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Friday, July 14th, 2000

9:49a god, i wish i hadn't stayed up until 5am! got up at 9. soooo tirrrrrrrrred. trina and bobbi will be here in 15 minutes 2 put in my extensions! too bad after i get them in my head will hurt too much 2 take a nap! :/
wish i woulda got more pix of my hair yellow like this. it glows in the dark more vividly than i have ever seen anything glo in the dark. i mean, it glows in black light. it's fantastic! i couldn't even believe it was my hair! i need 2 go run 2 the store 2 get some snacks. i hope it won't be too hot in here for everyone or we will have 2 find another place 2 do my hair.

wow, am i ever tired! and i am majorly bloated. pms-o-rama.

10:09a ok, the janitor guy came and sucke up the wtaer, thank god. the landlord still has no idea when the air conditioning people will come. just sometime today. it's weird, but i just cannot stop thinking about this whole jennidex/courtney fiasco. i feel so weird. even tho i am not directly involved and i do not know jennifer or courtney THAT well...i did have such a bonding with them when we were together at the shout2000 thing in san francisco. it feels like two of my sisters. and i would talk with both of then so much in chat and email and icq...jennifer more so. i am trying 2 stay nuetral and calm and say there MUST be more things to this story than meets the eye..because the whole thing just makes no sense to me whatsoever. i have written to jennifer pleading to please let me in on the missing puzzle piece. and i have written to courtney my condolences. i feel SO SO odd. it does, in a way, feel very much like a death somehow. i wish i didn't feel so "wrapped up" in this.

bobbi and trina are here

4:39p ok, my extensions are in. i forgot how heavy they are. once u get used 2 them they don't feel heavy at all. and my scalp is gonna be sore for about two days. tonight will be the worst. i'm going to go buy some ciders to numb the pain and make me fall asleep tonight. at least that's the plan this hour :) i wish i had not dyed my hair yellow now...because it doesn't go with the extensions. i thought it would, but i was wrong. maybe it will wash out fats. it was damn cool on it's own tho!

my air conditioner is still not fixed. jason went down 2 yell at the landlord extensively.

i can't leave the house untiln they arrive because of all my expensive equipment. so i am trapped. now that jaosn is home , i can leave i hope..after he gets done excercising. then i'll go for a walk and hope people are nice to me on the street about my hair and not mean.

i love hanging out with bobbi and trina. they braid SO fast! and have good stories to tell while they braid. we all kind of went into a "braiding trance" and forgot all about time. getting extensions in is so wild ...it must get every acupressure point on your head with all that very spcific sharp tugging and pulling and tightening. it's like zipping your head into a corset!

haven't heard back from jennifer nor courtney. i can understand that they both are probably not feeling too talkative or social right now. probably the opposite.

i wonder if jennifer knew people would react so harshly. i wish i knew how she was doing. i feel so helpless way over here....

10:32a ok, i'm up :) restless night sleeping on these extensions. tonight at 6 we are having 5 friends over 2 watch "american movie" . it's a weekend without air conditioning. thankfully the forcast is for the temp to reach 80 degrees at the highest. i'm still waking up and uncomfortable dreams are stuck in my head. more dreams about death and airplanes and drugs and swampiness.

1:29p i'm talking sporadically in my chatroom, irc.warped.net, and in hereandnow's chatroom. it's hard to talk in the hereandnow one 'cause i have 2 explain the very base things about me , since no one knows. and it's kind of got a slight pornish vibe in it...as in this one kid is comparing my body to lisa;s body and i hate that. jason is cleaning "his" bathroom...which is the one in the bedroom. i need to get soe food, i haven't eaten yet. my friend chuck. z. emailed me from south africa. i want 2 go outsied and pick wildflowers for comany tnoight. jason has family photos at four that he is dreading. i'm gonna buy some wine for company. i didn't drink any ciders last night. my hair is so heavy nad it's so hot in here. but i'm in a good mood :)

2:24p so mch u don't get 2 see on the cam because it' s impossible for 2 point at it all! jason running around naked, dogs running around naked. deiter hurt his paw on something. we went running through the halls. ok, i'm off 2 get food i am beyond famished

4:24p something i wrote about the jennifer/dex/courtney thing: http://www.peepingmoe.com:6968/forums/jenni/index.cgi?read=32484

5:05p it's 97 degrees in my aprtment right now. the lamdlord is giving us acess to a different aprtment that has air conditioning. so we are moving down there when company comes over to watch the movie down there. jason is gonna connect his dvd player up to a little tv they have in that apartment. i went outside for a bit and got some food but cam eback in to take some asppirin 'cause my head hurts from my hair. now i'm going back out to go buy some wine get some flowers. i talked to courtney on the phone for about 1/2 an hour. she is being so gracious about the whole thing, i have so much respect for her. it is an inspiration

4:04p seems i am in the same shape as the hereandnow people...recovering from drinking wine. i feel a lot better now 'cause of my afternoon nap. i just stuck a pepperoni pizza in the oven, and then i'm gonna watch tv for the rest of the night

Monday, July 17th, 2000

11:21a:
it's weird having jason back at work again, and i wake up 2 an empty house. i'm searching through all my recent campix to make a new anagram. my head doesn't hurt anymore from the extensions, but it itches.
dex and jennifer wrote me an email trying 2 explain things more. i didn't get a chnace to write back in the detail i wanted 2, since right at that second company arrived.

i'm not going 2 say what they wrote 2 me, since that was a private email. and i haven't fully formulated what i will write back yet. but i will say that we are still friends.
and that i am also courtney's friend, as well.

i still think that the way they went about what they did was very very bad. and i do think jennifer should write an apology to courtney and put it on her website.

i don't think there is much more i can say about this. my brain hurts from thinking about it.

1:11p:
my iar conditioner is fixed now, but now it isn't hot enough to turn it on! it's a beautiful 70 degrees out :) i am going to go for a nice long walk today after i put up this anagram that i am making right now

2:43p:
courtney's latest message: http://www.latitude11.com/wwwboard/messages/225.html