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[29 Jul 2001|10:45pm]
i'm over at jason's taking pix with my nikon :) spending lots of time with him 'cause he's going to be very busy for the next three days so i might not see much of him :)
it's a perfect yummy night out. i wish i could go frolic in it like a nymph of the night. *sigh*
stacy, i'll call u when i get into "phone mode" :) xox!
thank u everyone for your compliments on my hair, i'm glad you love it as i do :) yay! u can have hair exactly like mine or whatever u can dream up if u can catch hairpolice going on tour, u can read where they all go at their site: http://www.hairpolice.com i think they are going to L.A. very soon :) and lots more places after that :) in fact, there is a possibility of me perhaps going on tour with them here and there in the near future to document them and their process and be an assistant to them (mixing up hair colours and making sure they have coffee at all times :) i am very excited about the possibilities of that! we'll see what the future holds :)

[30 Jul 2001|01:38am]
ah! duckydoo just sent me gobs of pix from her cam when i was there. plus i took pix of my hair glowing in blacklight. i'll get them up in another anagram tomorrow :) weee :) there are some really great pictures :)

[30 Jul 2001|03:56pm]
it's 93 degrees but it feels like 104! 56% humidity. augh. today i hope to clean a lot. that is my only goal, that and get up yet another anagram :)
i wish livejournal worked. i have a paid account so i don't know why it's not working, unless a TON of new people paid, which could very well be the case! which is good :)

http://www.ana2.com : 4 NEW ANAGRAMS: 0729, 0730, 0731, 0801
(pix i made with duckydoo's duckycam ( http://www.drducky.com) thanks ducky for going through all the work to send those over! :)
pix i made last night: the robot and the virgin :), lots of pix of my UV hair glowing , and a ton of misc stuff :) enjoy!)

maybe NOW i'll clean?
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[30 Jul 2001|07:54pm]
ok, now what?
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snaps [30 Jul 2001|09:21pm]
where could i buy a ton of snaps ( like on clothing ) online?
i could never decide what kind of stuffed animals to make, so i have come up with this idea:

i am going to sew misc. arms, legs, heads, torsos, faces, bellies, tails, ears, etc...that can be all interchangeable by snapping them together. this way YOU can decide what sort of animal/beast/monster/creature u want by buying each part separately...then u can mix and match!

i also want to make handbags that have snaps on also, so u can unsnap your creature and snap it to your handbag ( or shirt perhaps..hat...etc...)

and i'm STILL looking for where on earth online you can buy yards of fake fur in many colours!

i also need foam for stuffing. i keep running into websites, magazines, etc for people who sew cloth dolls, but no where can i ever find anything that is dedicated to sewing stuffed animals!

[31 Jul 2001|02:37pm]
i'm getting more geared up to go to roxy music. and i'm having a coke dammit. a SUGAR coke! yeeeeehaaaaaa. i'm taking garbage out and trying to clean the kitchen. oh yaaaaaaa. fun. i traded someone free ana2 for this snap machine he had but never uses. i guess u need a thing to bash the snaps together to make then stick ( except for those snaps at the url that blonnie showed me ), so now i'll be able to do HEAVY duty snaps :)

i guess the big thunderstorm is supposed to come TOMORROW. c'mon, i want it NOW!!

you know which cam i find myself the most uncomfortable with? it's the one on ana2 which takes a picture of my desktop so you can see where i surf. i dunno why, but that is the one that i feel the most naked about. isn't that weird?

i got a new server hooked up that i can do sound on. i'm just waiting for the word on how to do it, all the info i need to plug into the realplayer :)

i'm thinking of staining my carpet with something. maaybe make it muticoloured. or maybe i'll just pour coffee all over it. i don't think i have the fortitude to rip out all the carpet. maybe i could make a solution like watercolours out of acrylic paint and water and just slowly watercolour my carpet. i mean, heck, it stains easily...so why not? i wish there was a spray on dye for acrylic carpets.
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[31 Jul 2001|04:03pm]
let me just say that the mr. clean antibacterial wipe ups rock my girly world.
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[31 Jul 2001|04:20pm]
in other news, my one lonely fish finally died. r.i.p. :/
i will never again buy any more fish unless i get an aquarium
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[31 Jul 2001|04:50pm]
got the kitchen mostly clean, which is a miracle. now i am going to put all my mannequins together again that i took apart so i could move them easier when jason moved out. i'm listening to the cocteau twins. even tho i have an air conditioner, it's getting hotter and hotter in my apt, hence, no clothes.

[31 Jul 2001|06:01pm]
97 degrees and feels like 109. it's over 80 degrees in my apt, and that's WITH the air conditioner on. i'm melting. gonna get ready to go see roxy music now.

