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i found ernie at an art exhibit i went 2. he was just standing there looking like a total freak, like i was. i thought he looked like some sort of william burroughs with his homemade black choker with a faintly sewn on fake pearl drop on the front. plus his janitor outfit with the tennis shoes. and his glassese held together with haphazard spirally wire..one side of them covered in navy blue corduroy with a cheap broach on it. he had another gaudy broach on his fisherman's hat. and he was holding a back pack with multicoloured dinosaurs on it. the only draw back was that he smelled, couldn't hear,and since his false teeth ( that he made himself and expounded on how he made them for a good 1/2 an hour....) were in need of repair, so he didn't have them in. it was rather hard to understand what he was talking about.

after talking about false teeth and all the things wrong with conventional ones. and all the different plastics he had tried. and how he made a mold of his mouth with paraffin then drank cold water to harden the mold to get it out of his mouth right. and that the bestplastic he has found so far to make false teeth from is the stuff they make snowmobile windshields with... he also was very displeased at how false teeth looked when you put them in a glass at night. he said he thought they should like like sea shells. he wanted to see my mannequins... so with a bit of trepidation i said ok. and we went to my house. jason wasn't home. after the initial "oh wow, you certainly are busy in here!"statement from ernie...he plopped himself down on the couch looking like a tiny troll next to the mannequin then he talked and talked and talked and talked.....

and talked and talked and talked..... mostly about how when he was a little boy (he was born in 1919) he didn't draw cats and dogs like the other kids. nor did he draw horses like that girl in his class. he drew birds. and later on he revealed that he also drew deer, but never could get the hooves right...so he covered the hoovesin bushes or with flowers. he said he also never drewpeople until later. he said he never thought he wasa good drawer. he never thought much of it. but now he says he's "gotten pretty fancy about it" :)

he really liked to talk about dogs chasing cats a lot. a lot. i don't know why since he didn't have much affection for cats or dogs. but he said that once he had a rabbit. and then when the rabbit died ( and he pounded his heart), he just about died right alongwith it. he said he didn't know he had grown so attached to it. then he went back to stories about cats and dogs and how great of hearing they have. then he'd just give thislaugh and slap his knee and go , "well how about that!"

i asked him what was the weirdest thing he ever saw. and he closed his eyes and thought intently for a good minute. then he said, "well, birds flying is pretty weird! when i first saw a bird flyingi was mystified! how did they do that? and why can't i do that? and butterflies...well...that..." and he trailed off shaking his head in utter amazement and confusion. as a child he has glued turkey feathers to himself and jumped off the garage and really hurt himself. and he laughed and laughed at that. he also told me of the time when he was 6 and a coffee table and everything on top of it had fallen on top of him. he guffawed and laughed and slapped his knee again and said, "i guess it's pretty hard to forget something like that!" i nodded in agreement. i told him that when i was a child i took tagboard and tried to hangglide, but this also had failed. and he seemed to find solace in that he was not the only one who had tried 2 fly.

he also pointed out 2 me that he had figured out how to make his glasses "float" they floated a bit above his nose so they didn't hurt his nose anymore. that must have been what all that weird wiring was for. he said, " why didn't i think of this sooner?" he also had never been out of minnesota except for one time when he drove to chicago because he heard that wisconsin was like a desert with weird rock formations! and that's a whole other story!

Saturday, October 14th, 2000

11:15a quietness
what do u think of this? :

www.quietpc.com

a place that has gadgets to make your pc QUIET!

woke up 4 a sec...think i'll go back 2 bed now 4 a bit

11:39a ok, i didn't go back 2 bed. i'm cleaning a bit. now i'm gonna call my mom and dad and say hi and see how they are doing

12:03p i bought some toe socks :)

does anyone know where i could buy all the episodes of northern exposure on video tape?

1:54p i had such a great day yesterday. i was gonna go walking around taking polaroids...but i stopped at the sandwhich shop first to visit my friend bill 2 tell him about the dnap stock and also get some food. so i got some food and then i went on errands with him. one of the places we went was a mexican food store. god! all the food in there looked so yummy! big deli! and i got to buy a bunch of those catholic/mexican/religious candles. u know the ones that have the virgin mary on the front and stuff? and u write your request on the candle? LOVE THOSE. and they were only 1.59 a piece :)
i remember when urban outfitters were selling them for 6 bucks a piece or something. god.

and i bought a pink elephant pinnata! but it's at the sandwhich shop for awhile as decoration.

then i went for a walk and this building i've been wanting to get into for 2 years was finally open! i freaked and ran in and wanted to take a ton of photos but everyone didn't loook like they were gonna let me.
more on that later!

then i went back to the sandwhich place and helped bill with the shop. and i drew a sign for them that said how much their food costs and what they have and stuff.
and i took a bunch of polaroids in there.

then i had to run home and get back by 7 'cause i was gonna go out 2 sushi with his best friend/boss and his wife emmie. yummmmmmmm

anyway..i could go on and on about the details of yesterday but i just don't have time 'cause i wanna get outside again before it gets dark out. it's the last of the nice weather. it was 70 degrees out yesterday and today it's 60 degrees.

