anagram 102002

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[ mood | nauseated ]

it makes me absolutely sick that this sniper is getting so much media coverage.

[15 Oct 2002|08:24pm]
crap. i just erased an entire anagram off my server that i do not have a back up of :(
do you think if i emailed my server they could retrieve it from the trash? or is that thing just gone gone gone?

[16 Oct 2002|12:28am]
OH MY GOD I AM SO BUMMED OUT!!!!! SEBASTIAN JUST ATE MY FAVOURITE CROCHET HOOK THAT WAS ONE OF A KIND AND COST ME 80 BUCKS!!! I AM IN SHOCK AND TOTALLY SICK ABOUT THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IT WAS A PIECE OF ART!!! MADE OF MAPLE BURL AND COCOBOLO AND EBONY!!!!!!!! SIZE N!!!!! I AM VERY UPSET ABOUT THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IT WAS IN THE TOP TEN MOST FAVE THINGS I OWN!!! GAH!!!!

little books [16 Oct 2002|04:09am]
ok, i have FINALLY gotten all the pix sorted out for the little books. i had done this all before i moved...and then i lost it all. so i had to do it over again.
that's going through over 40,000 pictures 2 times.
then getting them into their categories then selecting 16 faves for each category which was really tough! i have so many more faves than 16 for each category.
these are all the pix from 1997 thru 2001.
this is the longest and most difficult of the book making process.

now i print them out...then i take that to the printers and bring them back then cut them out and put them together!
i feel good about my progress! i can see the end in sight! :)

now i am going to eat some spaghetti then go to bed.

it was wild going through every single anagram i ever made! what a trip down memory lane. pretty intense for me!
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and a new anagram is up!

[16 Oct 2002|09:08am]
ok, NOW i'm going to bed. i was still working on little books! making cool covers for them.
i am so sleepy and my schedule is so out of whack.

the rob nelson show [16 Oct 2002|04:07pm]
i never know what will be in my mailbox when i wake up!
looks like i will be on "The Rob Nelson Show... a new national talk show on fox" via streaming video and audio on friday night! coolness :)
so now i have to figure all that out.

and then from my local paper they want a quote from me about indie porn. something i really know nothing about even though i think i am some sort of pioneer in it. i wrote to them this:

"my site, imo, isn't really porn, tho it is "adult" simply because there is nudity. and it is very personalized...probably one of the most personalized out there and definitely the most interactive, i have found.
i have done some things that are porn in the past and maybe will do in the future, but these are few and far between.
i am just not drawn to do that sort of thing very often.
i don't know much about this new hip porn or how it differs because i am not very interested in porn.
but from what little i have seen, there isn't much difference.
it's still the same old boring "money shot" and still geared for men and not women...although i have not seen all of it..so i am by no means saying it's not out there.
and, frankly, i think the sex looks just awful. but, obviously, ten gazillion people would differ with me.
but if they are trying to target ME, then they have not caught my attention with anything yet.

when it comes down to it, i'd rather have sex than watch it.
i just like to do my own thing :)"

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today i am going to dedicate my time cleaning, especially the kitchen, so that i can make the cookie baking process much more nice looking and also have more room to cook! it' s getting rather dirty in there.

[17 Oct 2002|02:38am]
i watched the rob nelson show and he seems like a nice guy with a feelgood type of show. classy, not skanky like sallyjr. he' s wholesome that he kind of reminds me of john denver. i look forward to being on his show :)

full spectrum or sunlamp? [17 Oct 2002|02:20pm]
do you think i should get some full spectrum lightbulbs...or a sunlamp? or a bit of both? ideas?
i am so tired all the time because of no sun. i can't take this anymore. i need some energy!

[17 Oct 2002|03:00pm]
a water pipe broke in the street so i have no water :/
i went up to jason's to get a jug so i can at least brush my teeth.
he has a water cooler.
water will be back on late late tonight, hopefully.

i hope that the water will be back tomorrow so i can make cookies!

light box [17 Oct 2002|05:05pm]
i need to get one of these light boxes!

or this light visor

[17 Oct 2002|05:19pm]
ana2: stream on
directions under the bed

[18 Oct 2002|01:57am]
[18 Oct 2002|01:57am]

I have issues with...
misfortune
crush
temporary
submission
shelter

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Type 5. Thinker
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Basic Desire: to understand the world
Basic Fear: of being overwhelmed by the world

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[18 Oct 2002|03:59pm]
the rob nelson show isn't live, so i will let you know what day it will air. i am rushing around trying to get things ready. they are calling me every 5 minutes. the cam isn't on beccause i am testing streaming.
more later...

