anagram 10.02.99

i've been recooperating from a wild night of debauchery with jason. it was so fun :) but yesterday my body was like lead...seriously i could not even move my toe. so i sat on the couch and watched "practical magic", then i watched "restoration" ( which was GREAT! ) and then i sort of watched "outbreak". now today i'm getting some work done. making this anagram, gonna put the anapix up. but then i think i have to take another nap even though i just got up. i am SO tired!

above is a scan from the hong kong magazine "E-Zone" i wonder how big of a magazine it is! charity was so kind to ask this guy from hong kong that was emailing her to scan the section i was in , too! charity is in the magazine, too. she is #8 out of the world's top 100 webcams, according to them. i wonder how they decided? a survey? did they ask people outside of the magazine or did the magazine decide. i'm really glad i'm in it, and i'm #1 ( i would have thought they would've picked jennicam to be #1) but i just wish that people would ask before they use my pictures or at LEAST tell me that i'm in an article in their paper and send me a copy! so weird. but of course i'm glad i'm in it :) charity said she is getting a lot of email from people in hong kong now, but i haven't received any. not that i know of anyway.
charity had her section translated for her and u can go read it on her bbs at www.charitycam.org :) i can't wait to see what mine translates to! curious!!!

the roto rooter guy finally came over here after THREE friggin days of my kitchen sink overflowing with sewage smelling water. it ran over into the carpet when we were sleeping, too. after a night of debauchery u DON'T want to be scooping stinky water out of an overflowing sink into a waste paper basket then dragging that heavy thing down the hall and flushing it down the toilet. ack it smells in here bad. and i'm totally out of incense. the roto rooter guy was supposed to come here yesterday but he never did. so finally today he came and at this moment he's leaving out the door. noe our faucet is leaky so we have 2 have the maintenance guy come up here and fix that. then tell them about our carpet. i always wonder what people think when they come over here. they are always so surprised at my dogs and my mannequins. but they never ask about my video cameras all over the place. they probably think i'm making weird porno videos in here. well, someday that might be true. hehe :) and then my hair is so weird. three of my extensions got ripped out of my head during my crazy time. it didn't hurt 'cause i was so happy at the time :) and now i've checked and two more are just hanging on by a thread. so on the left side of my head i'm getting a weird bald spot :( i'm bummed about that :(
holy cow..must..take...nap....

oh! i have to tell u about my cool "ecosystems" i bought! it is just a box with water and inside are a fish, a snail, and a plant. then i got another with a frog, snail, and plant! SO TINY! they were just sitting there by the cash register at the drugstore. i'm such an impulsive shopper sometimes. but i had heard of these before because someone gave one of my uncles one of those. u just feed it the tiniest amount through a hole in the top. and i guess they are supposed to last for years like that. so bizarre! but of course, deiter got a hold of the fish food and ATE it. so now i have to go online and order more. the website is www.aquababies.com

here is something i wrote in anarchy. later on i'll put the anapix up

Posted by ANA on October 02, 1999 at 08:54:40: In Reply to: Jeez, Ana! posted by Darcy on October 01, 1999 at 23:22:37: thank u :) i love that i can put my ( fake ) hair like that finally! i feel like "me" now. u know how u just need a new hairstyle 2 reflect the ever evolving self :) i've been wanting to do my hair like that for YEARS, but never could cause my hair is short and it'd take me 15 years to grow my hair that long! i'm glad i could speed up that 15 year process into 4 hours! i'm really liking extensions now that i've got past that "itching" stage. i think i might just keep extensions going for a long time. next i want multicolored ones! i've been up all night "partying" with jason, having a wild time :) two of my extensions got ripped out of my head! perhaps i should sell them on ebay? :) actually when i take out all these extensions and get new ones i think i will sell my extensions on ebay :) would be interesting! it's 8am now. sun's up. dunno when i'll go to sleep. i've set up my cams for the night/morning so everything is ready 4 me when i want 2 crash. the rotor rooter people are coming here sometime between 11am and 2pm. i have 2 keep draining water out of my sink! i think today will be a big recooperation day so if u see me in bed or sleeping most of the day it's cause i'm needing some recooperation! i feel like i'm giving my soul a reawakening. being born again soon. hatching again and to once again remember my core. getting my hard 2 explain....but while my cam has been boring i have done a lot of the groundwerk to lay down some new foundations :) blah blah...hehe...hard 2 say what i mean, but those of u who know what i'm talking about will know :) thank you everyone for your unfaltering support. you all really do sustain me and give me the love i need to continue on. thank you from my heart

