September 29th, 2003
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11:09pm

tomorrow i'm going to get some cords for the other cams i have.
hopefully, i'll even get 2 cams running tomorrow so there can be 2 cams in ana2 instead of one cam :)

i'm cutting up an ugly green suede dress to make a hat out of.
i'd bring the cam over to the bed, but it will shut off if i touch it.

7:34pm

 

7:12pm

cleaned more. took a bath.
got to the store and many people commented on a hat i was wearing that i made.
and many people said "is that your real hair?"
i can't leave the house without causing some minor stir whereever i go now.
so that means life is pretty much back to normal.
now i have 1/2 an hour before i leave to the movie with carolyn.
the clouds were absolutely gorgeous today. changing shapes and colours every hour.
i smell like yummy burts bees coconut lotion. mmm.
i'm hyper as hell from caffeine. need to breathe.
i'm in a good mood.

5:18pm

getting some cleaning done. feels good.
i am watching it rain far off in the distance.
listening to new wave netradio.
i'm a little caffeined out.

4:11pm

i found some garlic shrimp in my freezer. made that because i was craving carbs in a big way and if i don't gve in to hat and eat protein instead, i find it stops that craving for the rest of the day, pretty much.
that is the best thing i learned on atkins is that if you eat protein for your first meal of the day, the esy of the day you will not be so hungry. so for everyone eating cereal and muffins for breakfast...i recommend not doing that and eating some bacon and eggs instead.

jason's home!

2:41pm

it may seem that i slept a long time. but i didn't go to bed until 5am. and then there was so much construction noise i just sort of had a few hours of sleep and a few hours there. it makes me feel fragmented.
my house is such a mess, i have to clean it today.
it's only 48 degrees and raining.
the sky is hung low with clouds and and the sound of trains and squealing metal.
i had intense dreams of walking into the wrong neighbourhood and a guy trying to abuct me and rape me.
thankfully i got out of the situation as a cop helped me.
i made it to my mother's where she had an amazing dinner brought in.
all this tropical fruit, fresh oysters (which wouldn't open), beef roast.
everything was extremely expensive and delicious and i was starving.
it was the 1st time i had seen my mom in 2 years and we were acting like everything was normal and ok.
i was trying not to cry.

i have a headache. i'm going to go take some aspirin.
i think it's my "period headache"
i need to get to the little store then for food for me and the dogs.
then i'm going to clean.
then i'm going to a movie with my friend carolyn at 8pm.

i'm thinking on thursday i will do a cam show for you.
i think i know what i want to do. it involves a lot of balloons.

4:15am

i want to turn the nightvision on on my cam, and move it...but i am afriad if i touch it it will turn off like does the last 2 times i have messed with it...
so...i'm not going to touch it right now!
i hope it stays on all night and don't wake up to find it doing the blue screen on me.

3:45am

i finished the book. so weird to be in this trance-like mode from reading , still immersed in it all...and then turn on coast to coast and hear them speaking about nanotechnology in a way that sounds jus like the science fiction book i was reading. *mind melt*

time to turn off the lights now and listen to the end of this and then sleep :)

it was good to read a fiction story. that is only the 2nd story i have finished, i think, since i first discovered the internet in 1995 (or something around there) and then got all my reading done on there.

i must read more books. lovely.