soooooooooooooooooooo sad.

 


1:32pm

new cam

they must have turned the air conditioning off in the building.
butwhen the sun hits the building it still gets really hot even tho it's only 44 degrees out right now.
it looks like a perfect day outside. i have to get out there and mail some things.
slammed a red bull to counteract the tylenol pm i took to sleep.
i'm still not fully awake.
listening to gen80's radio on live365.com
oh, and i have lots of bills to pay today...rent, server (which cost 150 more this month), electric, phone...
money come ...money go....


1:52am

it's october???
wow.
it's getting down to almost below freezing at night now.
the days are in the 50's.

i have a new cam hooked up but it's some weird survelliance cam that you mount on a wall or something...it has no way i can put it on my tripod. bummer. but at least i have a functioning cam! and that's good!
also, it has no night vision. i have another one of the, too. i am going to see if i can get that going tomorrow, too.

i spent all day and night reading weird stuff at:

www.williamhenry.com

i can't even go into it all...it's just too much.
my mind is melting in a million different directions on it.
and i'm freaked on how some drawings i have done really have tapped into the collective unconscious...the whole mythology or whatever you want to call it. it really makes you wonder and it makes my hair stand on end.

i wish i had the energy to write about it all, but maybe some day i will. it needs to gel a bit in my system.

watched a great documentary tonight on "the cockettes".
i had never heard of them before! wow, i wish i had been there to experience that! amazing! i should have been there...

i can't type any more...my mind is fried but i still want to read a bit more before i go to sleep. i want to know everything now!

coast to coast is kind of boring tonight. but tomorrow night is jeffrey mishlove and i like that guy a lot! have you ever seen his show "thinking allowed"?

the dogs are having a lttle crazed hump session right now...
they sure crack me up :)

did you see tammy faye on the sharon osbourne show? what a trip...

speaking of trips, i ordered a book on amazon called DMT...all about you guessed it...DMT.
i have never taken dmt, have you?

i found a great place forum place for all sorts of interesting things:

www.fantasticforum.com/1res/index.php