4 more hours of sunlight. gotta get dressed and all that. and i'm gonna go out and explore.

i am making a huge effort to go outside and get exercaise.

i have been so very social lately..it's odd. very odd. but it's a nice change of pace :)
and i have an incredible amount of energy and enthusiasm. maybe almost TOO much :)

but i know what it is that is making me this way. prozac.
i had a few extras that i have saved from when i was on prozac years and years ago.

and i know that my psychiatrist might be reading this, and if he is! hi! sorry to be self medicating! ack!

i have been seeing him for 13 years! ( about twice a year at the least...once every 2 months at the most. once i went for several years without seeing him )

he is groovy , he looks like john denver. and he is always at this same level of calmness. i don't know how he does it. the only thing i know about him is that he is an aquarious and he likes unusual ties.

anyway...who knows what the adverse effects are of taking xanax, amitriptyline, neurontin, and seroquel and prozac are. but i feel the best i've felt in ages. and i am going out and actually being really really social and LIKING it! and i am walking down roads with almost no fear in me. when i see scary people on the street i don't cower. i feel really confidant. i feel really damn good. it's so great to feel like this.

oh ya...also doxepin..i had some left over of those , too. 'cause prozac geeks me out so much...i am so not tired at night. so sometimes i take some doxepin to make me sleep.

wow. ok, so go ahead and yell at me about how stupid i am. whatever.
all i know is i am sleeping at night, and i am waking up at a reasonable social hour, i am going outside and interacting with people with no fear. and i'm not drinking.

i mean, that really incredible. so there u have it.

however, i do not mean to be good example here. i don't recommend that anyone mix drugs like i do. i know it can be dangerous. i know i'm being reckless. u don't need 2 preach 2 me the dangers. i know i know.
don't do this at home kids. consult your physician first.

2:00p oh no...my livejournal is freaking out on me again...and i cannot see any posts i make just like the other day. argh.

yep...i am in my isp's cache again. blarg. i wonder how long that will last. i hope not all day like it did the last time!

2:01a let ralph debate
what's the deal with this "let ralph debate" thing?
there is a sign on the refrigerator at the sandwhich shop that says that.
i had no idea what it meant.

then radiohead whenh they were on saturday night live...thom york (sp?) held up a "let ralph debate" sign!

god, i wish i had taped radiohead tonight on SNL.

did anyone tape it? and if so could u make a copy of it for me? it was so intense, i can't believe that i didn't tape it! *hits myself over the head*

wow. truly amazing. i can't believe that the radiohead record is #1 in america right now!
it's SO not "pop" it's really pretty way out there.

i took a lot of groovy pix on my polaroid today. i have so many 2 scan in and put in an anagram.

and then there's ernie, the 81 year old artist guy/thing. i can't believe i let him in my house. wow. what a character. more on that later...'cause i want 2 take a lot of time explaining him :)

me tired now. me go 2 bed.
me 2 tired 2 drag 50 pound camera into bedroom.

8:50a hey, i'm on my teensy little 1st computer in the thing room connected at 33.3 using aol. ack. i found some connectors i bought for phone cords and connected up 3 gigantic phone cords and i'm running them down the hall over 2 the kitchen sink, where the phone lines are:)
god, i forgot how painstakingly slow it is to be connected this way! wow! DSL kicks ass! even tho it is sometimes unreliable.
i should go 2 some flash sites and see how long things take 2 load there.
maybe it's good i don't have my site done in flash, just so it can load better for people with modems.
i gotta get my wireless one working again. i have 2 buy a new modem for it. but that is 400 bucks.
i was going 2 go 2 a concert with my dad today at 3, but i really don't feel like it...so i cancelled. i just wanna putz about the house today and clean and stuff. i've been pretty social for awhile now, so today i'd like 2 stay home.

i'm still in the cache from my regular isp, so that's why i'm typing 2 u using aol.
but i have 2 disconnect this computer if i want 2 use my phone.

i think i will buy radiohead's new cd today. and madonna's

12:50p yay! i can get back 2 my livejournal now using my regular dsl computer! :)
it's only 54 degrees outside :(
quite dufferent than the lovely 60-70 degree weather we had here last week :(

but i am thinking i should still get outside 2 enjoy it since it will soon be freezing temperatures..and 54 degrees is still at a comfortable temp as long as u wear a coat and hat.

i also need 2 scan all the polaroids i've been taking lately. i have 2 scan each one separately and then fiddle with the contrasts and brightness and all that jazz in order for it 2 turn out not looking muddy. i have discovered that my scanner sucks when it comes to scanning polaroids..and i don't know why...they just turn out really dull and muddy looking unless i tweak them. my scanner does not scan tru 2 life. anyone know what is the GOD of scanners? it'd be cool if i knew what scanner was the best. mine is a vista scan or something.

time 2 dance around my livingroom for a bit and shake off my grogginess and my slight headache

1:07p gary numan
i am taping the three gary numan albums i have, for bill

i love gary numan :)

6:58p today i've been organizing and cleaning. and i paid more bills. went through VHS cassettes that were unmarked and marked them. i always end up throwing blank cassettes in a moments notice into the vcr and then not labelling them. i have some cool movies that i taped that i haven't watched yet..one being Vernon, Florida and another called "the cream will rise" which is a documentary on sophie b. hawkins.

and i am sending out 2 the universe huge openness 2 all possibilities on how to get this 500,000 condo that is my dream house. i know i would liev there until i die. i know i would create beautiful things there. i know i could be at peace. it is mine. there si no other possibility. i love it...it loves me. we WILL be together. i know it, i feel it in my heart. somehow, someway...
money must manifest now in my life rapidly in alimitless possibility way. i am open to all channels, options, possibilities. i want it more than anything. it is my home.