June 18th, 2003
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6:03pm

everyone should have a dog or a cat.
or a pet of some kind.
they are the best life savers in the world.

5:59pm

ok, i'm better.
i was having a spaz attack.
my dogs cheered me up. thank god for my dogs. they save my life everyday.
then jason came over and hugged me, too,and soon we are going out to dinner, which will cheer me up further because i need some food and i need to get out of this apartment.

 

4:53pm

didn't make it to the p.o. ran out of time.
whatever.
now what to do with the rest of my day?
clean? augh.
and my toilet is broken.
wonderful.
listening to new wave on the internet.
not even that is cheering me up.
i wish i had a swimming pool and could go swim.
fuck.
don't try to cheer me up. it won't work.
and jason is too busy to see me today *sigh*
and that bums me out further.
and he seems in a bad mood, too.
and so...
i don't know.
time is moving too slowly now.
and time is also moving by too quickly.
this day sucks shit.

4:11pm

ok, one happy thing today..my dr called in my amitriptyline that i take for my migraines. even tho i owe him from a few past appointments. i was seriously stressing over that for months. you have no idea.
now still need to come up with $700..somehow....
jason is going to give me a ride to the p.o. in a few minutes. thank god. i can barely deal with shit today. but i am dealing nevertheless.
the universe always takes care of me somehow.
i have to have faith.

3:25pm

i hate summers more than winters in minnesota. once it starts to be 80 degrees, it's just too hot. but i have to get outside to do errands. i know i am going to wilt out there and i really have no good summer clothes at the moment. argh.
i am so exceptionally crabby lately because i really DO need to get outside and get some excercise and some fresh air. even if it's hot humid air.
i feel like i have massive pms even tho i know i don't have pms right now.
finances are stressing me out. i just feel depressed and nothing interests me at the moment. i don't even want to crochet. but i keep plodding on because i have to get stuff done and not wallow.
god, i don't even want to talk about this. it's so exhausting. whatever.