August 12th, 2003
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5:49pm

my dad called me today and i told him everything about my mom and my relatives in canada and i cried and cried.
and he was a good listener and was loving and caring and i feel very happy that i finally told him everything. it's such a weight off my chest. although he doesn't have any advice, and there isn't really anything he can do...it was just good to know that me dad is there for me and that i have 1 family member who is not going to wig out on me and turn against me. and good to know that my mom isn't turning my dad against me, i feel beyond relieved about that.

i can't even write about it further. but you know all i said since i tell you in here. i feel like i could cry for hours..not because i am sad now but because it's all stirred up in me and has been released and now the floodgates are open.

i love my dad and i'm so glad i have him.

one thing i learned that is a bummer, tho, is that my mom is the executor of my dad's estate when he dies..and not like i will get much...but my mom will lord that power over me bigtime and milk it for all it's worth. but...maybe it will not be that way...i am projecting into the future. i hope i am wromg.

i'm just glad i have my dad and i cannot wait to go see him and take care of him next week. i need some dad time.
i think we will have a good bonding session. he's going to come and get me on monday at 11am. then his surgery is tuesday.
and then he thinks he may be able to bring me home on thursday or friday.

and then it wll be the 22nd and it will be anacam's 6th anniversary and quite possibly an all naked all week or some variation thereof.

i will take lots of pictures at my dad's!

i can't decide if i will take sebastian or pooka to my dad's

i have to go clean the kitchen now, take a bath, eat food, buy dog food...then i'm going to watch the movie "frida" with jason.