anagram 07.29.99

here are some posts I've made in the last few days:

Posted by ANA on July 26, 1999 at 14:31:19:
In Reply to: question O' the day posted by Steve on July 26, 1999 at 14:20:41:
ya, that's what i'm thinking...
it worries me. yet...i do feel my "biological clock" going off now *shudder*
i never thought that would happen 2 ME! i HATE children.
but all of a sudden it has become this very "novel" idea. of course, having a child because it's a novel idea is not a good reason. therefore i will not have one..yet.
augh.
so this question plagues me, as a woman. that perhaps my role in this lifetime is 2 deconstruct rather than construct.
2 create SPACE in a world that is dying from overpopulation. maybe my greatest achievement will be not 2 procreate. a sacrifice perhaps?
bullshit maybe?
i don't know yet.
thinking

here's a cool link:
http://www.nationalgeographic.com/features/97/nyunderground/docs/nymain.html

Posted by ANA on July 29, 1999 at 10:00:20:
In Reply to: Re: sleep paralysis Article posted by edges on July 29, 1999 at 09:05:33:
who says i'm not a witch or shaman now? :) in fact there are many witches and shamans that i know of that post in here every day :)
but sleep paralysis has nothing 2 do with it that. not does it have anything 2 do with alien abduction...that is an entirely seperate issue.
here is something i posted in anarchy1:
"i know what it is..it is when i am falling asleep in a stressed condition it happens to me more often. it is when the astral body and the physical body become unaligned. my physical body cannot move without the astral part...
i know this because i've had this problem since i was a child. and each time it would happen i felt like i was dying or something was trying to suck my soul out. i would try to hit myself over the head or roll out of bed or say something to wake myself up. and it felt that my hands were moving..just very heavy and sludgelike. but when i'd wake up..my sheets had not been rumpled.
well, one time i was trying to hit myself over the head to wake myself up and i sawa the white outline of my hand hitting myself over my head.
i woke up from that! and i deduced that i HAD been moving around..it had just been my astral body flailing around trying to wake my physical body up. but it doesn't work.
it was then i realized that's why i felt like i was dying..because i was partly out of my body. and that it was because of stress these too parts would start seperating as i relaxed and tried to go to sleep.
you can think this is all in my imagination, but i know it's not. when stuff like this happens to me, i'm not dreaming. and i've never seen the white outline of my astral body again, but i have played around with it and stuck my astral arm through my couch and touched the floor. and i've felt my astral cord behind my back. and i could go into great detail with this. it's really fascinating.
but anyway, i usually do everything i cam to stop it because it's such a creepy feeling. like lying on my back tends to bring it on more, so if i feel i might be under the conditions to start doing that, i lay on my side.
lots of stuff.
then in the past month i have been consciously TRYING to do it a few times. and i've been a little bit successful. but i was TOTALLY not in the mood for it to happen to me last night..and for some weird reason i was stuffed up before i went to bed and i got myself into a position that made me more stuffed up feeling and i started to not be able to breathe very well. then when i tried to move i couldn't so i panicked this time.
*sigh*
life and the body are strange things.

here another REALLY cool link!
www.milkyelephant.com
go there right now!!!