anagram 091701

what counts as terrorism? [15 Sep 2001|11:40am]
why doesn't the government doesn't treat the people who surround www.godhatesfags.com in the same way as the followers of bin laden?

or that crazed bunch of anti-abortionists.
they have killed. they have a list of who they want killed on the internet and cross them off as it gets done.

aren't these things terrorism, too?

http://www.livejournal.com/talkread.bml?itemid=10693867&nc=1

THE ANA2 RED CROSS DEAL IS OVER [15 Sep 2001|02:10pm]
i just got a phone call from my isp letting me know that they got a phone call from the red cross. the red cross does not allow people to collect money for them without getting written permission. i had no idea about this, but i understand that they want to make sure people don't get ripped off by any scams. so i have to take down and end the red cross deal that i had going unless i can get through to them and get written permission. (but the deal was ending tomorrow anyway, getting permission i'm sure would take much longer than just a few hours IF i could even get permission) i will still be donating the money i have collected until now ($620) to the red cross, and will be scanning the receipt so everyone knows it was legit.

i wasn't putting any of the members that i was getting through recurring billing so there was no way that i was making money from this, i just want people to know that. it will also cost me a lot of $ in bandwidth to give 62 people ana2 for free, something i am glad to do for the cause, and i'm not saying this to go "poor me" , i'm GLAD to do it for the cause, i just really want to make it perfectly clear how i really sincerely wanted to raise money for the red cross and that it had nothing to do with me gaining anything.
(people who join after today will be put through the regular billing process)

i'd be lying if i didn't say i was disappointed. i felt really happy that i was raising money for such a good cause. unfortunately i doubt that i'll get permission to start this up again because my site is considered an adult site. i don't think that will meet with their "standards" of wholesome america, but i really don't know.

this is really sad.

[16 Sep 2001|03:04pm]
a burst of creativity is forthcoming. i can feel it. but today is just a pleasant rainy sunday spent with jason :)

[16 Sep 2001|03:20pm]
eek. i just heard the first plane fly overhead since all of that happened and it was REALLY loud. freaked me the fuck out. the sky is grey here so i can't tell how low it was, but i know that the planes in NYC were lower...and now it really hit me how LOUD that must have been and that i really have no comprehansion of it. yet again. i cannot get my mind to wrap around and understand what has happened. i think everyone is TRYING to get back to a "normal" life....but it's all still very much in the forefront of my mind no matter how much i go about my daily life.

A LETTER FROM RAWA (http://www.rawa.org)
a nececarry (sp? ) read for all humans:
http://www.livejournal.com/talkpost.bml?itemid=10796825

merging [16 Sep 2001|07:40pm]
i needed some music to feed my soul right now. i needed it like i need water.
this is what i bought to feed my soul:

india arie - acoustic soul
bjork - vespertine
mary j. blige - no more drama
kristin hersh - sunny border blue
janet- all for you
erykah badu - baduizm
alicia keys- songs in a minor

i need the songs of my sistahs all around me , filling my house and every cell of my spirit.
i'm gonna dance around the house and burn sage and i'm on the verge of getting my period so food tastes luscious and i'm so happy when i get what i want---which is to dance and eat pancakes and grow and stretch and evolve and get my creative juices flowing. i need my diva sistah queens tellin' it how it iz.

sometimes when i speak i go into that "r&b accent hand gesturing movement thang"
i say " YO! i need ma sistahs!"

my friend thinks that this looks as tho i am mocking the african american culture.
i am so not mocking it. i am an american and have been touched and influenced and merged with the environment that is around me. it is part of me. it is part of my experience. if cultures didn't merge we wouldn't have things like bjork. and we wouldn't have things like me. i am proud of my "american melting pot" soul. and i want it to be known that i would never mock the african american culture that i love so much. i know that i have not had the experiences of them, but neither have they had my experiences. i connect with them on the human level. on a woman level. on a soul level. it is SOUL music.

my brother is an african american but he grew up in an all white culture of small town america. so that is what he is. you couldn't possibly meet a whiter person than my black brother. we tease each other that we have taken over each others souls. we mixed.
that is what living is for. i'm not for boundries. i have no fear to walk up to three couches full of hardcore rappers taking a break from their music session and just sitting down with them and smoking one. it takes them off guard at first but then we see we are all just human. sometimes it takes something just as simple as that. sitting next to somebody that's different than you are. not crossing the street and instead saying hi to that person's face.

i am me and i will not supress that i have soul in me , too. surely i am not black in any way nor do i pretend to be. but i will not deny that that culture has had a great influence in my life since we adopted my brother when i was 3 years old and my brother and i went into that journey of why society thinks we were different from each other other than the colour of our skin and our personalities.

my friend who thinks i mock african american culture by sometimes talking in that lingo has also had dreds. isn't that the same as a gesture? an accent? am *I* mocking african american culture by having dredlocks? i don't think so. i think i'm paying tribute to the fact that we are all one and we all borrow from each other. i think that's a good thing. i think that's what makes america america and the world the world.

word.

re: bjork's vespertine [16 Sep 2001|08:51pm]
i totally cried the first time i heard it like the music was my mother i've been looking for all my life. i wanted to scream some primal sound and crawl into. it's like she's in my head taking things out of my head and showing me my own head. it's totally freaky. i wanna crawl inside that record and live there. it's my house. it's my cocoon.

[17 Sep 2001|01:55am]
i had a dream last night that i went back in time right before thr WTC was going to be blown up. i wanted to let people know about it before it happened but no one was listening to me. underneath this bridge in a store front near the WTC i saw the go-gos practicing. i got them away from their practice to see the first plane hit. then we were all flying above the WTC watching it from an arial view as the 2nd one hit and they asked me. "why is it that we can fly up here?" and i said " it's because we're dead" and then we looked around and saw other souls also floating around high above watching the disaster below, too. all of us were dead and we weren't sad or angry so much as just bewildered. and we felt calm and peaceful and curious.

[17 Sep 2001|02:49pm]
another grey day. i'm working on a new anagram