[18 Oct 2002|06:51pm]
still working on the rob nelson thing. it is an all day venture for 2 minutes or less of footage they will actually use :)

[18 Oct 2002|10:01pm]
[ mood | hopeful ]

ok! that ordeal is done! i hope it will turn out ok :) i will let you know when it will be on :)
now i am cooking a chicken and going to watch late night tv :)

post whatever you want to this :)

[19 Oct 2002|11:36am]
on wednesday, a friend of mine died of a heart attack :(

Jay McHale.

he was an amazing, wonderful, kind, giving, talented man.
and he was the one who put out my band, The Blue Up?'s cd called "cake and eat it"

you just never know when a person is going to go. wow. :(

[19 Oct 2002|02:15pm]
i feel stupid making a post after making a post that my friend died. i mean, what could i write next that wouldn't sound shallow and stupid compared to something of that magnitude? what can you say after something like that? nothing. it's all going to sound stupid.
but life goes on. and that creeps me out.

but...here is my shallow post.
today i feel i have my time back after a day without water and then a day of dealing with showbiz. i couldn't do anything for those 2 days and it's nice to have all of that out of the way now. i am listening to the foo fighters new cd at mtv.com. you can listen to the whole thing there. i really love the songs "all my life" and "halo". i also saw the new tori amos video at mtv.com. i have to say i don't really like that video just because i don't like tori's head only attached to a single leg. but i know she had to do that to make the story go correctly. still..it was just icky to see her like that. but i LOVE the song. :)

i had yucky dreams. one was that x boyfriend's were stalking me and then my breasts burst and water was leaking out of them, making pockets of water on my chest that looked like gigantic blisters. it was horribly gross. i didn't know whow i was going to pay for surgery to have these things removed. yuck.

it was nice to wake up and see everything perfectly fine!

i hope to find some energy today to clean. but i don't want to have any plans today. i just want this to be a day for me, with no plans. i feel slightly drained from yesterday.
i am really changing as a person. i feel far away and distant from the whole showbiz rigamarole. although i could see myself still in it...just as more of an outsider floating around inside of it in my own invisible pastic bubble space ship protecting me.
it's hard to explain.

more on Jay McHale's passing [19 Oct 2002|02:28pm]
poindex posted this under the bed and i want to share it with you. he says it much better than i:

Posted by poindex on October 19, 2002 at 03:01:46:

Jay M, who operated the first label i was ever on, and Ana's second label too, i think, Catacombs records, died in his sleep on wednesday night. he is survived by his two cats who are at animal control tonight. our old friend Drew Miller sent me an email a couple of hours ago telling me some of the details.

Jay was a jolly, tender, self-depricating person with an enormous heart. he risked his finances to help many of us release records here in minneapolis, never profiting from it. i miss him already. i wish i had spent more time with him in recent years.

Jay played in a band called 2i that did a very strange and wonderful mix of punk rock, jazz, and strange noises. the band was way ahead of it's time... mixing completely unexpected instruments, playing weird rock and roll with textures unheardof in garage music, which was just becoming popular in local bars in the early eighties. his personality perfectly matched the bizzare and eclectic music of his band. around 1990, he started the Catacombs record label with a small amount of money i can only assume he inherited. he sacrificed this sum for others, always hoping someone would take off, something would come of it... but a great deal of the independent scene simply evaporated over the years, taking a lot of the local distribution and the associated jobs with it. i don't even know what Jay's last job was. I hope he was happy, though, and i'm sure it had to do with music. i couldn't help but laugh out loud at his jokes, and i always felt light in his presence.

wherever you are in the Universe now, Jay, i salute you and your kindness and love. thanks for being you.

please do this online questionaire for my friend :) [20 Oct 2002|03:05am]

http://www.surveymonkey.com/s.asp?u=23960130018

he needs a lot of people to do it. thank you! :)

all this luxurious webby golden fabric came pouring out like silly string [20 Oct 2002|01:30pm]
i am playing around with my new kenner knit-o-matic. it's pretty cool :)
it makes me want to get a real knitting machine now :)
i made a big long scarf with it last night and then i turned that scarf into a hat. today i might finish that hat. it makes fabric about 6 inches wide (28 stitches)
i am also working on some homemade chicken noodle soup. but maybe i will make it into dumpling soup. nice heavy dumplings. my swedish grandma taught me how to make them :)

it actually snowed here quite a bit this morning! but it's all melted off now.

i dreamt i was working back at ragstock and they wanted me to do a display for all this new "cow punk" clothing they had gotten in. and it was pretty awful clothing but then winona ryder walked in and we really hit it off and i was showing her these really cool plastic space eggs that had just come in that when you opened them...all this luxurious webby golden fabric came pouring out like silly string. and we were in love with this fabric. i wanted to make a long flowing dress out of it and so did she. but i saw them first so i bought them. but i planned to make her a dress from it , too and surprise her.

then all of a sudden, i was a huge celebrity for some sort of environmental cause and everyone was sending me all the info in it from around the world and i could not keep up with it and then in walked conan o'brien, and we really hit it off, too. and we joked about the awful cow-punk clothing and i was happy to see that he wasn't that tall at all. then i had to go to lunch and i told him i'd see him later on the show.

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anyway...here i am back in my "normal" life and i'm going to get hopping on that chicken soup because i'm hungry :)