[01 Aug 2001|03:25pm]
is there anyone that can come over and be with me? someone spiked my drink last night and i woke up hours later in an emergency room and my wallet was gone, too.

i'm so fucking nervous. i cannot function. i have no food either. but the thought of food makes me sick. but i think i could eat some fruit and drink some juice. then i could take some aspirin. i feel fucking horrid. no one is around that i can call. fuck.

are u around kaela? or ee? i know u hate my guts, ee, but i really need someone, please.
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[01 Aug 2001|06:06pm]
eebomb is gonna come over. she lives close by. thank u everyone for your suppport, it really helps me out to read your posts. i'm pretty zoned out 'cause i've not eaten anything yet today and yesterday all i ate was a pretzel. i don't know why it's so hard for me to just go out and buy some food ( at least i still have cheques )...one of my quirks. it seems i can go out when someone is with me, but if i have to go alone i just can't get the courage or something to go out. maybe i should get on prozac again. when i was on that i was able to go outside by myself and get stuff done. i have a mysterious brain. it aggravates me so much that i can't totally control myself. it makes no sense to me. yet...here i am in this state and no amount of thinking through it logically does any good. i guess i don't go out much exactly because of evil people that fuck with me when i go out.

many minutes pass...

eebomb is on her way over here. i am starting to feel a lot better. not so nervous and i'm actually a bit hungry now. we're going to get fruit and then take pictures of bumblebees and their colonies, 'cause that's what she does at school. she studies bumblebees :)
i think that will cheer me up some and get my mind off all the yucky stuff for awhile,

then i need to call the police and also the bar i was at and ask them if they remembered what happened. so much to do. overwhelming. oh, and he ALSO took my keys so i have to get a new lock on my door :(

and and btw, roxy music were fabulous AND rufus wainright opened! so THAT was a huge wonderful surprise :)

thank you everyone SO much. very very very much! :)
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[01 Aug 2001|10:42pm]
i am home now. i went out with eebomb and saw lots of bumblebees and took pictures and finally ate something. i am feeling 97% better. i don't know how or why i am so much better...but i'm very grateful for that! i'm just not gonna mull over this one. i want to move on. i should talk to the police, but i just don't want to drag this on further into weeks of investigation or whatnot. i don't want to stay in that frame of mind. i don't want to think about this anymore i want to move on now and live and be positive. i'll explain this all better later
jason is on his way home right now and i am glad for that. i am glad to be alive and i am glad that the guy at superamerica let me buy the pupsters some food without having to show my ID, which i don't have anymore. i don't know why i don't feel anger. it's very very strange for me to not eb angry about this. i think it's that i've had so much of this shit happen to me now, and i have dived into every possible question about these things. i have already picked it apart to death on a psychological level that i really don't have anything new to think about when this shit happens. i think i have a new attitude now perhaps. something like that old saying: "shit happens"

shit happens. and so i went outside and took picture of bumble bees making strange orblike colonies. so much roundness. and eebomb is 8 months pregnant and it all made so mach sense how we are all creatures creating seeds and eggs and colonies and orblike domelike things everywhere. the patterns of the universe everywhere. it was very life affirming. and eebomb is a marvelous woman filled with so much radiant light and motherhood all around her and inside.

it was so healing to me. so much better than carrying anger and revenge. i think i have learned something new that is a very good thing to know. i can't exactly put it into words yet. so good did come from that terrible incident, ironically.

shit how did it get to be 4am? i'm crawling into bed with jason now.
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[02 Aug 2001|06:41pm]
i cancelled two credit cards so far, then i called the police and made a report. of course, just as i thought, the police made a report about my stolen wallet and said they'd look for it ( ya, right ), but they had no interest in making a report that someone spiked my drink as they said they just had nothing to go on whatsoever. but i MADE him write down that my drink was spiked at least for the goddamn record and he sighed about this and it irritated him but he wrote it down, he said. whatever.
that is a big reason why i didn't want to call the police because it's this kind of shit that just bums me out and sometimes can make me feel worse than the actual crime. i know this from experience since the police didn't do jack shit when that guy busted in my house years ago and tried to rape me ( which in my mind and soul he did...and i'm not going into that anymore. yes, legally he did not...but from what i experienced, and it is MINE, he sure the hell did rape me and if u don't know the entire story, which you don't, pkease save your judgements ).
anyway, whatever. i filed a report. yay.

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Posted by dankitti - sdn-ar-002njprinP182.dialsprint.net (63.178.224.222) on July 30, 2001 at 12:08:05:

i had a dream with ana. i dreamed i went to a party at ana's apartment, although in the dream it looked more like an apartment i used to live in. kaela was there, but that's all i remember about the guests. during the party, i was giving people some record albums i made. an actual album, and a 12" single. they were not 'real' albums, they were the 'homemade' rerecorded albums that are featured in some dreams. in some dreams it is possible to rerecord vinyl elpee records. anyway, i brought some of these to the party at ana's house. during most of the party, ana was in her bedroom on record company business. bobby z. actually made a cameo appearance in the dream, which i am sure is unusual. does anyone else have ana voog dreams with bobby z.? anyway, i FINALLY gave ana a copy of my homemade elpee after most of the guests had left, and her copy was skipping. she was really sad & she almost started to cry.