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and here is an email i sent to tori. including it 'cause i only write down stuff once so when i email someone it's like my journal:

oh ack my stomache hurts. i'm out of xanax.
i'm waiting for my boyfriend, jason, to get home. listening to mark hollis. he went to the milo fine free jazz ensemble show. i was supposed 2 go with but he had 2 werk late and couldn't come and get me :( do u like free jazz? i just discovered it a year ago and it was QUITE an eye opener!

i could go on and on but my stomache hurts. anxiety. i wish i didn't get anxiety. i've had it all my life ever since i can remember. i want to go to a hypnotist to get rid of it because it's really pointless. i've been meaning 2 write u for days, but again...i try to wait until the perfect time. but there is no perfect time, so i'll just write 2 u now during my anxiety attack as i wait for jason to come home. typing to keep my mind from going in silly circles. and then i can go to the drugstore and get my xanax. it's so cold in my apartment. i've had the electric oven on all day with the door open on 450 degrees. october 8th they switch the heat on i found out. and the kitchen sink clogged today and water was flowing up from it and i had to get a big pan and dish it into the waste paper basket then throw it down the toilet. it just hasn't been a good day.

but my hair is great! :) i have it all twisted up in these cool knots with crocheting metal sticls through it. i've been wanting to do this to my hair for YEARS! but i keep bleaching the crap out of it so it doesn't grow very long. but hey! i have it long now! insta-hair! :) i feel like betsey johnson. i love her! do u love her? i'll bet u do! i met her once too really briefly it's a cool story i will tell u about that sometime.

ok, the purpose of this writing besides to just type to pass away the time to get my mind off my stomache is to tell u that i am REALLY REALLY excited about possibly getting to interview u in the same room in NYC. when john w. said that was a possibility my hair wanted to stand on end if it could! wow.

triple fruitluck embroidery wow!

i just hope that they talk to me cause i know all about that stuff and sometimes people can get a bit gung ho with the technology only to have it poop out on them in the end. so i have lots of good plans. like for instance, this band i ADORE called The Pretty Things, have u heard them? u HAVE to hear S.F. Sorrow if u haven't it is in my top 5 fave albums ever. it was the 1st concept record made around the time of sgt. pepper. but they never did get much attention. they were really a raunchy band...the rolling stones contemporaries. except they were dirtier and nastier and uglier than the rolling stones so they never got popular. anyway....they FINALLY played that album live for the first time last year and david gilmour was playing with them and they broadcast it live on the net and it pooped out and no one got to hear it! so... i've got a great pretty things story to tell u too! it is a GREAT story!

so, anyway...tell the tech people that if this happens to have still cams too, cause u can have both, then the people that can't see the streaming can watch the still photos refresh every 30 seconds. it's cool to have streaming for the press and to get everyone excited but when it comes right down to letting everyone see it..still cam photos are best. but u can have both easily so no worries.

still, if all this falls through, then i'm glad it almost happened :) but i swear to u that if it does it will be THEE best interview ever. no questions about how u feel about "women in rock" god don't u jus hate that question? i have almost all the books about "women in rock" i buy so many books and never read them . i will someday tho. i love to read biographies best. i swear one day i'll be in one of those damn "women in rock" books. grr. :)

41 degrees out. brrrr. i think i'll go put on my furry pink coat.

oh! i heard that u mentioned me on kroq! someone told me and i went and listened to the archive! wee :) i don't know how u get up in the morning and do that. i hate morning djs and then theey all go "oh you should go to voyeurdorm.com they have 9 girls!" whatever. like my cam's even about that! oh augh. but they knew who i was! that always surprises me! i totally got a kick out of it :) thanks for mentioning me it made my whole day :)

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ok, i guess i'll go jump up and down now. my energy is amking a bunch of shapes right now like u said when i saw u

boing boing boing

i've been listening to your cd every day...."billowing out to somewhere...." love love love it :) i love when u sing "oh little sister....i wish you didn't feel that way" it make me feel so sad like i wanna curl up like a tiny kitten and just purr in a corner man, i can't believe i get to just type this to u, i fell so lucky :)

ok...bi 4 now must go pounce around, he's got to be home any minute now.... oxoxoxoxoxoxooox,

ana