i wish so much that i could build shelves and storage space type things into and on my walls here in my small 700 square foot apartment.

this would solve ALL my storage and space problems and make my life so much happier and simpler and SO many levels.

i just wish i owned my own house so i could do these things instead of feeling like i live in a hotel.

i need to get rid of my king sized bed and my huge couch and just get a daybed or something.

and i need desperately to get one of those big lights that give off light like the sun.

i need room, and need light. i need money to get these things.

i am so frustrated.

all i do is build shelves in my mind and stare at my stuff. stare at my stuff and build shelves in my mind.

and i need that sunlamp for S.A.D. but it's 900 bucks. it's the kind that is big and is on a tall stand so that i can move around and do things while i am under the light. with the little lights you have to hold your head 6 inches from it or something for a designated period of time.

i want a lamp that i can just live my regular life under it.

i want to sell my car to get the lamp. but i need to get the car in my name first. and to get it in my name i need to get car insurance. which is really dumb because i am not going to drive it.

lamps and shelves.

shelves and lamps.

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