anagram 06.25.99

nothing 2 say today. well, i actually i have a lot 2 say, i wrote in my journal for 4 hours yesterday. but i'm not putting it in here for the reason that it would be invasive to someone's privacy. i am sustaining. it's very hot outside. but if i turn the air conditioner i get 2 cold. then if i turn the air conditioner on it gets too hot very fast. i feel jittery. i might say fuck it 2 all naked all week today, i'm not sure. maybe all naked for 5 1/2 days is just good enough :) i'm feeling self conscious about my weighing 10 more pounds than i'm used to. just am. plus my boobs are becoming crooked..the implants are shifting and i'm always trying 2 smash them back into place. of course some guy had to email me and tell me he has noticed my boobs are crooked because he's "worried about me". ack. just what i need. i've still been pretty depressed with shining our of happiness interspersed. i'm thinking of trying 2 start a company that makes housecalls if u need a hug or your head patted or just somebody to hold u and soothe u for awhile. i think there is a great need for this. but i haven't the faintest idea of how 2 go about it yet. someone who can come over with tea and blankets and some aroma therapy then just hug u for as long as u want or hold your hand or something and just be there. let me know what u think of this and what u think i would need to start it. i just woke up. i feel jittery. it was too hot last night. i had such abstract dreams about murder. i didn't sleep very well. jason left to go buy a bike seat today because somebody stole his. thank u 2 the person who bought me the book "the art of hugging" it is VERY interesting and just what i needed! also, if the person who sent me the present that said "you know from whom"..i don't know! :( so...THANK U mysterious person! if u read this :)

i got my 4 track back from the shop. bobby z went and did that for me, god bless him. now i can start recording again. it's my fostex 4 track from 1983. VERY easy 2 use :) it's the best thing i ever bought besides the hitachi magic wand :)